cutie pie

Let's start the new year with something cute and sweet, as I hope that is how it will be this year for us, cute and sweet.



look at him.
Didn't that made u just wanna say auuuww? ;)
and just so u know, he's the supporting actor in a korean movie titled "Baby and I". He has been involved in entertainment industry since he's about 8 months or so. And if you wondered how the heck did he has those huge, adorable eyes, well, he's not fully korean. He's half Canadian.

Lynn's wedding

A close friend of mine got married on December 13, 2008. It was a great day, we got to see each other after months of being apart (all of us used to stay in the same apartment in our final year of study) and we were so thrilled to see one of us (the first!) to settle down at the age of 24. Here are some of the pictures. And to Lynn and her hubby Fairul, best of luck! I wish both of you all the happiness in the world :)

farewell

2008 is fast approaching the end.

I can't say that it's my best year. It's far from it. Yes I had some awesome memories, but it's pale in comparison to the bad times and the downs that I had to go through. So I'm kinda excited that it's finally coming to an end. I'm happy that I finally get to close the book and with much anticipation and enthusiasm, I shall open the new book. I have ONE major resolution that I hope I'll be able to achieve sometime next year. It's pretty vain but what can I do, I'm a woman :P And there are also some few minor resolutions that would be really sweet if I get to achieve them.

So, here's to us. Whatever happened in 2008, stays in 2008.

Let's keep on moving ;)

P/S - Dammit, I have to work on new year's eve and ON that new year day itself. What a way to start a new beginning, eh ;p

broken hearted girl

you've probably heard about beyonce's i am...sasha fierce. There's this one tune that's been playing on my head for days. It's broken hearted girl. You can listen to it on youtube, it won't take long to load as there's only the song and a still image.



You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought could've been
But still you lived inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I loved and not forgive
And though you've break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you babe
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel your not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you baby
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, mmm yeah
I ain't got to be afraid, my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away, away with you,
Yeah yeah yeah, oh ohh...

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without my baby
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl, no, no
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl


I think many could relate to this song. Probably most of us have felt like this at least once.

hiatus is over :P

dayyum,
been slacking for the past few weeks. Plenty had happened and I've been putting off blogging because of several reasons. My fingers are itching. I can't wait to blog more! Oh btw, this is my first post with my latest toy, baby phat.

And she's a laptop. The old one broken down.

So now I'm like nearly totally broke.

second helping at Dreambox :P

Yes, I went to Dreambox again haha. And we were charged 50.60 from 6pm until 10. I went there with my brother. He did all the eating while I did all the singing haha. Too much of it that we had to settle with eating while watching video clips because I can't sing anymore :P For about rm25.30 per person, it was worth it. I hope this promotion will go on up until next year because I'm dangerously becoming an addict of Dreambox!

congrats

I still can't believe that two BIG things are gonna happen this coming weekend that involves 2 of my close friends. One is getting married this Saturday while the other one is getting engaged the day after that. They must be feeling really nervous right now, preparing everything. I watched how their relationships grow and how they grow from being teenage kids fresh outta school to being this two wonderful ladies.

The one who is getting married is probably the most mature one out of us. She is a very sensible girl and I am so happy that she found this man who I am sure will make her happy and will take a really good care of her. I wish you all the happiness in the world, darling and I can't wait to see your little ones (I'm so gonna be the cool aunt and spoil them with pressies! :P)

The other who is getting engaged is a very, very beautiful young lady. Her beauty can make you go breathless. And her other half is a good looking guy, too :)(and he is a very, very patient guy). They are what you can call as a match made in heaven. I hope they'll sail thru their engagement and get married in a wonderful wedding.

Three cheers to these two of my gal pals. Be good, stay in love and live life. Guess we oredi know now who will be the first out of us all to settle down.! Me, I don't want a prince charming anymore, I want my prince of darkness to come and appear right in front of me out of thick smoke. (-I'm imagining Rob Pattinson here :P)Cool, cold, mysterious, does not talk to anyone else and worship me, only me. Mueheheh.

UN-enchanted

I just watched enchanted for the second time. Ah, what a lovely, lovely movie. And what lovely, lovely songs it has. What I love about it tho, is how you can watch the movie with 2 perception. You either watch it as a light movie, sipping in the good humour and enjoying the songs or you either think. Think about how ironic life is. And how the grass always seem to be greener on the other side. Fairy tales seem perfect, easy and blissful but I bet Cinderella also would love to date before she married her prince charming.

Prince charming, huh?

Does that even exist anymore?

Will I find him and lead that happily ever after that must be so nice and comforting or will I succumb to the pressure of the society and tie the knot (like, literally) with God knows who and live years of regret, thinking about what could have been?

IF, my Prince Charming (you know, the one who is FOR me as I am FOR him and who will go and fight the dragon off from hurting me and save me with a true love's kiss when I faint upon biting a poisonous apple) does exist, it's about time you show up with your shining armor and save me from falling deep, deep into this pit. But, if there is NO prince charming for me (maybe I don't deserve one after all *pfftt*) then I don't want all the other wannabes to cross my path and try to lend their hands for me because, excuse me mister, I am capable of saving myself.

Twilight OST - I Caught Myself by Paramore

I've mentioned earlier that Twilight OST is worth listening to. Although the movie did not get much liking from me, I dig its soundtrack. So here I'm gonna give you a link to one of the best song in it, Paramore - I Caught Myself.

go to >>> http://www.aimini.net/view/?fid=4z6jogsmrwe8vyYqjfRr

or you can try listening to it here and then download it if you like it.




Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
Of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With god as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
Of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I knew
But know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought

To download it, go to the website that I gave you and click the "free download here" link that's below the player. It's quite small.

P/S - I freakin heart PARAMORE!! hah. So, there you go. :)) And oh, this song is sorta about falling for somebody who you don't want to fall for (for whatever reason that might be)

CUBA - Faizal Tahir

I just watched the semi final of Muzik Muzik on TV3 (thanx to my bestie who reminded me about it). Five songs made it to the final, Lagu Kita by Aizat, Bila Nak Saksi by Spider, Hanya Di Mercu by Ayu, Sampai Syurga and Cuba, both by the talented Faizal Tahir. I adore Faizal Tahir. His songs are awesome as well as his performances. They never fail to impress me. I love both of his songs that made it to the final but I love Cuba slightly more, simply because, well, I'm feeling it. The music builds up your anticipation nicely but it's the lyric that got my attention.

Cuba kau dengar
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
Tuk berbicara dengan kamu

Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu

Cuba kau lihat
Cuba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihatmu

Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
Dalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa

Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar..
Untuk kau melihat ke mataku

Yes, it's not your typical love songs and strange enough, I think many people could relate to it. Or at least I think I could relate to it. Anyhoos, it's a freakrockinly (yes, I invented a new word. Yes!!) good song and I can't wait to listen to it at the final. Good luck Faizal. Mwaah! :)

CIRCUS

Brit's new video is out and you gotta go and check it out. The flow is there, she dances well and the fire is back in her eyes. I love this song and it's totally something that you can dance to. And it'd probably make a good work out song too. Welcome back, BritBrit!

Britney - Circus

I'm not ashame to admit that I LOVE *hugs hugs* Britney Spears. 2008 has been a great year for our Queen B and thank God for my favourite pop princess is no longer going through that dark phase of her life. It's December now and is the month of sharing and giving (think Christmas! :)) so I'm feeling generous to share with you guys the latest tracks for Queen B's album entitled Circus.

part A = http://rs538.rapidshare.com/files/165412478/Britney_Spears_-_Circus__2008_.part1.rar

part B = http://rapidshare.com/files/165427610/Britney_Spears_-_Circus__2008_.part2.rar"

(Sorry, u have to go copy and paste those link. I can't effing hyperlink it. Darn!)

And oh, I do urge you guys to go and BUY the album to enjoy it. Think of this link as a urmmm... preview ohkay? ;)

Dreambox definitely cured the ITCH! :)

I really love karaoke-ing. Ever since I was introduced to GreenBox / RedBox last year, I've been hooked. Head over heels, madly in love. Shame there wasn't any in Melaka.

Not for long :)

In the middle of this year, my gal pals and I discovered this kinda oh-kay karaoke place. It's GoGo Karaoke, pardon the name, I know it sounds silly but the location is not. It is nicely located at the end of a jetty, where you could take a free buggy ride to go there. After all, you need to save up the energy to sing your heart out later.

But it did not take us long to find out that the service is rather lukewarm, to the border of being cold. The rooms can be dirty at times and don't get me started on the sound system and the song selection. So, it was basically down with GoGo.

The lacking of karaoke place in Melaka was seriously hazardous to my mental's & wallet's health. I could go to KL just to hog the mic at Red Box Low Yatt. I had to, otherwise I might end up with days of itchy throats (huh?)

So imagine how overjoyed I was when I discovered DreamBox, which I could call the fraternity brother of Redbox/Greenbox. A little bit overpriced though (costs us 40++ which includes free buffet + 2 drinnks and 3 hours of karaoke session) but, the room, the service, and the sound system is simply heavenly. The song selection doesn't rock as Redbox/Greenbox does but as long as there is Avril's Losing Grip that I could scream out loud to, hey it's fine with me :)



There is a promotion for the month of December, and my throat is itching (??!) again. Might tag my brother along with me, he does not sing, so I could have the mic all for my own. He could have the buffet, I don't mind.

If you are interested in a singing session at Dreambox, go to Dataran Pahlawan Mall, it is located at level 4, below GSC, above Carrefour. It's relatively cheap in December and gosh, I wanna go there agaiiiiiin!

P/S - I really enjoyed spending time with my three bestest-childhood-friends. Thanks for making my Sunday nite a happy, happy one! I needed it badly :) And girls, I want all the pics pwissss~~~

What To Give, ah?

I have two major weddings to attend next month. It's the school holidays so it's just natural that people want to get married during this season. Gosh, those wedding planners must be making real big bucks this time of the year. I heard even the price of eggs shoot up now (because Malays usually gives out boiled eggs to their guests as a sign of thank you. Do you have any idea what does the eggs symbolize? I have an idea but I dunno if it's the real truth behind this tradition).

These two major weddings are the weddings of important people in my life. One is a close friend who was once my roomie while the other is a cousin who grew up together with me, so close, that we have people around us calling us twins! Heck, we even almost have the same car's registration number! (His is 2717 while mine is 2718).

So I'm scratching my head every now and then (especially when I invigilate for SPM, the students are busy tackling the questions while I, busy thinking about stuff like this) thinking about what to give them. And that pressie must not be burning my wallet also. I'm not being a tangkai jering here but bear in mind I have to give two pressies, need to save up some dough for something special that I'm gonna buy this end of year while spending my moolah on things that bring me pleasure too (-i.e : shopping *hee hee*, karaoke-ing *it's been a looooong time* and also beautifying me ;D).

Any logical, practical ideas?

Anways, in giving wedding pressies, should we give something that can be used by both parties (husband + wife)?. I don't want to give a set of cutlery. I think that's so lame! They are just married for heaven's sake, they won't be needing lots of tea sets.

Should I give comfy, nice and soft-y bed linen? But what if they have Queen size bed and I give them King's? That would be a waste.

I wish I have lots of moolah so that I could give my gal pal a nice IKEA furniture for her future house and a nice getaway to Bali for my cousin and his wife. Now, if only I am a Hollywood celebrity (!).

P/S - I already have a side-pressie planned for my cousin. He said he wanna give me a penggaru belakang @ back scratch-er if I get married so, I'm gonna give you that, man! Mwahahahaha. (U dunno what is penggaru belakang? Go and ask your grandparents. The elderly looooove to use it).

GG

Guess what GG is.

Guess.

Keep guessing.

Come on.

You can do better.

I SAID take a guess. Come on, be a sport.

OK, I heard you. You want a clue.

It's a TV show.

Is the lightbulb on now?

If your guess is Gossip Girl, nope, that's not it.

It's a tv show that made its debut well before Gossip Girl. And I had a major crush on one of its actor. Still have a crush on him tho :))

It's GILMORE GIRLS. I'm assuming you've watched it before or at least have heard about it.




I really loved this tv show. I loved it as much as I loved Smallville, if not more. Probably the main reason for the liking is because of the main focus of the show. Mother-daughter relationship that is more often than not, complicated (but fun nevertheless).

Just to brush off some dust that might have been collecting in the brain department about this show, the main characters of this show are Lorelai and Rory. The former is the mother while the latter is the daughter. The mother gave birth at a very young age (16 yrs old) after an incident (you know lah what incident I'm talking about, rite). The mother comes from this affluent family and she is the only child so the parents' hope on her was high. After she got impregnated, conflicts arose between her and her parents and she wanted to break free.

Few years down the road, her daughter (Rory) grew up to be this beautiful and intelligent young girl (played by Alexis Bledel). The mother does not want her to make mistakes in her life that she did when she was younger so the story pretty much went from there onwards.

This show made me goes down the memory lane because I used to watch it back when I was in secondary school up until my early uni years. Besides being a great show with the actors talking reaaaally fast, perhaps it was my favourite too because I associate it with my younger years (damn I sound like an old maid here) when things were a little different.

Anyhoos,
It has been a while since I last watched this show so tonight was kinda special because I got to watch it by chance on tv. I did not know that 8TV is running this show on every Tuesday nite. I think they are running the 6th season but don't take my word for it, I was too busy drooling over Luke *heh heh heh*

Oh yes,
About Luke. He is NOT the crush that I mentioned earlier. It is MILO VENTIMIGLIA (yes, that dude from heroes) who played Jess (Rory's 2nd lover and he is a bad boy, who loves to read ohhhh~). I didn't remember ever having a crush on Luke or drooling over him but I did earlier tonight.

Does this mean that...
Could I be...
getting mature..? (for having a crush on mature guys haha).

Interesting how few years could change your preferences. Come to think about it, yeah, it is fascinating to think about how I used to love to wear jerseys (football jerseys) and not caring about my looks, just to name a few. I can only imagine how I'm gonna be like 5 more years down the road. Preferences might or might not change but one thing for sure, I'm gonna look (a little bit) different. I'm nervous just thinking about the future.

Anyways, back to GG, I adore their theme song "Where You Lead". It is sung by a mother/daughter pair and it is a really sweet song. It has that feel good feeling to it :)

I'm sad that the show has ended. Just what is gonna happen to Rory and Lorelai, next? Haven't had the chance to watch the final episode though, but I have read its synopsis and I think it is a nice ending to this show which has 7 successful seasons under its hat.

Transformation

I love the blockbuster movie Transformer. There's a lot of cool scenes that rocked my socks off, Megan Fox is ultimately hot and Bumble Bee is just super cute. Perhaps what I loved most about it was the transformation ('duh) of the robots. They are in a league of their own.

Transformation certainly made the cars better didn't it?

So, is transformation a good thing?

When someone you thought you knew changes (might be for better or worse), will you be skeptical about it? Or will you just adapt to the new transformation? Or maybe, that transformation inspires you to change too?

People change every now and then. You can control a machine but it is impossible to control a human being. We have a mind of our own and our hearts keep playing a prominent role in making decisions.

But of course, a drastic change could lead to a traumatic effect. So, it's just as fair when the people around you change dramatically too, because you have set a perfect example. Perhaps, it is what people called as the chain reaction.

Things change, as well as people. So maybe it's time for a transformation.

Because I Deserve It!

Sometimes we are so caught up in pleasing others, we forgot to please ourselves. And that is a shame.

My teacher once asked everyone in my class to name 3 persons that we love most. Almost everybody named their parents as the one they love most. I, on the other hand, named myself as the person that I love most. In the end we came to a conclusion that we need to love ourselves above others, because if you don't, no one else would. And when you love yourself, you would take really good care of yourself.

After consecutive weeks of torture and damnation, I felt that I just need to give myself something, for making it through all the shit.

And so I pampered me :)

I focused on one part of me that needs the most attention (as for now) and that is my hair. They need a bit more care and affection. My hair and I always have this love-hate relationship.

So, on last weekend, I got a new haircut at this salon that I have always had my eyes on when I go shopping. Nothing grand about it but it's convenient. I gave myself a good nearly 2 hours of pampering. Complete with hair treatment session and all. Almost go through with the rebonding idea but that has to wait if I don't want to go broke :P

Walking out of the salon, I felt like a superstar. That feeling made me glowwww for the whole day and that's it, I shall care more about myself! It's about time anyway ;)

P/S - So the whole point of this filler blog post is that...... when things aren't going to the direction that we want to, stop for a while, take a break and do things that would make you feel better. You deserve it above all!

Damn That Made My Day :P

You ever experienced the feeling of getting an honest compliment after a shi*ty day?

It feels reallllly good and could magically make your stress goes kapoof (that's the sound of something that is magically vanished, you human beings have little imagination don't you :P)

So I was marking my students' final exam papers (had to finish it within today because I'll be away on another *insert any curse word you'd like here* 3 days mission far far *well not so far actually* away from school). The students were finally done with the final exam and so they were happily chatting away with one another and some gathered around me, gossiping away. The thing that I love most about teaching is when I get to interact with these kids (not during lessons) because they never fail to amuse me.

And I love it especially when I say stuff that got them stunned (some funny stuff tho, nothing insulting) and made them laugh their arses off.

I love it even more when they compliment me and they did not even realise it!

What were their compliments? Hee hee hee. That is for me to know and for you to find out :D Just want to spread the word here that giving a compliment could really make someone's day. So if something good crosses your mind when you see someone, let it out and make sure that person knows it. Don't hold back because we don't really lose anything by saying something good about someone. What goes around comes around, hopefully that feel-good-feeling bug will bite you and makes your day better too!

Hot And Cold

This single by (sexy songstress) Katy Perry had been released for quite some time but I only remembered to put up a post about it now. The moment is kinda perfect anyways because I am currently swamped with work that I need something to take my mind off the stress!

Anyhoos,
This song is as catchy as I Kissed A Girl but the lyric is less controversial. I love the lyric because it described how guys can change in a blink of an eye (and yet they say that girls are mysterious, huh?) Simple yet it hits the mark perfectly.

You gotta watch the video clip. It's fun and it portrays Katy's fun persona really well. One of the reasons I love Katy is because of her fine, fun choice of attire. Not to be forgotten is her sexy red lippies, now, not everyone could pull off red lipstick well!

So, if you're in the midst of doing something that you are getting tired of, take a 5 mins break (it could be longer if your internet connection is slow tho), watch this vid and have fun!

*mwah!*

Enter, Baby Zuma

I love Gwen Stefani. She is chic down to the core. She's the lead singer of a super awesome rock band. She did well as a solo singer. And she's the brain behind L.A.M.B collection which I adore.

Most importantly, she got married at a late age after enjoying strings of success in her career and she managed to give birth to 2 beautiful, perfect boys. Her eldest son is Kingston (who is the spitting image of rockstar hubby Gavin Rossdale) and her youngest is Zuma Nesta Rock Rossdale (what a name, huh). So you see, it's not that impossible. ;p

So she just recently released a pic of her and baby Zuma who has been safely guarded and protected from the paps. I must say, what a darling little angel. I just know Zuma is as cute as (if not, cuter than) Kingston!



Gwen, Gavin, Kingston and Zuma make a happy, perfect bunch. Let's just hope that they will last and there'll be no nasty drama ala Madonna, ever!.

(Breaking News) Even Them Too?

I was reading the online local newspaper. Despite the mountaining exam papers that I have to mark, I still have to keep up with what's happening today, don't I ?

Don't judge me, but as a normal, typical human being who is always drawn to hot news (or some prefer to call them gossip.. shessh..) this caught my attention.

Pelakon Gerak Khas ditangkap khalwat

KUALA LUMPUR: Pelakon Gerak Khas yang kini rumahtangganya dikatakan sedang retak, pagi tadi ditangkap khalwat di sebuah premis perniagaan di Jalan UP 1/2, Ukay Perdana, di sini.

Tangkapan dilakukan kira-kira jam 2 pagi oleh Jabatan Agama Islam Selangor (Jais), berikutan maklumat orang ramai.

Timbalan Ketua Polis Daerah Ampang, Superintendan Amiruddin Jamaluddin, berkata pihaknya menerima laporan tangkapan pasangan itu daripada Jais kira-kira jam 3 pagi.

The actor of Gerak Khas.
Marriage that is crumbling down.
For those who has been reading the local newspaper, come on don't tell me his name did not cross your mind.

He has been denying about the rumours of his failing marriage.
His wife admitted (to the reporters) that their marriage is facing a whirlwind tornado.
They just had a baby girl, for God's sake.
And then this happened.

It surely makes me nervous just thinking about getting married! It is a gamble that is risky. You may win or you may not. For those who lose, the losses could be quite big and traumatic. Eek!

BTW, don't tell me you still dunno who that person is?

It's that actor Norman Hakim, lah.

No Escaping

When something bad happened to someone, we assume it will never happens to us. But the recent tragedy that happened to Jennifer Hudson's family proves that crime does not care who you are.

Her mother and her sister were attacked by a family member. It was her brother in law. This is an example of a family dispute gone bad. Her nephew was kidnapped and all prays go out to their family, hoping that the kid will be OK.

But sadly, a body was found in an SUV and the FBI confirmed that it belongs to her nephew.

Deepest condolences goes out to her and her family. And for us out there, be safe, be cautious. We never know when things like this could happen to us. Pray hard. Hopefully her family will be able to go through this trying time.

If I Were A Boy

Celebs usually release a catchy tune as their first single (of their new records) but not this time around for songbird Beyonce. This song is mellow. Might not be accepted by your ears the first time you hear it but chances are, when you catch up with the lyric, you'll fall in love with it. This is especially true for girls. It is right on the spot, perfectly describing us girls' feelings about relationship (most of us girls anyway ;p). And the video clip is top notch, too. Tastefully done in black & white with plots that flows smoothly. It clicks with the lyric beautifully. Do go and watch it from the start until the end. It's worth your 5 minutes time.

This song also goes out to the boys. Especially for those who find that girls are puzzling. Well, breaking news, we find you as one too.

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy




P/S - I used to want to be a boy so much when I was younger. *ha ha*. Like, literally.

That's Bloody Rude!

I came to know about Malaysia being one of the rudest country in the world about a year ago. We actually ranked third out of the 35 countries that was put on the survey. I know some Malaysian would definitely flipped out when this achievement*ha ha* is mentioned to them. But, honestly, don't you see it coming?

There are many factors that contributed to this achievement. We seldom say thank you after we receive the balance from the cashier. We don't hold the door for the next person behind us. What if we left our handphones in public places? The chances of you getting it back is as slim as our Ringgit having the highest value in the world. Don't even get me started on our driving attitude. You and I both know how ruthless we can be on the road :D

So where did we go wrong?

I think the most important thing here is for us to change ourselves for the better. Being courteous doesn't hurt. Treat others how you want to be treated, because there's this thing call karma baby, and what goes around comes around ;). When we have become a better and polite person, it would be time to teach the young ones through modeling because talk is cheap.

Don't forget your thank yous!

Flu + Fever Alert

What do you do when you have fever + flu ?

Admit it, there are times when you don't feel like going to the doctor, for whatever reason it might be. So during those times, you usually fall back to the medication that you bought when you last met the doctor.

This is what I usually do. Take the antibiotic.

But apparently, according to a friend, you have to be cautious in taking antibiotic. It is more suited for bacteria-caused sickness (such as cough). However, for flu, which is caused by viruses, it is quite unsuited. In other words, it is quite useless, really. Besides, the microorganism will become resistant to the it. Therefore, when you really need one, you might gonna need an antibiotic with a much higher dose.

However, there is one habit that is apparently proven good during those fever + flu times. That is, to drink plenty of fluid. This includes water and also isotonic drinks such as 100+ and Revive. When you are feverish, you lose plenty of fluid as well as electrolytes. So that explains why you are recommended to drink isotonic drinks.

Well, my work is done here. I'm feverish atm so that's why I went all medical for this entry :P

It IS The Best Medicine

I read about it couple of times on how it works tremendously well in making you feel better.

What am I talking about?

It is laughter.

Do you know that there are even laughing-yoga-like classes in the States? In that class, you'll learn how to cope with your stress by laughing. Geez. People nowadays even need a lesson on how to laugh.

Anyways,

It hasn't been a great day for me. My immune system is acting funny (I'm feverish) and I realized that I am still fat and still hasn't managed to get rid of the fats that I gained during Raya.

So I have been driving for almost 2 hours while doing some thinking.

And I could literally feel my face developing some wrinkles. I felt old and cranky.

As I was approaching my home, there was this bunch of kids standing at the side of the road. I saw a very strategic cow's poop in the middle of the road and I wanted to avoid it. But, I did not.

So, splat it went.

And I heard one of the kids screamed loudly

"Eek...look at the cow's poop."
They giggled uncontrollably.
And I couldn't help but laughing too.
I couldn't believe that it is relatively easy to make kids laugh.
And I couldn't believe that I felt much better after that.

Guess it's true,
laughter IS the best medicine! And if you can't bring yourself to laugh about something, pretend it. It sounds silly but it actually works. I know, I learned about it from Oprah.

They Didn't Last Too

It is just impossible for Hollywood celebs to stay married, isn't it?

The news of their marriage being on the rock has circulated for months. The news about them announcing their divorce began swirling yesterday and now, it is apparently confirmed that our Material Girl and her husband is going to get a divorce.

What could be the reason? Will have to wait and see. Was it because of work? Madge's tour? Guy's latest movie? Our material girl is finally sick of trying to be the English rose? And are we going to see more of Madge and Alex Rodriguez?

It makes me hyperventilating just to think about the possibilities. And the stories that surely will come pouring out, they make me anxious!

Anyways, here's to another end of a Hollywood marriage. 8 years, man. That seems like forever in Hollywood years!

Down With The Craptacular Menu!

One disadvantage of working in school is that you have only one place to go to grab a bite during your brekkie. That is the canteen.

And if the food in the canteen sucks, you just have to bear with it. Or pack your own food from home. But I rarely see that happen. And even if the teachers did pack some food, they will still go to the canteen anyway.

I have no choice but to eat the food that are available in the canteen. It's not worth the energy, time and money to prepare my own food.

So it's pretty heartbreaking to see the same ol same ol menu every time I go there! It's always the same. I can practically name the menu that they will serve each day. I can even tell the taste, in details.

I feel like starting a strike. Down with the craptacular menu!

But I'm afraid I'm gonna be alone, claiming my right as a customer, to be served with more taste bud-challenging menu. The thing is, the food would always be sold out by noon.

Gah.

I wish the school would adopt the survey technique in hope of being better. Better education, better surrounding and most importantly, better food.

I would gladly volunteer to create the survey form.

And I know what my personal respond would be.

It's not that I want to sack the kakak who runs the canteen. It's just that I hope, by doing so, she could offer a better service (and of course, a better menu too). But it's somewhat like a culture here in Malaysia to keep on going through the dark tunnel, hoping that it will end soon or a light will magically appear. It will not. Unless you do something.

For now I guess I'm gonna have to settle with questioning the teachers to provoke their unsatisfied taste bud.

To The Baby Whale Who Didn't Make it :(

I have a soft spot for animals so that pretty much explains why I'm typing this entry.

Yesterday, I read an article on the local newspaper about a baby whale that was fighting for its life. It couldn't get back to the sea because of the low tide. I'm sure it was a very rare sight for the locals there. Not sure what was their initial respond (I have a feeling it was stop-n-stare) but when the reporter came, naturally, everyone looks busy, trying to save the baby whale, keeping its body wet.

Interestingly, one of the locals claimed that the organization (I'm not mentioning what, take a guess) who should take immediate action to save this baby whale did not do so. The only thing they did was take pictures of the whale for, ahem, studies perhaps? That's craptacular.

They managed however to get the baby whale back into the ocean at night (after God knows how many hours the poor baby had spent fighting to survive) but it was found dead at the shore, this morning.

It is pretty much expected, isn't it?

So to all those mama whales out there, hold on to your babies tight should you swim nearby the shore of Malaysia. Warn you babies. They are doomed if they are stranded here. It's not everyday that we get to take pictures of a stranded baby whale, you know?

For All Your Juicy Gossip Need

The kids in Upper East Side of New York can log in to Gossip Girl.com for their juicy gossip need. (uh-huh, avid fan of GG here ;P)

And we, the normal lot who don't own an only 2 grand LV bag can also get an access to know what's happening in Hollywood. I've been hooked to this site ever since I was introduced to it by a friend. I need daily dose of it now. Talk about being addicted.

The site http://x17online.com/index.php is updated daily, with kick ass paparazzi shots. Aside from pictures, you can even watch videos of the celebs respond to the paps' questions (watch them, they are awesome). And if you are into Britney, this site has almost every update about her here. I watched her latest vid (in case you didn't know, it's called the womanizer) here (and she is so smokin' hot in it, y'all!).

So, for all your juicy gossip needs, go to http://x17online.com/index.php . Just one reminder though, you are likely to get addicted!

You've been warned ;)

Lower Petrol Price in Malaysia

I bought my car early this year. Some months later, the fuel price reached the roof and it affected me greatly because I travel quite a lot. For some time, I drove about 80kmph. I searched the web for tips on saving fuel.

So it felt really great to know that the price is decreasing. It started with a mere 15 cents, followed by another 10 cents and now, an awesome 15 cents. (Please correct me if I am wrong, am typing purely based on memory here). So from 2.70, it will now become 2.30, as of tomorrow (15th October 2008)*

It is pretty much expected, looking at the global price of fuel.

One question though, will the rebate still be on after all these? It was decided that it will be continued until April, but I'm kinda worried that it will end much sooner. That wouldn't be fair to those who has yet to get it.

And that will trigger even more wrath from the people.

*price differs, according to fuel. RON97, diesel and RON92.

Datukship for Shah Rukh Khan

My bad, that should be Datuk Shah Rukh Khan, right?

HA- HA - HA.

Back when I was a kid, being a Datuk is a big deal. Everyone looks up at you, people wants to be closed to you and many will claim that they are your long lost relatives. It was not easy to get that Datukship. You got to be a really successful person or really filthy rich.

But unfortunately, it has now become a joke.

Not only that there are tonnes of Datuks nowadays (hence stripped away the 'special' factor). I am also confused as to what criteria are being taken into consideration in order to honour someone with a Datukship. It has become so common that when you yell "Datuk!" in your local shopping mall, chances are, many will answer your call with a "YES?"

And the latest joke has something to do with Bollywood (Boley-wood?)

I saw a friend's Yahoo Messenger's status that was something like this "In Bolehwood, even Shah Rukh Khan gets Datukship." I thought that must be a real joke. You know, the joke joke. But apparently it IS the real deal. He was honoured with Datukship from Melaka. HA - HA.

And apparently the main reason for him getting the honour was because he helped promoted Melaka so much in his movies. Actually, in one movie. I couldn't recall knowing other countries in the world that honour someone else (not their citizens) with a grand title (Datuk is almost like Sir in England. Almost.) because that person had promoted that particular country.

It is not confirmed yet when Datuk Shah Rukh Khan will go through the ceremony but I have a feeling that it is quite likely that he won't even be there. He is a busy man, promoting countries and all.

Well, I suppose this is like a free promotion. All the hype maybe, maybe could promote Melaka although I'm afraid it could be for the wrong reason. Oh my beloved hometown.

virus / spyware scare?

I was surfing the internet as usual. No new routine, no new website, nothing unusual. But suddenly a pop up appeared and then it just seem to duplicate itself. Really fast. Before I knew it, there were 50++ of them and I got disconnected from my internet service provider. You bet I nearly wet my pants.

I cannot close the pop ups because each time I attempted to do so, it came right back on. And I cannot click the shut down computer from the start menu neither, as well as choosing the CTRL + ALT + DEL. Exactly NOTHING happened. So, what a girl to do?

I switched off the laptop all right, by pressing the on/off button for a few seconds.

When it's right back on and I'm on the internet again, it's just natural to search for an anti spyware installer. So I stumbled upon this site, http://www.filehippo.com/ and there are heaps of installer! Glad I found it because now I know a cool place where I can download beneficial installer :)

I hope I won't get another scare after this. It's not nice to wet your pants on a relaxing, Sunday morning :P

And The Winners Are...

I have an uncle with a wicked sense of humor. He's a sharp man with comments that could sometimes make you want to hide yourself safely under the blanket. He could extract any information that he wants from you simply by asking several questions that build up from simple to tricky. So you got to to know when to twist your answer. You got to be street smart :P But he's fun, nonetheless. Honest.

As a proof, I am going to type out here the recent txt that he gave me just about hours ago. It has to do about the Malaysia current political scene. Something that almost everybody can talk about for hours because we have so much to say about everything :)

Here is the result of 2008 karaoke finalist,
9 - Tun Mahathir with the song "My Way"
8 - Pak Lah with the song "Dream Dream Dream"
7 - Najib with the song "Your Cheating Heart"
6 - Tengku Razaleigh with the song "I Believe I Can Fly"
5 - Khairy with the song "Money Money Money"
4 - IGP with the song "I'll Be Watching You"
3 - Anwar Ibrahim with the song "Winds of Change"
2 - Saiful with the song "I Swear"
1 - Syed Hamid with the song "Oh Carol (I'm But A Fool)"

I must say, kudos to whoever make this thing up. Probably got inspired after tired of reading the newspapers and watching the news. Read the joke, comprehend it and you'll get it eventually.

my latest baby

No, not the baby who cries and wakes me up late at night :P

It is my latest project, hopefully something that enables me to share the knowledge and experience that I've gained from my career with others. I've thought about writing them here but after much consideration, it is probably better to record them somewhere else, where it is not jumbled up with other aspects of my life that I write about.

It's http://redhotcikgu.blogspot.com/

sorry, you're gonna have to copy and paste if you are curious. Tried to link it but I failed. Or you can click the link at the right hand side of this page, below the read this section.

And as the URL suggest, yes it's about teaching!

tickle that thick, funny bone.

It's Friday, alas :)

Next week is sorta a trying week for me, and the week after that. Heaps to be done and to think about and time just seem to keep on ticking. Before I know it, it's already Friday.

Well since it's the weekend, I guess we ought to let all the stress to evaporate. And what better way to do it than to laugh =))

So here's a story that I've heard over and over. But it differs from one source to another. Some changed the name, location and so forth. Whatever it is, it still is funny, in a perverted kind of way ;)

There was a Chinese lady married to an English gentleman and they lived in London . The poor lady was not very proficient in English, but managed somehow to communicate with her husband. The real problem arose whenever she had to shop for groceries. One day, she went to the butcher and wanted to buy pork legs. She didn't know how to put forward her request, and in desperation, lifted up her skirt to show her thighs. The butcher got the message and the lady went home with pork legs.

The next day, she needed to get chicken breasts. Again, she didn't know how to say, and so she unbuttoned her blouse to show the butcher her breast. The lady got what she wanted.

The third day, the poor lady needed to buy sausages. She brought her husband to the store....... ... so what did she do?
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well, ahem, she asked her husband to request for the sausage in English, of course.
what were you thinking? ;)

Have a great weekend!

the post raya blues

I face this problem every single year. And I'm sure most of you (assuming that you are Malaysian) face this problem too. We eat a lot, especially during festive seasons. We just celebrated Eid / Aidilfitri / Raya and being a true Malaysian, I ate like there's no tomorrow ;P.

Gone are the glorious days that I celebrated my few lost kilos. The fats that I managed to get rid of during the fasting month probably had duplicated itself since the first day of Raya. To think of the yogurt diet that I gone through few weeks before Ramadhan, I feel ashamed of myself now.

The thing is, once we started to eat a lot, it's hard to stop.

I kept telling myself that it is only for the 1st day of Raya. Then it continued to the second and the third. Managed to stretch itself to the fourth Raya too, what the heck, it was the holiday and my tummy deserved a break from food restriction.

And it is now the second week of Raya and I'm bloated like a well fed whale.

So, what do you do in this situation?

Feel sorry for yourself, hate yourself for being a big easy *ha ha* and chow down even more food to ease the pain?

I'm tempted to do that routine. But, I'm getting older and I want to get better as I age. I want to be like the female George Clooney. You know, just like Jennifer Aniston :)

So as from tomorrow (I had to prepare my tummy to be ready, first. It's a sad thing to depart from plenty of food)I will go back to the diet that I think was working quite well for me and it involves a cup of yogurt every single day (to help with the digestion and it also provides plenty of vitamin!). And there'll also be less intake of rice. Although it is kind of uneasy to explain to other teachers in the canteen when I just have my lauk sans the rice,

"What, no rice?"
"Can survive ka?"
"How can you be fulled with just that?"

It's just so tedious to explain to everybody why I ditch the rice every now and then so I usually just nod and smile. I've talked way too much in classes already :)

To readers who are still in the mood for Raya (what with the open house and all), consume food responsibly :P Your tummy had a really nice one month vacation from working endlessly and just like anything, too much of something in one go could cause a breakdown.

And oh, in the spirit of Raya, would love to wish all readers SELAMAT HARI RAYA and MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

DBSK is back. Fighting!!

It's the ever awaiting comeback. DBSK burst into the Kpop scene (once again) with a much anticipated single, MIROTIC. And I say, it's about time, oppas ;)

Thanks to my kawaii gal pal, I was updated about this PV (work seems to always get the better of me nowadays) by her. And I'm glad she did! Ever since they released their Purple Line, DBSK seemed to have mellowed down their image. They appeared, ahem, softies? However you might wanna categorize their image, it's safe to say that it was far from their 'Rising Sun' era.

So it was refreshing to see that these oppas returned to the scene with a brand new attitude. They appeared hotter. Hotter hairdos, hotter dance moves (it's nothing like before, it's more...urm..smooth?) and yes, hotter bods too (you see that coming, didn't you ;p) To add even more seasoning to the already scrumptious kimchi *ha ha* our beloved oppas now look more mature too.

The PV starts with each of them being taken away by some supernatural force and that force is revealed shortly after that. And of course, that 'force' is a lady, clad in a red satin dress. The PV continues with how that lady in red tortures (or rather, plays!) with each of them. Jae Joong is tied down to the ground with a rope, (my) Yunho is tied with black chiffon (damn), (the now adult) Chang Min is being left in the water, Micky is being confined in a jar that makes him look like Nemo in an aquarium, while Xiah gets to play with laser beam! And after each of them is released from their torture, they ran after that lady in red. And this is the part where I wish I AM that lady in red. Nosebleed. And towards the end of the PV, pay close attention to their eyes. I have a feeling their fans wouldn't mind dreaming about vampires after this ;)

All in all, not a bad attempt for a comeback, it shows their maturity and I don't mind that at all. It would be a tad too weird should they be back with a 'balloon'-like single. They are way past that age :) So, welcome back Oppas!!

Ahem, and Yunho, you know I'll be dreaming about youuuuu tonight ;))

THE HEROES ;)

THE DIFFERENT KIND OF LOVE
Is it really that impossible to befriend the opposite sex sans the emotional feelings that often leaves people caught up on a ride of the emotional roller coaster?
I’m sure there are many views about the above matter.
But I suppose it all comes down to one thing. Sincerity. If one is sincere about the friendship, there should be no (or at least few) dilemmas. Those dilemmas that could arise and dampen the friendship.
For me, I feel that I am blessed with friends who bring the colours to my life. They are of the same as well as the opposite sex of me.
There are friends who make you feel like you are their little sister (and sometimes like their daughter, too!). The way they protect you against the elements that could bring sadness to your life. And also the way they give you advices (that sometimes sting and feel like a slap to the face! LOL). But despite the (stingy) *ha ha* advices, they turn out to be one of the BEST cook. It felt heavenly to taste and I miss your (exotic hee) dishes, Big Daddy F. And also how you believe and stand for your beloved lil sisters. You make me wish I am your real daughter / little sister
There are also friends who would go all the way to make you feel better. Who would call you to make sure that you are OK, because the sound of you crying is apparently NOT the most attractive sound in the world ;p And who would literally BE there for you when it is possible. You’ll always be my darling (I know you will read this piece of entry someday! ).
Similarly, there are also friends who would call you right back when they missed your call. When all I wanted was just to hear a familiar voice, we ended up chatting away for hours. And boy, it must be something about being a male because there is always, always good insight or solutions that I could get from these calls. They could be fun and insightful at the same time and this flexibility is what I find most interesting.
There are also friends who you are yet to meet in person but they become one of the prominent persons in your life, regardless. It’s just the simple little chat that could uplift your mood from zero to almost a superhero like. And I thought it’s wonderful on how someone who have never even meet me could become one of my great backbone, who root for me to continue updating my blog. (You study well for your exams ok, doc?)
There are more that I should write about.
Each and everyone holds a special place in my heart and all of you deserve an individual shoutout . But this is just a snippet, that I’d like to share with all of you. On how it is NOT impossible for girls and guys to be just friends. The key thing is to be sincere. It could make or break any relationship, for that matter. And to be someone of importance (regardless of how prominent it is or not), I feel lucky to be stamped in the heart of these hunks (cehwah~!) even though I might have no place at all in the heart of someone who I really wish be ruled with my name.

The arrival of Ramadhan

The time has come again.

It felt (almost) like yesterday my flatmates and I break our fast together (it was my final year as a student, last year), went to bazaar ramadhan (although we did not buy much - restricted by petty budget as students!), had several aerobics sessions hours before the breaking fast time (yes it WAS mighty tiring), performed the tarawih prayer and of course, countless chatting sessions (we do this regardless of the season tho ;p). It was our first Ramadhan in Malaysia after went through it twice overseas (UK, Australia and New Zealand). I shall not give further details on my experience fasting overseas as it deserves another special post (I have heaaaaaps to tell!) and this post here is especially dedicated to my final student year that I have come to miss so much.

Referring to the petty budget matter as above, I can spend more now as I've started to earn my own salary but somehow it feels less fun. It felt more fun to scout for food at the bazaar (our spot was the Kerinchi Bazaar Ramadhan) with your besties with you. And to share food with them when it's finally eating time. And to perform the Tarawih together in our hall. And to sahur (although there's not much - singledom sahur, you know the drill). Those are (some) of the happy times that I miss. We bitched on how we hate last year (the experience of studying abroad made us somewhat bitchier about studying locally -we wanted to complain about EVERYTHING!) But now that I left that place, I really wish that I could turn back time and relive those moments again with my favourite people. I don't really have one here (place where I am posted to).

It is also nice to be with your family during this time of the year. I love to break my fast with my family and to go to the surau with my mother. Ramadhan makes me feel extra nostalgic. But I suppose it's not that bad to be alone (only during weekdays because I go back every weekend - regardless of the fuel's price ;p) at least I get to spend some ME time and perhaps, I could improve on the piety section, too!

Salam Ramadhan, all. Hope you'll have a good one with His blessings showering on all of us at all times. And remember, behave ;)

P/S - Just a bit off topic, yupp, I went to Avril's concert! It was pop alright and I had lotsa fun with my gal pal. Will post about it later!

I DON'T GET IT

This is what I don’t understand.

It’s OK to have a (supposedly) international level award ceremony here. To have people ‘drown’ in the entertainment that are being served and it’s totally OK to have fame-hunger people to jump up and down in the local night club so as to be part of the audience of the awaited BIG event.

It’s OK to have night clubs that sometimes serve as strip clubs, with liquor being served to people off all ages and religions in this so called Muslim country.

It’s even OK to have the 51^st independence celebration in all sorts of places, involving every type of activities unimaginable although the Ramadhan is fast approaching.

It’s OK too to have orgy parties in public beaches (yes, it HAD been organized several times here in this, surprise surprise, MUSLIM country).

But it’s NOT ok to have a concert here in KL, performed by Avril Lavigne because she is a bad role model to the kids? And because the date is too near to the 51^st independence day? And because it’s approaching Ramadhan?

I won’t babble much if this is a country that consistently forbids entertainment that is deemed unsuitable. But it is FAR from consistent. It’s OK for one event and NOT for another. I must say, all these contributes nothing but adds to confusion amongst our so-called future leaders. Because to them, so what if the concert got canceled, they still have other ‘hidden’ events they can go to. And this cancellation actually affects those who go for the ‘mild’ type of entertainment. They are not the ones who you could find caught red handed in acts that are not suitable to the eyes of the society. Those people don’t go to Avril Lavigne’s concert, mind you.

Punishing one who is not guilty is just as bad as committing the crime. But I suppose it is OK for them, at least it looks like something has been done. Although we KNOW how shaky the ground they are standing on right now.

LOVE DAVID

Two Davids in a finale is not an annual event. Many were rather anxious to know which David rules the hearts of viewers of American Idol 6. And as we all came to know, it was David Cook. I prefer Cook over Archuleta too, and when he did the cover of Mariah’s “Always be my baby”, I felt like flying to the moon and his image (while singing that song) stuck in my head for days.

I don’t really dig his winning song though, which in my opinion is somewhat… mundane. He deserves better. So it was interesting to see if the 1^st runner up of AI 6 gets a better single. I listened to it for the first time on the radio. There’s this song challenge thingy where listeners could vote which (of two new songs) that they wanna hear. It has been Paramore’s “That’s what you get” for several nights in a row but their winning streak ended just now. Guess the girls must’ve been thrilled to be serenaded Archuleta.

My first reaction upon listening to his song was, well, it’s not bad. A sweet (a bit cheesy though ;p) song which I’m sure will make most girls go aaaawww J because we are creatures that have high appreciation towards romance! The fact that Archuleta sings it will make it be played on the radio for quite some time I suppose. I can just imagine how oh so sweet his face gonna be as he sings this song! Plenty of girls out there must be wishing that this song is dedicated to them (it’s about a crush that this boy has towards this girl, -ahh~ teenage years, how sweet. Try years later down the road, that boy must be really freak out for a commitment). Hurm, think I might just gonna let myself fall to sleep listening to Archuleta serenading to me any nights from now!

THERE'S A NEED TO CHANGE

Negativity could kill you.

It eats up your inside and leaves you feeling hollow and in most cases, fumed too.

Realising that (I had been enlightened about this a couple of times but good God, bad habit dies hard), I want it so bad to shed off this negativities that are nested in me. So I’m hoping that this writing marks my farewell to the negativities that I have so much in me. I might not be able to ditch all of them at one go but I do wish that I will get rid of them gradually as I go through this journey called life. I know all these sounds rather cliché but there’s no harm in believing all things that are so called cliché.

The negativities in my dictionary could be different from yours. But I’m sure the underlying principle is that it is something that could destroy you. When I listen to my whimsical needs, it often leads me to somewhere dark and gloomy. More often than not they made me suffocate. I don’t know if you have ever experience it but I’m sure all of us have problems, dilemmas, the likes. What differentiate us is how we deal with them.

And when I pay too much attention to these negativities, I forget about the good things. And that what made me fell into that deep hole over and over again.

I can’t really explain what exactly that had knocked some sense into my head. But I’m glad I took the time to stop and smell the roses. Because it is good for me and it’s about time I care more about me.

EMOTIONAL AFFAIR

I don’t know about you but what comes to my mind when I see the word affair is betrayal, and sex, too. But apparently these two are not the only ones that have got to do with affair. It seems that there is such thing as emotional affair too. Interesting. Be warned, towards the end of this entry, some of throats might undergo sudden tightness. A classic sign that marks you are not that innocent. Read on.

So how do you know that you are actually involved in an emotional affair?

• You keep meetings and conversations secret from your partner.
• You say and do things with another person that you never would have done in front of your partner.
• You make a point to arrange talk time with someone other than your partner.
• You share things with another person that you don’t with your partner.

You facing difficulty to breathe / swallow?

“But that’s what I do with my friends, we share stuff / I don’t wanna hurt my partner’s feelings / I was only seeking for advises from the opposite sex, etc” - Reading the bulleted points above must’ve made you come up with all sorts of reasoning and excuses. But according to Dr Gail Saltz, those reasoning and excuses are just denials. You could share problems with your partners, you don’t have to hide your rendezvous from your partners. You don’t have to delete text messages in your handphones out of fear being discovered by your partners because you don’t wanna hurt their feelings – which ironically, by doing so, you would hurt him/her even worse.

When you find that it is easy to share things with another people, you will eventually become attracted / interested to that person. Ever experienced that your friendship becomes more meaningful when you shared your crushes tale / embarrassing moments / gossips etc with your friends? It becomes easier to talk to them. I suppose the same concept could be applied here. You will become dependant on that person to make you feel good, especially when you feel that it is such a relief to be able to tell other person about your problems, secrets and the likes.

If you DO feel that you are having an emotional affair or are heading your way there, here are some advices from Dr Gail herself;

ü END it. No halfway, no ‘kind of’. You have the power to curb this problem that you yourself had triggered.

ü Figure out why you did it. You can work it from there. If you heart is not in the relationship anymore, maybe it’s time to ‘fess up before hearts get severely broken.

ü I like this one the most – Be trustworthy to build trust back. DO what your partner needs you to do (eg : coming home right after work, breaking off ALL contact with the other person)

ü Be patient. Rebuilding trust takes time.

More often than not that we don’t appreciate what we have until we lose it.

So, do appreciate.

Saying I love you doesn’t end there. It needs acts and thoughts that show you mean it. And by attaching yourself in a relationship, it means lots of sharing needs to be done. If you’re not ready to do it perhaps it’s not time for you to BE in a relationship afterall.

(With close reference to Dr. Gail Salts article from http://gailsaltz.ivillage.com/love/archives/2008/07/emotional-affairs.html?dst=rss%7CMSNBC_Today_Love)

GUESS SHE'S GONNA DO IT AGAIN ;)

She rocked the pop scene at the age of 16. I was 14 at that time (She was born in 1981, which makes me 3 years younger than her but she was born in December..so..) And boy did I adore her. I wanted to be like her. Those dance moves, those innocent eyes, sweet girl-next-door appearance and her fabulous bod. Damn she was hot.

Her songs were cheesy but I liked them anyway. I even bought her cds. Original ones, mind you. And back during those days, an original cd costs around 40 bucks. And I was only a school kid. But who could resist her baby one more time.

Her magic on me started to wear off when I was around 18. And that was also the time when she was not the ‘It’ girl anymore. It was Avril’s time. And I was so into the so called pop punk music, so I ditched Britney’s.

After that, she just went spiralling down. She got married, got it annulled, she became the party girl and decided to chuck her undies. She later found lurvvve with Kevin Federline, of which in my opinion, rocked and shook her world. He rocked it by showering her with the love and affection that she probably had been craving for and she got two adorable kids out of their chaotic relationship. He shook it by the complexity that their matrimony had to go through, because of what he was like and how princess-ly she was. Quite a bad combo but hey isn’t love is blind.

Last year was definitely her year, but not in a good way. The drama was too much and that was what probably caused that dude to cry and beg for others to leave Britney alone on youtube. She was constantly on E!, all for the wrong reasons. And her supposedly to be a comeback performance on MTV awards (the one where she sang gimme more) was a clear-cut fiasco. The fallen of a pop princess became the front page of most tabloids and damn I really thought she would committ suicide during that time.

And that was why I felt relieved to know that she finally allowed some sense to be knocked into her head. Either it came from her family, friends, entourage or probably from the pop princess herself, I don’t really know but what I DO know is that it could be a new beginning of her era again. Come on, break the ice is already a regular on air and I actually really enjoy listening to it (I even have it on my I-pod and it’s one the songs that I must listen to before I doze off)!

And I’ve been hearing a lot about Britney getting better. She even looks better now (just look at the top picture!) And she’s also trying to work things out with Kevin (which is really a good thing for her kids!). So, I, as a former devoted fan of Britney Spears, wish her well and hopefully she’ll be back with killer songs that rock the chart. And for her personal life, hopefully she’ll always be blessed. I miss seeing those fabulous abs. They are an inspiration! ;p