When life gives you lemon, well, make lemonade!

I vowed not to dwell in sorrow and think how unfortunate I am yadda yadda so as the saying above goes, when life gives you lemon, make lemonade! Turn something sour into something great. I had to go back to Batu Pahat earlier this week for meetings and whatnot. Looking at the shabby room of mine *memalukan* I decided to revamp it and make it as comfortable as it could so that I would be one happy lady whenever I'm in my room.

I've compromised my comfort for the longest time ever, well, actually, since I got posted to BP, knowing that I am not going to stay there forever and it would be a hassle to move with boxes of stuff. But I guess I had enough. Boleh tak, selama ini, aku tidor atas tilam aje, refused to buy a proper bed sebab malas pikir nak meng-pack etc (selama tinggal kat BP, I moved to 3 different houses ;-p). Tapi oleh sebab rase I won't be moving to other houses anymore sampaila dapat pindah keluar dari BP for good, maka rasanye the time has come to get me one.

Berjaya beli katil yang comel. Yay.
Dan meja untuk buat kerja.
I also rearranged the stuff in my room so it is now looking way better than before.
Guess I could live with that until my transfer. Hee.

Next year I'll be teaching the form 1s and the form 2s because I've pointed out the fact that I would probably get my transfer in June and it would be troublesome should I teach the PMR classes. My Ketua Panitia gave a thought about that and found it to be a valid reason. So I'll be teaching one good class (I am the form teacher too. Hmmps), one mediocre class and another three 'weak' classes. They are not weak actually, they just have lower achievement in their academics. Human beings are born with different capabilities.

Teaching these classes however would require you to be slightly fiercer than your average self. I found it to be handy as these type of students would usually pay more attention to you when you are fierce. Nevertheless, it would be rather tiresome to play MDM FIERCE all the time but you gotta do what you gotta do. Rotan pun harus dibawa all the time. Muka pun kena bebengis, mesti korang kalo tengok muke aku bengis korang rase eh kene rasuk puake ape perempuan nih. Sumpah agak menakutkan. Suara pun nak kene lontar jauh. Ape ingat AF aje belajar lontar lontar suara? Jadik cikgu pun kene juge T_T. Tapi suara skarang tengah rock sebab batuk belum fully gone maka mungkin lepas nih kene standby dequadin dalam handbag supaya bila jerit nanti satu blok gegar >:-P

Oh btw ade sorang cikgu laki nih tekujat dengar aku mengamuk time buat kelas tambahan intensif untuk bebudak PMR earlier this year. Hihi. Lepas tu this another English teacher kate, "Oh you maksudkan dD ke, I tak terkejut sangat la sebab I saw her blew her top one day kat library." Time tuh aku campak kusi library kat student yang kurang berajar. Woh woh. Harap lepas ni garang, tapi sabar. Hmmm. Camno tu.

wrapping this year up :-)

I don't always get what I want and that could be really painful to think. At times. Therefore, I made a promise to myself not to think about what I don't have. The what-ifs. Because I rather not dwelling in sadness when I could spend the rest of time with joy and calmness. Despite the whirlwind about my transfer, there were happier times that I am grateful for. Alhamdulillah.

1. My husband (he was my bf during that time) managed to go through several eye treatments and his condition has been getting on well from that point. The eye treatments (laser + injection to the eyes) were covered by his company's insurance and that was a huge relief because we otherwise might not be able to afford them.

2. Relationship wise, we were able to go through the merisik, bertunang and berkahwin stage all in a year. When we looked back at those times, it felt rather magical because it seemed like they happened on their own. Almost. Things just fall into the right places and what more could we say than praised be to Allah for letting them happened smoothly.

3. Economy wise, we are still struggling but the condition is better than last year's. We got better pay, I got to mark for English PMR (and I have bought a new handphone using the money I got from marking :-D), he got to buy his car and inshaAllah we will be going for our major honeymoon next March. We have paid for the tix and are now planning for the itinerary. Can't wait :-) Hopefully, this too will be a smooth sailing. It is my dream destination and to be able to go there for our honeymoon is like a dream come true, as corny as it sounds :-D

4. Our family grew larger with this marriage as well as our circle of friends. Can't help but too fall in love with each individual that I get to know and it is a relief for I did not find a hard time blending in. Neither does he. I thank God for being able to marry a man whose kampung is minutes away from mine as it gives a great advantage to us, especially in our circumstances where my mom is a single mom and his father is not really in the perks of his health. Being able to visit both during weekend is great :-)

There are many more things that I am grateful for but these are all that I could type as of now. I am rushing to pack my stuff because I had to go back to Batu Pahat next week for the school's meeting.

Have a great end-of-year everyone. I wish that all of you will wrap this year with contentment in your heart and hopefully next year will bring much joy and happiness to each of us. Ameen.



Take care :-)

rock band

I first laid my hands on the rock band set back in May 2008. I was in the States, visiting my then bf. Kat living room rumah dia, satu malam lepas kami keluar, ternampak his juniors playing rock band. I was very curious. Hee. I once caught an episode in Gossip Girl where Serena played Guitar Hero and thought that it was pretty awesome. Sekarang ini, wahhh dah ade depan mata. He nudged me and asked "nak main gi la join" tapi being a loyal gf who missed her bf (yang dah tak jumpa for nearly 2 years, *gile lama kan*) mestilah nak berkepit kalo buleh 24/7. Kan. So I just politely said no and went on accompanying him packing his stuff (he was leaving the States for good and coming back to M'sia).



Another night, jeng jeng jeng, he was packing his stuff downstairs and I saw the rock band set looking all pretty and lonely. Takde sape sape main dengan dia. Alalala keshian. Sket demi sket pergi dekat the drum set. He turned on the whole thing and dapatla I played with the drum set. Sorang sorang aje main. Layan. Rasenye main sampaila masa for me to go to this three kind girls' house untuk tumpang tido.

Itu dah addicted tu. Sampai da habis main pun lagu lagu dia terngiang2.

Next, I joined his juniors playing the whole set. Wah, lagik best. Memang dah rase macam rock band sungguh ni. Tapi I suck in playing the guitar set. Drum jugak yang best :-) Konon konon harituh tanak main la kan, tengok, sekali dah main, addicted u. :-p

I can't remember the last time I played it tapi thanks to the rock band set, I got hooked with Paramore sebab masa tu suka main drum lagu Crush crush crush. Balik aje M'sia dah jadik peminat tegar Paramore (sembil perasan jadik Hayley - ape hal?) dan simpan impian that one day, I'm gonna buy that thing! Tak kisahla da not in the in thing pun tak ape, I solemnly swear that I would play them precious beings at least once a week :-p

Sampai sekarang pun belum beli lagik hehe. Maybe lepas dah ade rumah sendiri. Nanti buleh selalu main rock band dengan suami :-)

3 months :-)

It has been 3 wonderful months and not a day of regret. If God wills it, I would like to be with you every single day because nothing beats laying beside you and it gives me a great unbeatable sense of satisfaction when I get to prepare your lunch to be eaten at work as well as to see you eating your dinner prepared by me. Catering you has never been a chore :-) I love you and your whole family too. Here's to many years to come, inshaAllah :-)



Scrapbooking Photo Tinks by WiddlyTinks.com

Ooh la la! Awas!

Sekarang ni kumpulan ape yang femes kat Mlesia nih ek. Bunkface kot. Students aku ramai pilih nak nyanyi lagu bunkface time aku suruh derang pilih a song and sing in front of me. Sebutan hujung pangkal banyak aje yang silap, lirik pun ntah mane rembat nak tegolek aku bace tapi jadikla,, at least effort tuh ade :-)

mude gila kot muke masing masing hihi

Teringat time memuda dulu (waktu sekolah rendah to be exact), kumpulan yang femes adelah KRU. Waktu tu aku tak paham kenape name derang KRU. Kazen aku cakap itu stands for "Kumpulan Rap Utama" lah. Rupa rupanya dia tipu T_T

4U2C fun femes gak time tuh, tapi KRU lagik lame ke-femesan dia tuh sebab banyak gila singles yang meletop.

Dan naturally, mestilah aku ade favourite dalam tiga orang tuh. Mine was yusry heheh.

Punyalah minat yusry sampai berangan angan kawen dengan dia. Waktu tu rase yusry hensem tahap menggegar jiwa. Lama lama ke-obsesan tuh hilang. Minat celebrity lain pulak.

Lagu lagu KRU nih catchy sangat. Paling minat lagu Ooh La La. Paling suka dalam lagu nih bila part "oOoh jelita, hatiku telah kau curi dan ku rela~" sungguh sungguh aku nyanyi, suara pun jadik halus macam yusry. Nak tiru.

Tak sangka, betapa minat mendalamnye aku kat KRU dulu, skang nih kalo pegi karaoke buleh nyanyi part yang rapping tuh! homaigod sangat.

Tapi makin lama KRU pun makin ilang taring kan. Lepas derang jadik tyco (animated version of KRU), lepas tu derang makin tenggelam~ makin sibuk dengan biznes kot. Peminat peminat pun da besar dan tak gilakan muzik lagik da.

Hats off to them really, for having such a great talent and showing perseverance in striving to make a scene in Malaysian entertainment industry. Boleh cakap dengan konfiden skang nih yang KRU is one the legends kat Mesia, kan.

sick bug~

I feel like this..
aww~



It's because my husband is not feeling well right now. It has been so for the past three days. To top it off, I too am not feeling too good. I have been feverish when night comes for about a week now. I try to maintain my composure and beat this whatever-sick-bug that is bugging me to ensure that I could take good care of my husband.

Get well soon, suami.

Hai Peng Kopitiam, Kemaman

Yay, makan lagi!

Siapalah manusia tanpa pemakanan yang memuaskan hati. Oleh sebab itu, kami pun pergi ke Hai Peng Kopitiam. Hari pertama kat Kemaman, lepas google, kami asek asek nampak blog yang sebut Tong Juan dan Hai Peng Kopitiam. Tak buleh jadik, biadap sungguh rasenye kalau kami tak pergi ke kedua dua tempat tersebut sedangkan kami dah kat Kemaman.

So we decided to have our breakfast at Hai Peng Kopitiam. We spent our night a day before, salivating over the drinks and food that we would have on the next morning.

Hai Peng Kopitiam nih terletak kat Jalan Sulaimani. Kalo Tong Juan restoran tuh dekat hujung jalan nih, Hai Peng pulak kat permulaan Jalan Sulaimani, sebelah kiri. There's an ample parking space at a carpark opposite this cafe.

Jalan dari carpark ke kopitiam. Nampak kedai tuh macam ada cahaya cahaya dari langit (OK, I'm exaggerating but I'm a food enthusiast, I have an excuse).

Omigosh, tons of people! *cemas*

But...we got our seats alright without having to wait. Yeah, sukses!

The drinks, they have modern up-to-date fancy shmancy blended drinks as well as the old school kopi O :-)

This is the table where you can pick your breakfast from. They have nasi dagang, nasi lemak, bihun goreng, kuih and the likes.

The ambience in the cafe

Nasi dagang

Nasi lemak

This bun got me hooked! We initially ordered a set (two buns) and ordered another set because we can't have enough of em good stuff!

Slathered with kaya and butter, mmmm good goood love :-)

Please order this drink if you are into chocolate. It is heavenly. The name is chocolate lava

Makanan dia okey, tapi paling ooomph adelah roti bakar dia. Yang macam bun tuh. Dia wat sendiri kot roti tuh, sedaaaap sangat dan mengenyangkan. Kami order another set tu sebab nafsu, bukan sebab lapar :-p

Stuffed Crab at Tong Juan, Kemaman.

We googled "good place to eat in Kemaman" upon reaching Terengganu and the search returned with a number of blogs suggesting to eat at Tong Juan which serves stuffed crab. I have honestly never heard of a stuffed crab before while my husband heard about it from a colleague who recalled his father always bringing back home stuffed crab when he was in Kemaman.

We decided to give it a go.

It is located right smack in the middle of the town, at Jalan Sulaimani. We googled the destination after failing to search for it using the GPS navigator and it is not hard to locate, really. I reckon you could go there just by using the most ancient method ever that is; stop and ask for direction. Just ask how to get to Jalan Sulaimani and the restaurant is at the end of the road, opposite the big river.

my husband is pulling the crab pose.

A number of people from all walks of life.

The menu. Pity they don't mention the price along with the menu, though.

We were so hungry, we ended up looking like this!

This is how I look like when I'm famished.

And we got our meals about 20 mins later. Seafood fried rice, chicken fried rice, stuffed crab (of course!) and asparagus fried in oyster sauce.

The stuffed crabs

What's inside it

Our bill was RM 40. The stuffed crab is RM 8 each. We ordered chilled chinese tea to go with the food and that helped us to save a little. Quite expensive for a lunch for two but the experience was well worth it. Now we can proudly say that "HEY I'VE TASTED STUFFED CRAB!"

The fried rice was tasty and we were bloated upon walking out from there. If you are not too hungry, a plate of fried rice would do for two people.

I'm hot

No I'm not blowing my own trumpet and I do realise that it's a far cry of me being hot. Heho. I'm literally hot. The weather that is. Right at this moment. Gulp after gulp of water and they still fail to saturate me. And when I'm feeling hot..., it makes me want to:

1. Drink super cool ribena mobile. I have this recently developed obsession towards Ribena Mobile, particularly on Ribena + Peach flavour. Sedap, nikmat, sensasi. Time minum buleh buat iklan.

2. Dive into a pool of ice. Nekkid. Eeks. hehe.

3. Go to Mt Ruapehu again where we went skiing and my cheek turned blue upon reaching the peak of the mountain.

4. Go crazy on a box of ice cream.

5. Lepak lepak dengan yuni, izza ngan zab kat bilik fesal @ railway station sambil tengok muvie yang di download secara haram lepas tu kaki kebas sebab sejuk, bilik dia ada tingkap yang suuuuuper besar. Railway station tu nama tempat tinggal students by the way.

6. Hire tukang peng-spray air kat badan sambil baring atas lantai marmar. Job scope dia : spray air kat badan aku every 3 minutes.

7. Minum coconut shake kat klebang sambil buat muka keji kat orang yang beratur paaanjang gila untuk takeaways. Klebang coconut shake is da bomb!

8. Buat buat terperangkap dalam fridge tapi pastikan ade tempat untuk bolehkan oksigen kat luar masuk. Bila orang tanye eey apo ko buek dalam ni? Buleh la jawab,: Ya Allah, panas sangat, pengsan terus dalam fridge tadi bila carik susu nak buat milo ais.

9. Pegi shopping mall pastuh gelak gelak tengok peel orang yang memacam. Ade yang nak jadik kewl, ade yang rase dia super stylo, ade yang rase like omigosh everyone is looking at me I'm such a superstar. Bes gelak (dalam hati) lepas tu lupe dah kat luar upenye tengah panas.

10. Makan cheesy wedges KFC. Oh yang ni tak ade kaitan dengan cuaca. Ini dambaan selera semata mata.

11. Dulu pernah bace dalam komik doraemon, ade satu alat nih yang macam botol susu, bila minum seteguk, kita cakap panas, kita akan rase sejuk. Setiap kali cakap tu the temperature will drop by a few degrees. Kalau la dapat menatang tuh sekarang nih! Akan cakap panas panas panas 10x!

Phew. I'm hot.

of sambal belacan, kurma ayam and peria goreng.

Cuti hujung tahun nih 1st time dapat rasa jadik surirumahtangga. Kemas kemas, masak masak, layan suami. Penat jugak kan rupenye jadik surirumahtangga. Jadik janganla pandang rendah kat mereka walaupun mereka tak bekerja dan duduk aje kat rumah. Mereka tuh sebenarnya pengurus. Pengurus dalam keluarga. Walaupun tak menyumbang dari segi material, mereka beri support yang umpph dari segi keperluan yang lain.

Aku selalu berangan, besh nye kalau dapat kerja dari rumah aje.

Bayangkan, jadik cikgu dalam virtual world. Bebudak semua bukak laptop/netbook/pc dan kami mula belajar. Pantau dari jauh. Jawab soalan budak thru chatting application. Semak kerja mereka lepas derang dah submit via email. Heaven!

Tak payah bazir duit untuk minyak dan jugak kurang la kerap nak kena servis kereta. Duit bulanan yang selalu bajet untuk minyak + servis dah buleh asingkan untuk insurans + road tax kereta. Jimat!

Maybe beberape kali dalam sebulan adelah jugak kene pergi sekolah untuk meeting etc. Tapi masih jimat, sebab bukan hari hari pun.

Hari hari dapat masak kat rumah untuk family. Suami pun mesti suka, dia memang tak elok makan kat luar sebab kami tak dapat pantau kandungan food tuh, bila saya dapat masak untuk dia hari hari mesti dia lagik sihat, kan. Happy!

Bila dah ada anak anak pun, tak ade masalah dah nak carik nanny atau pembantu rumah. Let mommy watch you kids and we can spend quality time together gether!

The most important thing is, there won't be much of an issue untuk pertukaran guru etc dan selesailah masalah saye dok jauh dengan suami.

Haih, syiok betul kalo nih jadik kenyataan. Kalau ada projek cubaan untuk bende alah nih, I'll be among the first to volunteer, sumpah tak tipu.

btw, ape relevannya tajuk entry nih? hehe tuhla menu untuk today. Saye masak biase biase aje, tapi penuh kasih sayang. Heheh. Suami, saye tunggu awak ni! :-)

rayuan pertukaran

Since my transfer application was rejected, we both decided not to forfeit and keep on fighting. Cehwah macam dalam war pulak. Tapi ituhla, cube aje ape yang boleh, tak salah kan.

Maka cubaan kami itu adala...pergi ke Jabatan Pendidikan Johor and Kementerian Pelajaran (MOE) kat Putrajaya.

I initially wanted to just go to MOE but a teacher in my school suggested me to go to both JPNJ and MOE.

And so my husband took a day off yesterday (wednesday) in order to accompany me to go to these two places.

We started our journey to JPNJ early in the morning, after Subuh. Thanks to the GPS thingy, we managed to find that place. Kami tak reti sangat jalan kat JB. To those who are going to Jabatan Pelajaran for an appeal for transfer, you need to meet the pegawai for the bahagian sekolah menengah/rendah to hand him your letter. What you will need to give him are:- a letter of appeal, a copy of your transfer application, and copies of related documents (sijil nikah, surat sakit, etc). Dah jumpa and pot pet pot pet, you're done.

Next, we continued our journey to Putrajaya. Although we were rushing, we did stopped and had a rest at RnR Machap because we were both a bit tired from the journey. Suami saya pun dia tak buleh penat penat sangat sebab dia kan sakit.

After about half an hour, kami pun gerak semula ke Putrajaya, ikut cakap GPS lagik. Miss GPS bawak kami lalu route jalan belakang ke Putrajaya. Cayalah, miss GPS.

Bahagian sektor pengurusan sekolah menengah is at block E2, tingkat 4. Parking was a nightmare. It seemed so impossible to find one! Terpaksa kami park jauh jauh dan dalam panas panas tuh kami pun berjalan ke blok E2 tu. Kesian tengok suami peluh peluh pastuh muka dia dah nampak penat. Takut jugak kalau kaki dia bengkak, sebab dia kalo penat/stress kaki dia akan senang bengkak (water retention sebab kidney dia tu). Bila dah bengkak, memang dia akan rasa tak selesa.

Naik aje tingkat 4, oh ramai rupanya cikgus cikgis yang nak buat rayuan. They even have a form for you to fill in. Kurang skit dah rasa cuak knowing that I'm not alone in this thing. Penuh jugak ruang menunggu tuh sebab ada yang bawak baby, anak anak, mak bapak, etc. Orang yang dekat kaunter tuh layan kami dengan penuh sopan dan sabar. Thumbs up.

After waiting for an hour, sambil kejap kejap tanye suami, "awak OK tak?" all the teachers pun kene go in this one room yang mana dup dap dup dap jugakla hati nih time nak masuk tuh. Phew. Note that only the teachers are allowed to go in this room. Maka sape yang bawak anak anak/babies tuh akhirnye kene tinggalkan kat luar jugak so to those yang nak bawak anak anak kecil tuh I would recommend you not to sebab tak buleh bawak masuk jumpa pegawai pun..nanti kesian dia nangis kene tunggu mak dia lama lama..

Dah masuk dalam bilik tu, ada dua orang pegawai. The first one gave a briefing on how to fill in the form and the necessary documents needed. The second one gave a briefing on the states yang memang payah nak masuk cikgu cikgi baru...which are..Terengganu & Kelantan unless you are an English teacher sebab they are lacking of them.

Lepas dah briefing, kami pun serahkan borang kami.

In my case, cikgu BI as a whole in KL da penuh, walopun kat sekolah sekolah ada je yang kurang cikgu BI but I still submit my rayuan anyway. Tak rasa sedih sangat time tuh sebab the two officers were really nice and the way the behaved, they meant business. Takde nak cakap bende bende yang menyakitkan hati.

Pukul 5 lebih, we were done. Kesian jugak pekerja pekerja kat situ, mesti penat kene kerja lebih masa sket dari biasa and had to meet hundredssss of people with different stories and circumstances. Tak lama lagi mesti reach thousand something sebab semalam dapat borang dah number 900++.

We tried what we could. Mane tau kalau Allah izinkan, dapat la tukar dan duduk sekali dengan suami. Semalam sampai aje umah, memang masing masing terus pengsan atas katel. Dalam hati, kesian sangat kat suami. Mesti dia penat, dah la time kerja penat, time cuti pun penat gak. Sobs sobs. Hari nih nak masak nasik ayam yang super sedap penuh kasih sayang untuk dia. Hihi. Malam ni before tido nak urut kaki dia lama lama sket sebab semalam penat sangat, tak larat nak urut huhu.

InshaAllah kalau ada rezeki.
Kalau takde..takpe, kita tengok alternatif lain.

BTW, rayuan pertukaran nih sebenarnye takde pun dalam prosedur. Dia layan sebab ihsan saje dan dia gelar this procedure as "Rayuan Semakan Semula Penempatan".

part dos.

I know everybody (well, almost everybody) loves the hit single Love The Way You Lie by Eminem featuring Rihanna. Though it revolves around the theme of domestic violence, weirdly enough, most of the lovers of this single don't really bother about it and this is probably because of

1) the nice beat of the song (pun not intended hee)
2) the awesome coolest-of-them-all video clip that features Megan Fox (phewit)
and
3) because it's by Eminem and Rihanna oh em gee they are aweeeeesomeeee (sila baca dengan nada seorang fangirl yang annoying).

I just got to listen to the part 2 of the song and it has even more twisted underlying message to it. A woman who enjoys being tortured (somewhat) and a guy who beats the hell out of his partner but claims to love her so much. They both are violent yet they are deeply in love with each other. Macam twisted, kan. Kalau buat movie best, tapi kalo terjadi in real life, nauzubillah.

holiday yay!

Heheeheheheehehee.

Senyum lebar lebar sebab ape?
Sebab cuti sekolah dah start :-)

Taun nih tak payah jage SPM although initially nama dah naik tapi dah rezeki untuk dapat duduk kat umah for the whole cuti agaknye, maka end up tak dapat pun surat untuk jaga pekse SPM. Whee! I invigilated before (in 2008) and it was a real bore. Duduk sorang sorang dalam bilik peksa (sekolah tuh takde dewan besar untuk exam) tengok budak menjawab. Kalau ikutkan hati memang la nak tido tapi mana buleh nanti kang budak budak amek kesempatan meniru, skali ade pegawai datang tengah check, hohoi haru biru la jugak. Sangat menguji kesabaran dan ketabahan bila jage pekse SPM. Bayaran dia pun tak banyak mana, waktu tuh dapat around 500 aje campo mileage (claim untuk mileage tak banyak sebab waktu tu baru mula kerja, gaji basic masih skit).

Jadi apekah perancangan cuti?

Hehe nothing extraordinary pun selain daripada menjadi surirumahtangga sepenuh masa for this (approximately) one whole month. I'll be going back to school in the last week of December for meetings yang pelbagai but until then my husband has a month to be fully pampered by his wife! ;-)

Dua bulan.

Okeh kami da due bulan berkawen. Hihi. Best? Oh memang. Gaduh gaduh? Mestila ade. hihi. Tapi setakat ni tak pernah gadoh sampai bila tido pun pandang tempat lain lain tanda protes. Akhirnya akan ended up cuddling jugak. Mane sampai hati nak resist my sizzling hot fluffeh husband.

Dan biasalah, waktu bujang, orang tanya "bila nak kawen?" Bila dah kawen nih orang tanya pulak "dah ade ke blum?" dah ade tuh maksudnye selalunye adelah :- dah pregnant ke belum. Taktaula kalau orang orang terbabit memaksudkan yang selain daripadanye.

Tapi so far belum ade rejeki. We do not plan when are we to have a baby, we leave it in God's hands. Bila tiba masenye mesti seronot, walopun ngeri sesikit. (Ngeri sebab bila baca pengalaman orang bersalin tuh macam huiii berderau darah). Takpe, the time will come inshaAllah. Bosan jugak sebenarnye bila orang asyik tanya the same question that I have no knowledge of, again and again. Rase macam nak aje cakap "Entahlah ek cube puan wat appointment dengan Tuhan, tanya bila saya dapat baby kalo dah tau nanti jangan lupa bitau saye yek buleh kami wat preparation awal awal. Tenkiu!".

Oh tapi aku nih jarang la bersikap kurang ajar cemtuh. Kecuali kalau mood tak baik.

Time mood tak baik pun orang selalunye leh nampak dari air muka aku maka mereka tak berapa sangat nak melemparkan pernyataan mahupun pertanyaan yang menjengkelkan. Hehe.

Kerap jugak orang bagi komen badan dan gumuk hehe mungkin mereka ingat umah aku takde cermin tapi salah ye, umah aku nih cermin masih tip top dan memang nampak reflection diri sendri dengan jelas. Mata pun cerah. Tak pakai spek. Jadik keperluan untuk menonjolkan penyataan badan dah berisi tuh saye tak nampak langsung keperluannya selain daripada sengaja nak membangkitkan perasaan yang menjengkelkan. Like, duh, I DO own a mirror. Or were you fishing for my compliment and hope that I'll throw this at ya "ituh la kann eh cemane ek ko nih kurus selim melim aje teringin aku nak kurus macam ngko". Which I won't. Sebab what works for you doesn't necessarily means that it will work on me too. Lagipunnnn I've learned to love myself and if you have a problem with how I look then too bad, you are too confined in your own vanity to see the world outside yours.

Sejak dah kawen nih belum pernah lagik dapat jaga suami bebetul. Harap harap time cuti skolah ujung taun nih dapat la kan. Buleh la rase jadik surirumahtangga hehe. Tetiap malam dapat la urut kaki suami tak ape, saye rela, sebab kalau tak urut nanti kang kesian, tak sampai hati tengok muka dia berharap kaki dia kene urut. Lagipun dia senang tertido time kaki kene urut, sekejap aje urut tengok tengok dah lelap. Maka, tak lame mane pun urut tuh., tak sempat nak penat pun :-D

better :-)

You can refer to my previous post about the not-so-great- news. Masih lagik ade perasaan sedih...muke pun sugul aje though I had embraced the fact that my application was rejected and there's a possibility of us living apart for an indefinite period of time.

I am currently at home sebab besok and rabu cuti. Rabu nih Aidiladha, sekolah amek cuti peristiwa on Tuesday. Dapat la 2 hari cuti :-)

Both of my mom and bro paham that I am sad..

Tetibe air mate mengalir kan, mesti rase serba salah nak cakap cemane dengan budak yang tengah besedih ni hehe. Tengok tibi pun kenkadang air mate mengalir :-p

They went out earlier for dinner. Pesan tapaukan food aje sebab tak semangat nak keluar.

They went back with KFC hehe and the stuff to make waffle. Kat umah mama ade tempat wat waffle, tadi da cakap kat my brother suh tlg watkan waffle tapi bahan2 takado. Jap lagik buleh la makan nih :-) Hmm tak buleh sedih sedih dah kan. Nanti semua orang susah hati. Masih buleh try lagik dengan rayuan. Cube dulu :-)

alahai

The picture speaks a thousand words. I was beyond frustrated. Was. After a sobbing sessions that lasted for hours and indulging in self pity, I bounced back to reality. I am not the kind of person who likes to talk much on a subject that disappoints me but I know that some of you are wondering whether my application is successful so here's an entry dedicated to you lot who I know are concern about my husband and I. Thank you. Mine was rejected but there's still hope. We would proceed with rayuan and we'll see how it goes. There are several alternatives we are considering and we're trying to weight the best one. We'll see.

Jadi kepade mereka yang ingat senang betul nak pindah sekolah, you are wrong. Walaupun dalam Malaysia nih berlambak lambak sekolah, there's also another contributing factor. The subject you are teaching. I just came to know that there is currently no vacancy for English teachers in KL so that is probably why my application was rejected. Ade surat doktor menunjukkan suami saket pun tak dapat jugak. Dari segi tu aku rase kecewa sket. Bukan kecewa sebab aku masih stuck in BP because I have grown to like this place and I think it's OK so as the kids tapi aku kecewa sebab I was really hoping that I could take care of my husband and watch his health.

mekaseh ye dik

Hari ni ade lagi mesyuarat penandaan kertas BI untuk PMR kat Air Hitam. The meeting is at SK Air Itam, to be exact. Besok pun ade lagik, meeting last untuk selesaikan semua paperwork yang berkaitan and cross checking markah. Lepas tuh merdeka sedikit untuk 20%. Lagi 80% adelah kerja kerja sekolah yang kene disetelkan before the school holiday starts.

Beshnye rase bile pegi sekolah rendah. Menyesal aku tak pilih ngajo sekolah rendah. Kalau tak mesti aku dah ramai boifren kenit dan adik pempuan angkats. Cecomels! Kekenit!

Waktu morning tea tadi tak sempat nak keluar ngeteh (dah 3 taun dok BP da pandai gune bahasa bahasa orang jawa cehwah) jadi pergi kantin aje la kat sekolah tuh.

Biasalah budak budak kecik akan gayat tengok strangers kan.

Lepas tuh...aku dengar ayat yang membahagiakan jiwa raga from a little kiddo.

"Assalammualaikum kak"

Kak? Kak? Kaaaaak? Bukan makcik? Ngeeee.

Mekaseh ye dik. U made my day.

! JUMP !

*if u wanna skip reading this and go ahead with watching the clip, scroll right until the end of this post. Tapi baca dulu baru feel kot. haha.*

Towards the last few days in Auckland, I insisted on trying bungy jumping. I managed to persuade Zabreena and Izza to join the bandwagon. I can be quite persuasive, mind you ;-p My mantra that I kept on telling these two girls was,

Oit rugi woi kita tak buat bungy jump. Kang dah balik mlesia nak buat kat mana? Kat nuzelen nih la asal bungy jumping kottt. Lagipun pas nih kalo nak buat mesti mahal.

Dengan muka yang smug tahap tak hingat aku dok persuade mereka.

Sukses.

Tapi masalahnye aku nih sbenonye gayat dengan tempat tempat tinggi. Bila ade aje kat tempat yang tinggi skit mule la rase kepale lutut nih gegar. Pas tuh rase lantai tak stabil. Pale otak bayangkan kalo terjatuh lepas tuh kepale berdarah darah nanti masuk surat khabar.

Naik aje Auckland bridge yang skit punya tinggi tuh aku da cuak. Tengok yacht sane sini dah terbayang kene cucuk dengan tiang besi yacht tuh. Ah siot.

Izza dengan Zab nampak steady. Ini tidak buleh jadi.

Kami pun tunggu turn dengan nervous. I was the last to go. Dapat tengok semuaaaa orang (we weren't the only ones) jump. Ko ingat itu wat aku teruja nak jump jugak? Oh tidak. Hahaha.

Bila tengok Zab time terjun kena masuk air, aku dah terbayang aku mati lemas lepas tuh time omputih tuh tarik balik abeh keras kejung muke warne biru.

Bila dah turn Izza tengok dia riang ria gembira lepas terjun aku macam ah nak terjun ke tak, nak ke tak, nak ke tak nihh.

Tapi dah bayor 70 bucks (kot, kalo x silap, x ingat dah). 70 x 2.5 = RM 175. Argh, maunye aku nak burn duit 175 hingget cemtuh aje? Memang tak la. (Time tuh seorang student, 175 tuh besor nilainye time tuh ye). Maka aku tarik napas dedalam dan duduk kat kerusi tempat dia ikat ikat kaki dan sesemua tuh la. Dup dap. Ko toreh muke aku dengan pisau mungkin keluar darah putih. Darah orang nak mati syahid. Eh.

Bila mamat omputih tuh instructed aku untuk pegi ke pelantar nak terjun, aku da cemas tahap gabannng. Siap tarik tarik baju dia ngahaha. Perut dia pun aku terpegang. Wah, very lean. Eh. haha sempat.

Bila dia soh amek gambo kat kamera depan pelantar tuh, aku siap wat aksi trademark. Aksi peace. Zaman study memang trademark aku adelah amek gambo wat lambang peace. Gambo kat frenster time tuh semua penuh gamba peace. Kalo tak buat peace rase macam tak lengkap. Macam puasa tapi tak niat.

Lepas aje amek gamba, ah sudah. Aku rase angin kuat gila babeng. Tidaaaaak. Tengok laut kat bawah. Ahhhhhh tidaaaak. Peluh peluh jantan, betina, pondan semua kuar time tuh.

Tapi aku terjun gak, dalam aku geleng geleng pale kate kat mamat tuh "I don't wanna" aku terjun gak. Haha. Terbayang duit da bayo kot. haha.

Adeh. Time terjun, rase sangat helpless. Agaknye orang bunuh diri rase cemtuh la kot. Tangan aku macam nak gapai something yang solid tapi nak gapai ape? Pasrah aje ikut hukum graviti. Bila da rentap, oh waw, sakit gak pinggang. Kali kedua melantun aku dah nak tarik tali tapi tak sampai haha kali ketiga baru dapat tarik. Actually he did told us to pull it after the third bounce. Aku gatal nak pull time bounce yang kedua sebab bayangkan nanti aku tak tarik lepas tuh aku tersangkut kat situ sampai malam. Sengal.

Tapi lepas dah naik tuh memang gelak tak hingat. Adrenaline rush yang melampau. Sepanjang panjang kami jalan balik ke tempat tinggal memang rase terapung. Hahahaha. Bejaye aku prove yang you don't need weed nor liquor to get high. Heho.

Tapi dalam 2 hari gakla ade rase pinggang sakit sket. Sket aje la. Dan efek aku terase seram sejuk bila terbayang time terjun tuh lasted for about 6 months. Time tuh kalo aku ceritakan pasal bungy jumping nih memang aku rase macam berade balik dalam situation tuh. Bulu roma meremang. Darah rush ke otak.

Nak buat lagik?

In a heartbeat, yeah.

sensasi hebat

Sensasi yang hebat dan mungkin lebih hebat dari perasaan setelah pergi membuang air besar adalah, selesai menanda kertas pekse.

PHEW! Double PHEW! Triple PHEW!

All 204 of them, DONE!

Rase nak menanges...ini adelah satu pencapaian yang menakjubkan. Dalam sibuk ber-procrastinating, berjaye gak selesaikan, sebelum perjumpaan this coming Thursday and Friday. Syabas.

Oh...tapi...

Bila jeling kat tepi nih ha, nampak pulak longgokan ketas pekse ujung taun bebudak form 1 and form 2 sekolah saye. Astaga.

Tapi now that I'm done with marking the PMR scripts, I could focus on getting the important things done before school ends. Those petty little things that managed to emerge and show their annoying shadows right when I have not-s0-of-an-ample time. Semoga dapat siap semua semua! Penandaan kertas yang laju bakal bermula lagi!

kembali

Terkejut rase pagi pagi tadi masuk aje opis dengar encik pembantu am kat sekolah tengah borak borak dengan cikgu nih cakap suami kepada akak F tengah nazak.

Biar betik (dalam hati).

Suami akak F nih la yang tolong saye dulu belikan Si Hensem (my car) sebab dia kerja Perodua. Baik suami dia nih, macam akak F jugak, baik.

Anak anak derang ramai, ade empat orang. Kecik kecik lagik semuanya.

Kak F pun muda, baru aje 31. Suami dia 32. Derang kawin awal, anak anak tengah membesar jadik mereka berdua memang gigih la carik rezeki untuk mase depan anak anak kan.

......

Keluar dari kelas 1 Melati, kak Wawa bagitau yang suami akak F dah pun meninggal.. Innalillah..

Allah tu maha kuasa. Dia yang izinkan kita untuk bernafas, Dia yang beri kita rezeki, Dia yang benarkan sesuatu itu untuk terjadi. Dan bila dah sampai masanya Dia hendak kita kembali kepada Dia, nyawa kita akan ditarik..and it's often without a warning.

Tadi sempatlah pergi ziarah lepas meeting akhir tahun yang menyesakkan nafas. Kagum jugak tengok akak F sebab dia nampak strong. Tak senang nak besarkan anak anak tanpa support system yang kukuh. Support system nih bukan dari segi material saje, tapi juga dari segi spiritual. Our spouses is called our other half because of a very valid reason. They ARE our other half. The one that makes us complete and whole. Bila ada masalah, kita share. 2 orang bergabung dalam satu team, 2 keluarga bertemu jadik satu.

I can't imagine the feeling of waking up without that important person next to us, knowing that he/she won't be around for the rest of time... sedihnya.

My mom became a single mother when she was 33 and had to take care the two of us when my dad passed on. Now that I'm all grown up, I appreciate her more, knowing that it must have been hard. Bila dah besar, kepala otak nih makin matang, we see more than what is laid in front of us.

Harap harap Kakak F dapat membesarkan anak anak dia dengan baik dengan rahmat dan rezeki yang melimpah ruah dari Allah SWT. Semoga Allah sentiasa permudahkan urusan mereka dan semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatNya terhadap roh arwah. Amin.

!panic

Perlukah saya !panic sebab :

a) saya sudah makin gumuk. Baju dah border muat/tak muat.

b) I have 204 scripts to mark and have only marked 30. I have until 10th of November.

c) Hujung taun of school means = banyak benda nak kena siapkan = makin kurang masa. Gasps.

d) The coming 160 scripts to be marked. These are my students'.

e) Result transfer sekolah nak kuar dah gedebuk gedebak goes my heart.

f) Henpon makin nazak so it's time to buy a new, decent one but I really hate the idea of spending heaps of cash on an item that would be outdated in months. I don't like to spend what I've worked hard to earn. Kerja => sakit hati & otak + penat => duit => habis? eeks.

g) Dan dah sampai masa untuk tukar tayar kete. Eeeeeks.

Terduduk.
Tapi it's okay.
What is life without obstacles.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Every word feels like a shooting star

In American Idol season 9, Didi Benami was shown singing this song. This song is taken from Katherine Mcphee's Unbroken (her second album) and Didi had helped made this song a hit (Didi memang power. Heh heh -cubaan memuji diri sendiri). The title of this song is Terrified. Here's a new version of it where they feature the actor Zachary Levi from the series Chuck.

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean it 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

Ah~ one of my fav :-)

khidmat awam

Today meeting lagi untuk examiners dari Ayer Hitam where we had tonssss of practices in marking. We also got the scripts that we have to mark and I have around 200 hoho. Belum campur lagik kertas jawapan exam ujung taun sekolah next week oh yeah so jadi kalau mata saya macam rabun dan dah diri dekat dekat kurang dari 3 meter pun and I cannot identify you, ampun lah ye. Depan mata nih dah nampak sentences yang ditulis secara linear saje. Dunia ni dah tak berapa nak kalerful sangat dah.

The driving was OK. Tak jem macam semalam which was caused by an accident and apparently many drivers decided to slow down and stare. Typical sangat. Haih.

Tapi hari nih ade perkara bodoh telah berlaku di depan mata. Sangat bodoh sebab A) membahayakan diri sendiri B) membahayakan orang lain C) sebab memang plain bangang.

Semua kereta benti time lampu isyarat merah, kan. Unless you are color blind, I don't think you would have difficulty in identifying the color red from green. Orang yang color blind tak buleh amek lesen pun by the way. (Ingat lagik dulu time ujian amek lesen yang nak identify color blind ke tak, ade mamat sebelah ni nak tiru tapi of course la saye tidak beri hey hey mintak maap encik but I don't want to be held responsible kalo ade eksiden happen in the future that is caused by your condition - sorry).

Tapi ada this lady driving a red viva wah mungkin berangan nak jadik flashman (er..woman?) terus vroom vroom vrooom bila lampu kat jalan lagik satu dah kelip kelip hijau. Lampu kami belum hijau lagik dia da drive dengan asyiknya dan meninggalkan kami dengan asap asapnye. I was dumbfounded for a fraction of second.

Haih, mungkin eksaited sangat baru dapat lesen and pegang stereng gamaknye. Ataupun mungkin dia dah lupa warna hijau dan merah camne. Tapi memang plain bangang, sebab : A) sometimes there would still be people yang datang out of nowhere dari jalan arah yang lain tu. B) bila dia langgar ko, ko would be held responsible. C) menyusahkan orang yang jadik mangsa eksiden sebab kejahilan ngko. D) menyusahkan aku gak bila jem sebab eksiden. Aku nak balik cepat. Badan dan otak dah letih.

Sila amalkan ini :

Stop at red light.
When it turns green, wait for a few seconds before you continue driving so as to ensure that there aren't idiots who are speeding despite the red light.

Berhati hati membawa berkat. Okeh?

examiners - at work.

oh waw, try waking up at 445a.m, drive 2hrs straight early in the morning and go straight to a meeting where you be the youngest and inexperienced. Mark essays after a short morning break and try categorizing them accordingly after reading them as a whole whilst praying that you don't stray too far from others. Heho.

These were what I did earlier today and I am so knackered :-D

Although I must say that I am eager and pretty excited to be one of the markers for English PMR this year and gain as much experience as I could while learning from others who are far more experienced than yours truly.

Let's hope that I would be able to do my work and reward marks accordingly supaya tidak menganiayai mana mana pihak though. Hee.

sengal like that

I started to sing and dance to the clip on the telly since I was very little. Not quite sure when but my mom recorded a sound clip where we sang to a Richard Mark's Right Here Waiting. I was 4 or probably 5 years old. Each time I saw somebody dances on the telly, I would groove to it. Imitate it. I must be a real pain in the arse and a sight to a sore eye.

If you think it stopped when I hit puberty, you are so wrong. It didn't. In fact, it became worse because I then had a little recruit. My very own brother!

I would forced him to join me memperasankan diri di hadapan television. Astaga. Pengajaran ntah hape hape di situ. Haha.

So it's a little wonder why he won a second place in this dancing competition held at Ayer Keroh's Jusco. He was probably 8. Dah banyak praktis kan, so he had no difficulty in imitating the dancers.

My perasan perasan performance didn't just stop at imitating the dancers or celebs on telly. I also loved to imitate scene from movies. Namely The Lord Of The Rings. I would wrap myself in a blanket and walla, I became Aragorn. Of course, my brother would be my sidekick. We would act out the lines from the movies we watched, along with facial expression that I swear an award winning.

My favourite celebrities that I imitated more frequent than others was Britney Spears. Some of my closest friends actually had the (unfortunate) opportunity to listen to my imitation to Britney during our karaoke sessions. One of the songs that I love to sing was Born To Make You Happy. Izza if you are reading this I'm sure you are doing so with a wide grin on your face haha. Lain kali aku buat lagik, okeh.

You would have probably guess by now that I am into performing. I love attention. Used to and probably still am ;-P So that's why I didn't mind performing on the stage since I was in primary school. And because I'm such a sucker for dancing, that's why I joined a dancing club (CUDZ - Company of Union Dancers) when I was in uni and forced my friends to join too. Sukses di situ ya. Haha. They love to dance to Black Eyed Peas' songs and zaman ituh adelah zaman kegemilangan My humps. Tapi oleh kerana kami ini sengal, kami sneakily recorded some of our dancing practices. Siap buh kamera dalam beg, lepas tuh biar ON. hahahaha. I would have to thank the dance practices for my then slender figure. Sumpah tak pernah se-slim itu. Zaman zaman di Auckland walaupun di manjakan oleh ceklet dan aiskim dan other food yang sedap tahap biadap, tapi those were the days where I was at my slimmest. Zaman sekolah pun tak slim cemtuh. Sekarang nih tengok seluar kotak kotak MNG yang aku beli kat sana, setakat tengok ajelah yang mampu. A few weeks lepas balik Mlesia, memang terus tak muat! Kuang ajo betul.

Back to cerita asal tentang performing perasan perasan, that is probably why I love to watch Glee though I'm not an avid fan of the show. I didn't get to watch all of the episodes but I'm planning to. Someday. Gotta get my hands on em dvds :-)

So I'm ending this post with a song from Glee. A remake of Toxic by my sister, Britney Spears. As what I always told my brother :-

Me : Britney Spears tu kakak aku.


My brother : Bilo maso plak mama beranakkan Britney Spears.

risau again

Tak boleh blah sungguh,
bila dok jauh dari suami ini memang hati nih risau sangat setiap hari setiap detik pasal kesihatan dia, makan pakai minum.

Dengar aje sikit dia rase tak selesa (I wrote about his health condition a while back, you can read about it here) terus hati nih risau sangat sangat tahap gaban :|

Janganla sakit sakit teruk teruk tau.

Rasa nak berhenti keje aje jadik housewife buat part time ape ape asalkan dapat jage suami :-(

seksa

Ape bende paling hazab yang pernah kamu lalui?

1. tahan buang air besar?
2. terbau kentut dalam elevator tapi tatau whose?
3. nak beranak tapi tak beranak ranak padehal membe kat katil sebelah da bertuko ganti 8 kali?

one of the hazaB-est I've ever had to go through is to tahan gelak when I really, really want to. Desperately. Macam nak gelak hwahahawahwahwa bodoh sial lawak!

Tadi tgk ANTM season 15 episode 5, part 1 & 2, ade challenge where the models had to do a catwalk on this treadmill-like runway. Sumpah lawak bila tengok orang kontrol jalan kat atas menatang tu tapi at the same time nak tegolek jatuh. Ngehehe.

Lepas tuh, pegi blog hopping.

Jumpa pulak lah blog yang kelako

cube bace meh

tak pasal pasal da tersenyum kambing sambil perut senak sebab tahan gelak.

Rase macam nak pergi tandas lepas tu gelak sorang sorang dalam toilet cubicle tu.

BTW, tengah berkursus dan kursus ini bosan tahap gaban -_-"

haze-y

The air condition in Batu Pahat is getting worse. The haze doesn't seem to be getting any better and the lack of rain for these past few days does not help neither.

I have been feeling rather sickly lately. Nauseated every now and then. It felt so tough trying to gather the energy that is left in me to impart the knowledge that I think the kids should have before the examination week begins. I don't even have the energy to be angry and run amok anymore (good for the students though and I'm sure they are so relief to see that teacher is not that fierce any longer).

The haze is so bad that is seems like it's about to rain. But it is not. It's just gloomy and sad and a pretty sickening thing to go through.

I wish it ends soon. Or better still, I wish for it to rain so that it could help clear this haze at least for a bit.

I want to get back to my normal self because being sick is a no-fun :-(

untuk kamu yang saya sayang

Saya sayang suami saya, family kami dan kawan kawan. Bila dah sayang, kalau kita dengar orang tuh tengah bersedih, kita pun turut rasa sedihnya. Rasa hiba. Kalau buleh nak hilangkan sedih tuh dari hati dia.

I only have a brother. So I consider these three wonderful girls as my own sisters. They have beautiful personalities. Each of them is special in their own unique way.

This one is for you. Who called me just now. Who is in the midst of confusion.

You are a very special individual. You have a really kind heart and I envy you for that.

Kamulah manusia yang paling tidak berkira pernah saya jumpa dalam dunia nih. Kamu pandai bawa diri. Campak la kat ceruk mana pun, saya yakin kamu boleh hidup dengan jayanya!

And you helped us a lot, in so many ways.

Jadi bila saya dengar awak sedih tadi, hiba sangat rasenye :-(

Tak sampai hati betul bila dengar orang yang kita sayang tengah dalam dilema...

I have no rights to tell you about the decision that you should take. It's yours solely. I could only give some advices and I sure hope they were OK.

Whatever your decision would be, be sure to know that we will have your back. I know you have a good head on your shoulder and you would be able to sail through this rough tide smoothly.

Teruskan berdoa. I will too.

Ya Allah, semoga Kau permudahkan urusan adikku ini, berilah dia kebahagian dunia dan akhirat dan bantulah dia dalam membuat keputusan yang penting ini. Rahmatilah dia. Dia tak pernah berkira dengan teman temannya, semoga Kau bukakan pintu rahmatMu seluas luasnya bagi dia.

Saya sayang dia. Saya nak dia hepi.

:-)

Terima kasih :-)

Friends are valuable, precious and irreplaceable. True friends, that is. The ones whom you love endlessly, embrace warmly and think of occasionally.

Through ups and downs.

Regardless of disagreements and quarrels.

You learn lots of things from each other.









You learn to compromise.

You learn to be selfless.

You learn to forgive and forget.



You learn to love others who are not your own flesh and blood.




They are the ones who you want to be with when you are having fun.

They are also the ones who you want to be beside you when you are facing difficulties.



No man is an island.

Those who say that they could live without friends are dreamers.















You go through different phases in your life with friends by your side.

When you go to school.

When you start your tertiary education.

When you start working.

When you get engaged.

When you get married.

When you give birth.

When you are old and wrinkly.

You'll only be alone when you are six feet under. But you would need your friends' prayer for you. And those prayers could accompany you.

See, what is life without friends.

And for that, I thank each and every one of you.

:-)

P/S - I mish all of ya!

conteng muka

Naturally, a bride-to-be would want to look amahzeng (one notch higher than amazing :-p) on her wedding day. Even though what matters is really how you look in your husband's eyes but yeah there's always this feeling of wanting to be remembered as the 'stunning bride' instead of the 'ala pengantin yang muka sengal tuh'. Pergh. The latter statement tuh memang tak buleh blah la kan.

So a makeup artist is one of the great assets for you to look stunning on your 'do. Make that a GOOD makeup artist, because there's an abundant of mak andam out there but a good one is hard to find.

Luckily I found mine. Met him by chance when we attended a wedding of my husband's colleague (he was my boyfriend back then). We agreed that the makeup look amazing and he managed to enhance the bride's beauty. We also think that we would like for him to work his magic on me on our wedding day.

And we booked him right after we got engaged (which was in the end of May).

Come 18th September, he worked his magic on me whilst his sister helped to enhance my husband's looks. hee.

These pictures are taken from his website AJ cinta aliah gallery

bulu mataku bukan bulu ayam di rumahmu.

gagal sengih sepenuhnya sebab tengah fokus betapa beratnya bulu mata palesu sambil terpikir cemane la rozita che wan could handle this!

tampan sekali sampai gugur jantungku dari rangka badan hingga kena kutip balik

I am really satisfied with his work and it was fun working with him and his sister, as well as Sahlan who accompanied them! The makeup lasted till late evening (even after all the sweating due to the hot weather and also our excitement during the outdoor photoshoot - ngeh heh heh heh) so it was worth every penny spent :-)

Thank u AJ! :-) If you are interested in his work, go visit his website. His contact number is there. Their wedding package is also oh-so-pretty! He's one hardworking dude and I could see that he has a bright future ahead of him :-) BTW, he's one of the makeup artist for the imam muda show on tv9. Better book him fast before his rate skyrockets like Nurol Shukor. hehehehe. Tak lame lagi mesti mantap dia nih. Amin!

He's our junior back in secondary school. So, GO TALIBians! :-))

LOST

I have a course on writing from today until the 7th of October. I was rather reluctant to go, realising that I WOULD get lost on my way to this place. Bahagian Teknologi Pendidikan Negeri Johor, Skudai.

Though my grandmother's house is in JB, I hardly navigate my way around JB on my own. It has always been straight from Melaka to Taman Pelangi JB. Go straight, don't belok belok. And when I'm at my grandma's house, I would stay quietly in her place, helping out whatever I could until it's time to go back home. Hence the limited knowledge of routes in JB.

So, naturally, I freaked out upon knowing I have a course to attend in Skudai.

Going there alone seems like a disaster.

The two other teachers from Batu Pahat are males and I would rather not hitching a ride with neither of them.

But God has His own way to help people. One of the male teachers could not go and he was replaced with a female teacher whom I once met during a course in Batu Pahat. We got hold of each other's number and my worry dissipated when she agreed to go there with me. I don't mind driving long distance but I need a company when I'm going somewhere alien-ish.

I got hold of a map.

Yet, we got lost on our way to this place.

I solemnly swear, we followed the map EXACTLY, but couldn't find Skudai Parade anywhere in our sight right after the Skudai Exit.

We probably were too engaged in our conversation. Ngeh ngeh :-P

But thanks heaps to that adik in Petronas Petrol Station, we were able to find Skudai Parade.

Not lost anymore. And there's no way I'm driving around here all the while we are here. The next drive would be going back home on Thursday!

and oh, best of luck to those sitting for PMR. You kids are all in my prayer. Teacher pun nebes gak!

and the fear kicks in

Our wedding was actually scheduled to be in December but we decided to have it in September due to one main reason :

The online application for transfer would be opened only twice a year, that is, in April and yes, in September.

We wanted to have a sijil nikah in order for me to apply for my transfer. At least I could tick off the box mengikut suami in the section where I have to state my reason for the application of transfer.

I have always have this fear that this application would be rejected. I have even contemplating in quitting my job. I wanted to be beside my husband. Reason being, he is sick.

That is why I wanted to move so badly.

My husband is diabetic. He has been diagnosed with Diabetes Type 1 since he was 12. That was fourteen years ago. That is what most of our friends know about.

What we have been keeping to ourselves is that, sadly, his condition has been deteriorating.

It has started to affect his eyes. Earlier this year, he kept on complaining about his blurry vision and how uncomfortable he felt. I urged him to see a doctor and we got a recommendation of a good one. And so we went.

It was one of the saddest day in my life when I heard about the possibilities. If you haven't heard about diabetic retinopathy, google it up if you have the time and curiosity. There were blood clots in his eyes and they were swollen. It could eventually lead to blindness.

It could be stopped from getting worse (i.e - stop the bleeding and swelling) but the treatment is really expensive. He needed a laser treatment and also injection into the eye balls.

But God is Almighty, that was settled. He was able to go through the treatment. However, it could come back anytime. He has been undergoing the treatment for several times now and he is scheduled for another one really soon. InshaAllah. He need to watch his diet, control his glucose as well as his blood pressure.

Which brings us to another scare.

He now has hypertension. He is on medication for hypertension and the food choices that he has now is even more limited. Eating out has to be avoided because stalls often use MSG which is bad for his blood pressure. He often comes back late from work and would find himself too lethargic to prepare his own meal upon reaching home. So eating out seems to be the only option.

There is also another scare.

His kidney is now slightly affected. Sometimes, his feetwould swell and this would make him uncomfortable. So he would have to watch his diet even more. However, eating out a healthy meal in Malaysia is almost impossible. And there is not a lot of option for someone who has diabetes, hypertension as well as a slightly affected kidney. His urine is high in uric acid and a few more things. Even eating some vegetables is not good for him for they might be high in certain things that could force his kidney to work more (which is not good). We are aiming in not letting his kidney to work more than it should be.

I guess now you would understand how badly I want this transfer and why.

It's not because I'm such a dependent person I can't live without my husband, no, it's more than that. I don't mind going to see a mechanic on my own when my car is not in a good shape. I don't mind paying the bills and going here and there. I don't mind travelling and driving my reliable car, Si Hensem, on my own.

The only thing that matters to me is my husband's health and that I want to be able to help him manage his condition, not to make it worse. I want him to live long and healthy. I want to do EVERYTHING that it could take to help him feel better. Whatever it takes. From waking up early in the morning to prepare his breakfast and lunch to massaging his feet before he goes to sleep so that he would feel at ease.

Hmmmph.

I have attached his surat sakit along with my transfer application. My principal who is known as someone who would question his teachers' reason in applying for a transfer so much that it could drive someone to cancel the application, did not question me a word about my transfer. He quickly endorsed it.

I need all of your doa, in praying for us that I could be transferred near him as soon as possible, as well as praying for his health.

The result will come out in November and we had planned to go to Putrajaya should the application be rejected and yeah, practically beg for the transfer.

I have faith in qada' and qadar. There is no harm in trying and so we try. Allah is merciful and HE knows everything, so, in Him we trust.

InshaAllah.

pantas

Baru aku sedar yang kuku aku nih cepat betul panjang nye. Pakai inai on 16th September, sekarang ni baru 29th, dah nampak dah bahagian warna sebenar kuku. Hari tuh nampak skit aje, skarang dah makin banyak.

Tapi kuku kaki kalah teruk dalam perlumbaan "siapa panjang dulu".

Tengok tengok inai di jari, rase terima kasih sangat sangat sangat tahap megababoom pada Izza, Yuni, Zab sebab datang malam khamis tu untuk pakaikan inai. Sampai sesat sesat. Miscommunication tahap hebat. Tak ape...janji selamat sampai :-)

Mana nak carik kawan kawan yang sanggup tepekkan inai kat jari tangan dan jari kaki semua. Mereka buat dengan penuh kasih sayang dan dedikasi. Ape agaknya perasaan tengok kawan diaorang yang dulu sama sama susah senang time study dah nak kawen agaknye ek. I don't know. Tapi perasaan saya time tuh adelah, I felt so glad I got to see my girls on the last night of me being a bachelorette.

Semalaman pakai inai. Tidor malam tuh kat ruang tamu sebab takut kotorkan cadar baru. Sambil tido sambil kopek kopek inai yang dah kering. Hehehe. Mana tahan. Bangun tidor sepah sepah dah inai kat tempat tido.

Tapi hasil dia cantik.

Thank you girls :-)