cerita pemberian taraf berpencen

adoyai nye pun. *suara hati seorang yang frust*

Untuk kakitangan kerajaan, kita tau kan salah satu keistimewaan dia adalah sebab pencen. Kalau saya meninggal dulu, dapatla anak & suami duit pencen. Kalau umur saya panjang, dapatla rasa duit pencen tu selepas dah tak keje lagi. Cukupla inshaAllah time tu guna duit tu untuk makan minum, bayar bil dan ubat (assuming time tu tak payah bayar utang kereta lagi dah dan rumah dah abis dibayar).

Selepas tiga tahun berkhidmat di jabatan kerajaan, kerani jabatan akan uruskan supaya pemberian taraf berpencen nih dapat diselesaikan as soon as possible. This is the catch. I don't really like to depend on other people when it comes to things that could affect my future. Sebabnye; tak semua orang dependable. Ada orang boleh selamba saja take it easy dan tak buat perkara yang sepatutnya dibuat -__-

I've transferred school in June last year and prior to that, I have checked with the person in charge (in my school) to make sure that my 'pemberian taraf berpencen' is on the right track. She said it's okay and on it's way to be settled. I've even signed the form that indicates I agree to take the taraf berpencen.

To cut the long story short, it wasn't okay. Not even halfway on its way to be done. It's still a loooooooong way, perhaps?

For almost a year, I've called and checked and called yet again and the answer had always been "Oh surat tak sampai lagi" Alamak ai.

And now I found out ceh, memang takda pun rekod dalam SPP yang pemberian taraf berpencen saya tuh dah diuruskan. Terpaksala nampak gayanya mintak kerani sekolah baru tolong buatkan tapi itupun kena tunggu buku rekod perkhidmatan dari sekolah lama untuk sampai ke sekolah baru ni. Yes, da setaun pindah tapi dia tak pos-pos lagi bende alah yang penting tu. Bukan tak pernah mintak, dah pernah da mintak..

So now it's the waiting game lah nampak gayanya. Harap dia betul-betullah akan pos kan benda yang penting itu and I can start bugging the clerk at my new school about my taraf berpencen.

Leceh kan, proses dia? Kalau lah boleh buat sendiri semua ni, sanggup saya turun naik pejabat SPP.  Tapi tak boleh. Haih.

Lupa pulak nak baca surah Toha ayat 1-5 before cakap dengan kerani sekolah lama tadi mintak dilembutkan hati dia untuk permudahkan urusan ni =p

Permudahkanlah urusan orang, inshaAllah urusan kita akan dipermudahkan.

Kalau boleh tak nak la buat keadaan menjadi kecoh dan menutup periuk nasi orang dengan melibatkan pihak lain tapi kesabaran manusia nih kengkadang ade gak limitnya. Seperti yang disebut kat atas tadi, it's the waiting game. Makanya on top of other things yang kena difikirkan dan diselesaikan (school related), ditambah la pulak dengan satu hal nih. Heh. Saya dah kerja since Januari 2008, jadi kalau boleh memang nak sangat benda ni cepat selesai.

Jadi pada adik-adik yang kerja kerajaan tu (especially those who are working in school...) bila dah cukup 3 taun tuh, sila lah bug the clerk of your school supaya senang nanti urusan anda. Terutama kalau pindah sekolah nanti. Kecil aja halnya sebenarnya cuma tuhla, tak semua orang akan buat sesuatu perkara seperti yang kita harapkan walaupun hal ni besar impaknya pada hidup seseorang. Sadly.

Semoga cepat dapat diselesaikan dengan izin Allah. Amin.

year end hols 2011

I was beyond ecstatic when the school hols arrived although I'd have to invigilate for stpm. Yes, it would be more awesome and heavenly if I do not have to waste my time becoming a zombie for the day, looking at kids trying to ace their exam papers with nothing else on my mind except for the constant thoughts on what would I do next once I reach home, what's the menu for the day, and many more that is mostly domestic related.

But to think that at least I get a pahala for helping out a heavily pregnant colleague who's waiting for the due date that is just around the corner by replacing her to invigilate and also the allowance that I'll be getting (trust me, it's not much. at all. tapi jadikla dari jage free aje), I'm comforted.

We are not really going anywhere this time except for attending a few weddings that will occupy / already occupied our most weekends ;p This weekend and the following will insyaAllah let us to jalan jalan malaysia and there will be some serious makan series as well as shopping to be done and not forgotten, moments to be captured using the spanking new camera that we have grown to love.

I got to meet my besties, Izza and Zabby during the hols and those two separate rendezvous were truly a blessing in disguise. I actually hit my lower than low (career satisfaction -wise) since I got my transfer and these two girls actually made me see things in a different light, got me back to my old self just by talking to them. I'm pretty sure they had no idea of what those meetings contributed to me apart from a really jolly good time. They inspired me :)

I wish there would be more people that I could meet but time seems to be very jealous of us all. There are always clashing plans and commitments and so those meet ups would have to be postponed. But one thing for sure, regardless of how long we haven't met, we would all be able to talk and laugh like it was just yesterday we bid our farewell, the very next time we all have our get-together. I'm certain of that :)

The end has no end.

......So, this is how it looks like on the website if you get a positive result. And with it, comes an avalanche of emotions :- happiness, sadness and anxiety. Upon looking at the result, I was ecstatic beyond words, I felt like jumping, hopping around, like a rabbit going mental. I went to school and the first person that I broke the news to was Kak Wawa, a colleague of mine who started teaching in Semerah at the same time as I did. We shared many things together. How inexperienced we were, how frustrated we got sometimes with some of the things at school and of course, some other good news too along our journey. She got teared up as she heard the news.

And the news later spread like wild fire. I got congratulated from my left, right and center. As my days were numbered, I worked like a hamster on wheels, trying to complete what I must. I didn't had time to pack my stuff (which magically seemed to have multiply itself after 3 years and a half in Batu Pahat) and my mind was divided into many many little compartments, each dealing with different issues.

My students' jaw nearly dropped as I told them the news, one even had the nerve to tell me, "Alaa...suruhla suami teacher transfer ke Batu Pahat". I could only smile. If only it is that easy.

The teachers had a pot luck on Friday, celebrating my transfer. It was initiated by my colleagues who are close to me and although they tried to keep this celebration from me, it was to no avail. Something big like that and which involved all the other teachers is really hard to keep as a secret. My class (2 Seroja) held a small party for me, and the day before it, they INSISTED on me entering the class earlier than I should. Haha. I was so touched when I saw the two cakes on the table in the middle of the class, complete with candles being lit. Alamak. And all the boys were so cooperative, trying to help the girls, I was choking for words.

As I walked out from the class, the girls cried bucket but I managed to maintain my composure. I really enjoy teaching all of my students this year, both high achievers and the weaker ones. I will surely miss them heaps.

And then the makan continued in the staff room. I cut a cake given by all the Chinese teachers, and I will miss them sorely. They had been very friendly to me, always giving advises and helped me countless times. We always converse in English and they always made me feel like I am their little sister. They even gave me ang pow when I got married!

Before the school ends on Friday, I salam-ed all the teachers, seeking forgiveness for anything that I might have done wrongly, and my tears went streaming down my face when I salam-ed Kak Anis, another English teacher who sat opposite me. I always feel at ease talking and confiding in her. There are many things about her that I admire and yes, I do look up at her as my elder sister. I also cried when I salam-ed Kak Ila, the head of English department. I may never find another who I would be working comfortably with, like I did with her and the rest of the English teachers. Heck, I might not even be able to teach English being transferred in the mid year as the timetables are usually fixed by this time of the year :-(

And I will definitely miss my closest colleagues who called themselves "Geng Bas Sekolah". Haha. Some people might take them as being loud but I do think that they are very nice and helpful. And I am so thankful that I got to know them, who made my days in Semerah much nicer :-)

I was indifferent when I packed my things up. My husband would be coming on Saturday in a rented van to bring all my stuff back to Melaka and I was working full on, like a robot. I surprised myself with the ability to pack EVERY single thing, unscrew some furniture and actually had the heart to throw away bundles of stuff.

Nevertheless, suffice to say, that I am glad we managed to reach Melaka, looking at how the van was almost bursting with things.

And right now, as I am having my sweet time enjoying the 2 weeks off from school, I have been religiously checking out mudah.com as well as iproperty.com for our next official crib :-) I am looking forward for it, to finally be able to call a place as our home. A haven for the just the two of us. Although it would cost us a lot and we might have to survive on bread and water for every single day (God forbid I sure hope we won't!), it's okay because we would be doing it together.

So that's about it. Please do pray that we would be able to go through this house hunting smoothly and I would have a pleasant experience working at the new school. It was scary when I first took a look at it. My stomach twisted in the most uncomfortable way as I saw the environment surrounding the school, having the idea of the kind of students who enrolled in that school. But things happen for a reason and as an adult that I am, I say, bring it ON.

vanilla

Last long weekend, our school held a trip to Langkawi which was joined by many teachers and a few students (hehe). I didn't join as there were a couple of weddings both husband and I wanted to attend. On Friday right before the long weekend begins, as I was teaching right in front and explaining them about forming plural nouns, those who were going to Langkawi had a briefing and for a brief moment, it interrupted my lesson. A student was called out for the briefing.

I quickly blurted out

"Hah, nak pegi Langkawi ye. Jangan lupa beli saye ole ole!! Saya suke ceklet!" and the class roared with laughter probably because of my expression which I think would be akin to those kepoh makciks you would always see in Malay dramas. I am animated to begin with. Heh.

The long weekend went by.

On Wednesday, right before I started teaching and while I was waiting for these rascals (hah!) to settle down, that aforementioned students came to the teacher's desk in front of the class and place a small bag that you always get from wedding ceremonies, on the table. I asked him what it was and he just smiled a sheepish smile.

When I went inside the staff room and sat on my place, I had a look at what's inside the bag (which was wrapped with newspaper) and voilà, there's a big bar of vanilla marble chocolate there by Cadbury. The one where there's a soft filling in the centre of the chocolate. I was quickly reminded about the incident on last Friday.

Alamak. Did this boy bought it out of fear?

I went to see him the next day to ensure that he didn't buy if out of fear and that I was just playing by asking him to buy me souvenirs. And he replied with;

Ikhlas la teacher :-)

Phew.

I will definitely savour that chocolate.

Students - although some of them could really drive you against the wall, there are a few who definitely could put a smile on your face in a way sometimes you can't possibly imagine.

.firework.

Baru aje beli speaker yay! There is only one room where the teachers could use ICT stuff in teaching the students (albeit an inadequate one - you have to use your own laptop and mine could not get in sync with the projector T_T) and it's almost impossible to book the room due to high demand, especially from the form six teachers.

Therefore, terpakselah menggunakan resource sendiri ape ade kalo nak buat lesson best sket untuk bebudak. In my case, I'm going to use my own laptop and the speaker that I just bought.

Tomorrow I am planning to teach the kids through the song Firework by Katy Perry. It will test their listening skill (they would have to complete the lyric given to them) and after that, I will give them a set of antonyms of several words taken from the lyric so that they would understand the difficult words in the lyric (I know there would be some - for an example, the word 'ignite' in this song).

Why did I plan to apply this method as early as the first week?

It's because I could sense that they are very tense. These students (the top class among the form two) need to have a time out and I hope that this lesson would enable them to enjoy English lessons better. I have a feeling that they fear the very thought of having to learn English with me because I have been speaking totally in English to them. I know that some of them are having difficulties in understanding me but they need to challenge themselves as they have the potential.

Let's see if this would work :-)

The reason for choosing this song is because the lyric is very meaningful. It's about not being afraid to express who you really are on the inside and not letting your flaws stop you from having a great life. It's about how each individual is special in their very own way. A very relevant song for the teenagers as this is the time where you feel like the world is against you. I still remember that feeling :-D

we could all be beautiful and awesome if we let ourselves be :-)

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

(I would have to edit the lyric for them a bit so that it would be in proper English)

Here's hoping that the lesson would go well as planned and I would walked out the classroom feeling good, knowing that I have taught them something useful and motivational :-)

that IS my cat. this IS my book.

Rase macam senang aje kan ayat ayat bawah ni:-

That is my cat.


This is my book.

Average Malaysians would understand the above sentences with no difficulties and could produce own sentences like the above with very little effort or perhaps none at all. However, there are some who can't fathom the above sentences let alone writing them on their own, using own words. And they are my students. I teach both first and the last class for Form 2 (and another form 2 class that is quite weak too) and you could see a vast difference between these two classes. Kadang kadang rase sebak jugak..sebab sebelum jadik cikgu nih memang tak pernah terlintas yang ade murid yang sungguh sungguh lemah.

Kalo ade yang cakap, semua orang nih dilahirkan sama saje, tapi usaha yang memainkan peranan. Sorry, but I beg to differ. Students kelas yang depan depan nih senang skit nak tangkap dan fahamkan ape yang dicakap walaupun ade tuh yang malas tahap gaban T_T. Hati terang. Tapi yang kelas belakang belakang ni kene betul betul cakap the simplest way possible, ayat kene pendek dan tepat. Ade jugak yang rajin dan dapatlah result yang okay tapi masih jauh ketinggalan lah kalau nak dibandingkan dengan students kelas lain. Kesian kan. Tapi usaha tuh memang patut dipuji :-)

Hari nih saje I spent a period teaching them when to use 'IS'. Baru 'IS' saje, belum masuk 'ARE' lagik sebab sadly, hanya a few saje yang cepat catch up dalam kelas tuh and I have to cater to the majority.

Paling best, bila akhir waktu, suruh buat ayat sendiri, most of them could do it. Phew. Terase lah berbaloi mulut nih bergulung sebut bende yang same aje. I don't set a high expectation for this class because I have to get real. Therefore, I am planning to equip them with the basic stuff so that maybe they could use it later on in their life. Janganlah sampai nanti nak perkenalkan diri sendiri dalam Bahasa Inggeris pun tak buleh huu.

Hari nih jugak form one students abes orientation. Memang la ramai yang cecomel tahap candy tapi ituh baru baru awal tahun kan, semua masih ade halo atas kepala :-D Towards the end of their orientation, they had to seek for the teachers' signature and the teacher's room was crowded with these little eager mini people. However, only a few came to me. There were probably around 25 students. Sebabnye ? Lepas derang bukak aje mulut tanye mintak signature bagai, aku cakap :- "you would have to speak to me in English if you want my signature". Hah, menggagau bebudak tuh nak carik cemane nak cakap "tolong tulis nama dan tandatangan di sini" dalam BI.

Yang dapat signature aku tuh, thumbs up for trying. Two thumbs up for not being scared at the thought of speaking in English. You shouldn't be scared of something that would do you good :-)

When life gives you lemon, well, make lemonade!

I vowed not to dwell in sorrow and think how unfortunate I am yadda yadda so as the saying above goes, when life gives you lemon, make lemonade! Turn something sour into something great. I had to go back to Batu Pahat earlier this week for meetings and whatnot. Looking at the shabby room of mine *memalukan* I decided to revamp it and make it as comfortable as it could so that I would be one happy lady whenever I'm in my room.

I've compromised my comfort for the longest time ever, well, actually, since I got posted to BP, knowing that I am not going to stay there forever and it would be a hassle to move with boxes of stuff. But I guess I had enough. Boleh tak, selama ini, aku tidor atas tilam aje, refused to buy a proper bed sebab malas pikir nak meng-pack etc (selama tinggal kat BP, I moved to 3 different houses ;-p). Tapi oleh sebab rase I won't be moving to other houses anymore sampaila dapat pindah keluar dari BP for good, maka rasanye the time has come to get me one.

Berjaya beli katil yang comel. Yay.
Dan meja untuk buat kerja.
I also rearranged the stuff in my room so it is now looking way better than before.
Guess I could live with that until my transfer. Hee.

Next year I'll be teaching the form 1s and the form 2s because I've pointed out the fact that I would probably get my transfer in June and it would be troublesome should I teach the PMR classes. My Ketua Panitia gave a thought about that and found it to be a valid reason. So I'll be teaching one good class (I am the form teacher too. Hmmps), one mediocre class and another three 'weak' classes. They are not weak actually, they just have lower achievement in their academics. Human beings are born with different capabilities.

Teaching these classes however would require you to be slightly fiercer than your average self. I found it to be handy as these type of students would usually pay more attention to you when you are fierce. Nevertheless, it would be rather tiresome to play MDM FIERCE all the time but you gotta do what you gotta do. Rotan pun harus dibawa all the time. Muka pun kena bebengis, mesti korang kalo tengok muke aku bengis korang rase eh kene rasuk puake ape perempuan nih. Sumpah agak menakutkan. Suara pun nak kene lontar jauh. Ape ingat AF aje belajar lontar lontar suara? Jadik cikgu pun kene juge T_T. Tapi suara skarang tengah rock sebab batuk belum fully gone maka mungkin lepas nih kene standby dequadin dalam handbag supaya bila jerit nanti satu blok gegar >:-P

Oh btw ade sorang cikgu laki nih tekujat dengar aku mengamuk time buat kelas tambahan intensif untuk bebudak PMR earlier this year. Hihi. Lepas tu this another English teacher kate, "Oh you maksudkan dD ke, I tak terkejut sangat la sebab I saw her blew her top one day kat library." Time tuh aku campak kusi library kat student yang kurang berajar. Woh woh. Harap lepas ni garang, tapi sabar. Hmmm. Camno tu.

wrapping this year up :-)

I don't always get what I want and that could be really painful to think. At times. Therefore, I made a promise to myself not to think about what I don't have. The what-ifs. Because I rather not dwelling in sadness when I could spend the rest of time with joy and calmness. Despite the whirlwind about my transfer, there were happier times that I am grateful for. Alhamdulillah.

1. My husband (he was my bf during that time) managed to go through several eye treatments and his condition has been getting on well from that point. The eye treatments (laser + injection to the eyes) were covered by his company's insurance and that was a huge relief because we otherwise might not be able to afford them.

2. Relationship wise, we were able to go through the merisik, bertunang and berkahwin stage all in a year. When we looked back at those times, it felt rather magical because it seemed like they happened on their own. Almost. Things just fall into the right places and what more could we say than praised be to Allah for letting them happened smoothly.

3. Economy wise, we are still struggling but the condition is better than last year's. We got better pay, I got to mark for English PMR (and I have bought a new handphone using the money I got from marking :-D), he got to buy his car and inshaAllah we will be going for our major honeymoon next March. We have paid for the tix and are now planning for the itinerary. Can't wait :-) Hopefully, this too will be a smooth sailing. It is my dream destination and to be able to go there for our honeymoon is like a dream come true, as corny as it sounds :-D

4. Our family grew larger with this marriage as well as our circle of friends. Can't help but too fall in love with each individual that I get to know and it is a relief for I did not find a hard time blending in. Neither does he. I thank God for being able to marry a man whose kampung is minutes away from mine as it gives a great advantage to us, especially in our circumstances where my mom is a single mom and his father is not really in the perks of his health. Being able to visit both during weekend is great :-)

There are many more things that I am grateful for but these are all that I could type as of now. I am rushing to pack my stuff because I had to go back to Batu Pahat next week for the school's meeting.

Have a great end-of-year everyone. I wish that all of you will wrap this year with contentment in your heart and hopefully next year will bring much joy and happiness to each of us. Ameen.



Take care :-)

of sambal belacan, kurma ayam and peria goreng.

Cuti hujung tahun nih 1st time dapat rasa jadik surirumahtangga. Kemas kemas, masak masak, layan suami. Penat jugak kan rupenye jadik surirumahtangga. Jadik janganla pandang rendah kat mereka walaupun mereka tak bekerja dan duduk aje kat rumah. Mereka tuh sebenarnya pengurus. Pengurus dalam keluarga. Walaupun tak menyumbang dari segi material, mereka beri support yang umpph dari segi keperluan yang lain.

Aku selalu berangan, besh nye kalau dapat kerja dari rumah aje.

Bayangkan, jadik cikgu dalam virtual world. Bebudak semua bukak laptop/netbook/pc dan kami mula belajar. Pantau dari jauh. Jawab soalan budak thru chatting application. Semak kerja mereka lepas derang dah submit via email. Heaven!

Tak payah bazir duit untuk minyak dan jugak kurang la kerap nak kena servis kereta. Duit bulanan yang selalu bajet untuk minyak + servis dah buleh asingkan untuk insurans + road tax kereta. Jimat!

Maybe beberape kali dalam sebulan adelah jugak kene pergi sekolah untuk meeting etc. Tapi masih jimat, sebab bukan hari hari pun.

Hari hari dapat masak kat rumah untuk family. Suami pun mesti suka, dia memang tak elok makan kat luar sebab kami tak dapat pantau kandungan food tuh, bila saya dapat masak untuk dia hari hari mesti dia lagik sihat, kan. Happy!

Bila dah ada anak anak pun, tak ade masalah dah nak carik nanny atau pembantu rumah. Let mommy watch you kids and we can spend quality time together gether!

The most important thing is, there won't be much of an issue untuk pertukaran guru etc dan selesailah masalah saye dok jauh dengan suami.

Haih, syiok betul kalo nih jadik kenyataan. Kalau ada projek cubaan untuk bende alah nih, I'll be among the first to volunteer, sumpah tak tipu.

btw, ape relevannya tajuk entry nih? hehe tuhla menu untuk today. Saye masak biase biase aje, tapi penuh kasih sayang. Heheh. Suami, saye tunggu awak ni! :-)

rayuan pertukaran

Since my transfer application was rejected, we both decided not to forfeit and keep on fighting. Cehwah macam dalam war pulak. Tapi ituhla, cube aje ape yang boleh, tak salah kan.

Maka cubaan kami itu adala...pergi ke Jabatan Pendidikan Johor and Kementerian Pelajaran (MOE) kat Putrajaya.

I initially wanted to just go to MOE but a teacher in my school suggested me to go to both JPNJ and MOE.

And so my husband took a day off yesterday (wednesday) in order to accompany me to go to these two places.

We started our journey to JPNJ early in the morning, after Subuh. Thanks to the GPS thingy, we managed to find that place. Kami tak reti sangat jalan kat JB. To those who are going to Jabatan Pelajaran for an appeal for transfer, you need to meet the pegawai for the bahagian sekolah menengah/rendah to hand him your letter. What you will need to give him are:- a letter of appeal, a copy of your transfer application, and copies of related documents (sijil nikah, surat sakit, etc). Dah jumpa and pot pet pot pet, you're done.

Next, we continued our journey to Putrajaya. Although we were rushing, we did stopped and had a rest at RnR Machap because we were both a bit tired from the journey. Suami saya pun dia tak buleh penat penat sangat sebab dia kan sakit.

After about half an hour, kami pun gerak semula ke Putrajaya, ikut cakap GPS lagik. Miss GPS bawak kami lalu route jalan belakang ke Putrajaya. Cayalah, miss GPS.

Bahagian sektor pengurusan sekolah menengah is at block E2, tingkat 4. Parking was a nightmare. It seemed so impossible to find one! Terpaksa kami park jauh jauh dan dalam panas panas tuh kami pun berjalan ke blok E2 tu. Kesian tengok suami peluh peluh pastuh muka dia dah nampak penat. Takut jugak kalau kaki dia bengkak, sebab dia kalo penat/stress kaki dia akan senang bengkak (water retention sebab kidney dia tu). Bila dah bengkak, memang dia akan rasa tak selesa.

Naik aje tingkat 4, oh ramai rupanya cikgus cikgis yang nak buat rayuan. They even have a form for you to fill in. Kurang skit dah rasa cuak knowing that I'm not alone in this thing. Penuh jugak ruang menunggu tuh sebab ada yang bawak baby, anak anak, mak bapak, etc. Orang yang dekat kaunter tuh layan kami dengan penuh sopan dan sabar. Thumbs up.

After waiting for an hour, sambil kejap kejap tanye suami, "awak OK tak?" all the teachers pun kene go in this one room yang mana dup dap dup dap jugakla hati nih time nak masuk tuh. Phew. Note that only the teachers are allowed to go in this room. Maka sape yang bawak anak anak/babies tuh akhirnye kene tinggalkan kat luar jugak so to those yang nak bawak anak anak kecil tuh I would recommend you not to sebab tak buleh bawak masuk jumpa pegawai pun..nanti kesian dia nangis kene tunggu mak dia lama lama..

Dah masuk dalam bilik tu, ada dua orang pegawai. The first one gave a briefing on how to fill in the form and the necessary documents needed. The second one gave a briefing on the states yang memang payah nak masuk cikgu cikgi baru...which are..Terengganu & Kelantan unless you are an English teacher sebab they are lacking of them.

Lepas dah briefing, kami pun serahkan borang kami.

In my case, cikgu BI as a whole in KL da penuh, walopun kat sekolah sekolah ada je yang kurang cikgu BI but I still submit my rayuan anyway. Tak rasa sedih sangat time tuh sebab the two officers were really nice and the way the behaved, they meant business. Takde nak cakap bende bende yang menyakitkan hati.

Pukul 5 lebih, we were done. Kesian jugak pekerja pekerja kat situ, mesti penat kene kerja lebih masa sket dari biasa and had to meet hundredssss of people with different stories and circumstances. Tak lama lagi mesti reach thousand something sebab semalam dapat borang dah number 900++.

We tried what we could. Mane tau kalau Allah izinkan, dapat la tukar dan duduk sekali dengan suami. Semalam sampai aje umah, memang masing masing terus pengsan atas katel. Dalam hati, kesian sangat kat suami. Mesti dia penat, dah la time kerja penat, time cuti pun penat gak. Sobs sobs. Hari nih nak masak nasik ayam yang super sedap penuh kasih sayang untuk dia. Hihi. Malam ni before tido nak urut kaki dia lama lama sket sebab semalam penat sangat, tak larat nak urut huhu.

InshaAllah kalau ada rezeki.
Kalau takde..takpe, kita tengok alternatif lain.

BTW, rayuan pertukaran nih sebenarnye takde pun dalam prosedur. Dia layan sebab ihsan saje dan dia gelar this procedure as "Rayuan Semakan Semula Penempatan".

holiday yay!

Heheeheheheehehee.

Senyum lebar lebar sebab ape?
Sebab cuti sekolah dah start :-)

Taun nih tak payah jage SPM although initially nama dah naik tapi dah rezeki untuk dapat duduk kat umah for the whole cuti agaknye, maka end up tak dapat pun surat untuk jaga pekse SPM. Whee! I invigilated before (in 2008) and it was a real bore. Duduk sorang sorang dalam bilik peksa (sekolah tuh takde dewan besar untuk exam) tengok budak menjawab. Kalau ikutkan hati memang la nak tido tapi mana buleh nanti kang budak budak amek kesempatan meniru, skali ade pegawai datang tengah check, hohoi haru biru la jugak. Sangat menguji kesabaran dan ketabahan bila jage pekse SPM. Bayaran dia pun tak banyak mana, waktu tuh dapat around 500 aje campo mileage (claim untuk mileage tak banyak sebab waktu tu baru mula kerja, gaji basic masih skit).

Jadi apekah perancangan cuti?

Hehe nothing extraordinary pun selain daripada menjadi surirumahtangga sepenuh masa for this (approximately) one whole month. I'll be going back to school in the last week of December for meetings yang pelbagai but until then my husband has a month to be fully pampered by his wife! ;-)

better :-)

You can refer to my previous post about the not-so-great- news. Masih lagik ade perasaan sedih...muke pun sugul aje though I had embraced the fact that my application was rejected and there's a possibility of us living apart for an indefinite period of time.

I am currently at home sebab besok and rabu cuti. Rabu nih Aidiladha, sekolah amek cuti peristiwa on Tuesday. Dapat la 2 hari cuti :-)

Both of my mom and bro paham that I am sad..

Tetibe air mate mengalir kan, mesti rase serba salah nak cakap cemane dengan budak yang tengah besedih ni hehe. Tengok tibi pun kenkadang air mate mengalir :-p

They went out earlier for dinner. Pesan tapaukan food aje sebab tak semangat nak keluar.

They went back with KFC hehe and the stuff to make waffle. Kat umah mama ade tempat wat waffle, tadi da cakap kat my brother suh tlg watkan waffle tapi bahan2 takado. Jap lagik buleh la makan nih :-) Hmm tak buleh sedih sedih dah kan. Nanti semua orang susah hati. Masih buleh try lagik dengan rayuan. Cube dulu :-)

alahai

The picture speaks a thousand words. I was beyond frustrated. Was. After a sobbing sessions that lasted for hours and indulging in self pity, I bounced back to reality. I am not the kind of person who likes to talk much on a subject that disappoints me but I know that some of you are wondering whether my application is successful so here's an entry dedicated to you lot who I know are concern about my husband and I. Thank you. Mine was rejected but there's still hope. We would proceed with rayuan and we'll see how it goes. There are several alternatives we are considering and we're trying to weight the best one. We'll see.

Jadi kepade mereka yang ingat senang betul nak pindah sekolah, you are wrong. Walaupun dalam Malaysia nih berlambak lambak sekolah, there's also another contributing factor. The subject you are teaching. I just came to know that there is currently no vacancy for English teachers in KL so that is probably why my application was rejected. Ade surat doktor menunjukkan suami saket pun tak dapat jugak. Dari segi tu aku rase kecewa sket. Bukan kecewa sebab aku masih stuck in BP because I have grown to like this place and I think it's OK so as the kids tapi aku kecewa sebab I was really hoping that I could take care of my husband and watch his health.

mekaseh ye dik

Hari ni ade lagi mesyuarat penandaan kertas BI untuk PMR kat Air Hitam. The meeting is at SK Air Itam, to be exact. Besok pun ade lagik, meeting last untuk selesaikan semua paperwork yang berkaitan and cross checking markah. Lepas tuh merdeka sedikit untuk 20%. Lagi 80% adelah kerja kerja sekolah yang kene disetelkan before the school holiday starts.

Beshnye rase bile pegi sekolah rendah. Menyesal aku tak pilih ngajo sekolah rendah. Kalau tak mesti aku dah ramai boifren kenit dan adik pempuan angkats. Cecomels! Kekenit!

Waktu morning tea tadi tak sempat nak keluar ngeteh (dah 3 taun dok BP da pandai gune bahasa bahasa orang jawa cehwah) jadi pergi kantin aje la kat sekolah tuh.

Biasalah budak budak kecik akan gayat tengok strangers kan.

Lepas tuh...aku dengar ayat yang membahagiakan jiwa raga from a little kiddo.

"Assalammualaikum kak"

Kak? Kak? Kaaaaak? Bukan makcik? Ngeeee.

Mekaseh ye dik. U made my day.

sensasi hebat

Sensasi yang hebat dan mungkin lebih hebat dari perasaan setelah pergi membuang air besar adalah, selesai menanda kertas pekse.

PHEW! Double PHEW! Triple PHEW!

All 204 of them, DONE!

Rase nak menanges...ini adelah satu pencapaian yang menakjubkan. Dalam sibuk ber-procrastinating, berjaye gak selesaikan, sebelum perjumpaan this coming Thursday and Friday. Syabas.

Oh...tapi...

Bila jeling kat tepi nih ha, nampak pulak longgokan ketas pekse ujung taun bebudak form 1 and form 2 sekolah saye. Astaga.

Tapi now that I'm done with marking the PMR scripts, I could focus on getting the important things done before school ends. Those petty little things that managed to emerge and show their annoying shadows right when I have not-s0-of-an-ample time. Semoga dapat siap semua semua! Penandaan kertas yang laju bakal bermula lagi!

kembali

Terkejut rase pagi pagi tadi masuk aje opis dengar encik pembantu am kat sekolah tengah borak borak dengan cikgu nih cakap suami kepada akak F tengah nazak.

Biar betik (dalam hati).

Suami akak F nih la yang tolong saye dulu belikan Si Hensem (my car) sebab dia kerja Perodua. Baik suami dia nih, macam akak F jugak, baik.

Anak anak derang ramai, ade empat orang. Kecik kecik lagik semuanya.

Kak F pun muda, baru aje 31. Suami dia 32. Derang kawin awal, anak anak tengah membesar jadik mereka berdua memang gigih la carik rezeki untuk mase depan anak anak kan.

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Keluar dari kelas 1 Melati, kak Wawa bagitau yang suami akak F dah pun meninggal.. Innalillah..

Allah tu maha kuasa. Dia yang izinkan kita untuk bernafas, Dia yang beri kita rezeki, Dia yang benarkan sesuatu itu untuk terjadi. Dan bila dah sampai masanya Dia hendak kita kembali kepada Dia, nyawa kita akan ditarik..and it's often without a warning.

Tadi sempatlah pergi ziarah lepas meeting akhir tahun yang menyesakkan nafas. Kagum jugak tengok akak F sebab dia nampak strong. Tak senang nak besarkan anak anak tanpa support system yang kukuh. Support system nih bukan dari segi material saje, tapi juga dari segi spiritual. Our spouses is called our other half because of a very valid reason. They ARE our other half. The one that makes us complete and whole. Bila ada masalah, kita share. 2 orang bergabung dalam satu team, 2 keluarga bertemu jadik satu.

I can't imagine the feeling of waking up without that important person next to us, knowing that he/she won't be around for the rest of time... sedihnya.

My mom became a single mother when she was 33 and had to take care the two of us when my dad passed on. Now that I'm all grown up, I appreciate her more, knowing that it must have been hard. Bila dah besar, kepala otak nih makin matang, we see more than what is laid in front of us.

Harap harap Kakak F dapat membesarkan anak anak dia dengan baik dengan rahmat dan rezeki yang melimpah ruah dari Allah SWT. Semoga Allah sentiasa permudahkan urusan mereka dan semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatNya terhadap roh arwah. Amin.

examiners - at work.

oh waw, try waking up at 445a.m, drive 2hrs straight early in the morning and go straight to a meeting where you be the youngest and inexperienced. Mark essays after a short morning break and try categorizing them accordingly after reading them as a whole whilst praying that you don't stray too far from others. Heho.

These were what I did earlier today and I am so knackered :-D

Although I must say that I am eager and pretty excited to be one of the markers for English PMR this year and gain as much experience as I could while learning from others who are far more experienced than yours truly.

Let's hope that I would be able to do my work and reward marks accordingly supaya tidak menganiayai mana mana pihak though. Hee.

LOST

I have a course on writing from today until the 7th of October. I was rather reluctant to go, realising that I WOULD get lost on my way to this place. Bahagian Teknologi Pendidikan Negeri Johor, Skudai.

Though my grandmother's house is in JB, I hardly navigate my way around JB on my own. It has always been straight from Melaka to Taman Pelangi JB. Go straight, don't belok belok. And when I'm at my grandma's house, I would stay quietly in her place, helping out whatever I could until it's time to go back home. Hence the limited knowledge of routes in JB.

So, naturally, I freaked out upon knowing I have a course to attend in Skudai.

Going there alone seems like a disaster.

The two other teachers from Batu Pahat are males and I would rather not hitching a ride with neither of them.

But God has His own way to help people. One of the male teachers could not go and he was replaced with a female teacher whom I once met during a course in Batu Pahat. We got hold of each other's number and my worry dissipated when she agreed to go there with me. I don't mind driving long distance but I need a company when I'm going somewhere alien-ish.

I got hold of a map.

Yet, we got lost on our way to this place.

I solemnly swear, we followed the map EXACTLY, but couldn't find Skudai Parade anywhere in our sight right after the Skudai Exit.

We probably were too engaged in our conversation. Ngeh ngeh :-P

But thanks heaps to that adik in Petronas Petrol Station, we were able to find Skudai Parade.

Not lost anymore. And there's no way I'm driving around here all the while we are here. The next drive would be going back home on Thursday!

and oh, best of luck to those sitting for PMR. You kids are all in my prayer. Teacher pun nebes gak!

and the fear kicks in

Our wedding was actually scheduled to be in December but we decided to have it in September due to one main reason :

The online application for transfer would be opened only twice a year, that is, in April and yes, in September.

We wanted to have a sijil nikah in order for me to apply for my transfer. At least I could tick off the box mengikut suami in the section where I have to state my reason for the application of transfer.

I have always have this fear that this application would be rejected. I have even contemplating in quitting my job. I wanted to be beside my husband. Reason being, he is sick.

That is why I wanted to move so badly.

My husband is diabetic. He has been diagnosed with Diabetes Type 1 since he was 12. That was fourteen years ago. That is what most of our friends know about.

What we have been keeping to ourselves is that, sadly, his condition has been deteriorating.

It has started to affect his eyes. Earlier this year, he kept on complaining about his blurry vision and how uncomfortable he felt. I urged him to see a doctor and we got a recommendation of a good one. And so we went.

It was one of the saddest day in my life when I heard about the possibilities. If you haven't heard about diabetic retinopathy, google it up if you have the time and curiosity. There were blood clots in his eyes and they were swollen. It could eventually lead to blindness.

It could be stopped from getting worse (i.e - stop the bleeding and swelling) but the treatment is really expensive. He needed a laser treatment and also injection into the eye balls.

But God is Almighty, that was settled. He was able to go through the treatment. However, it could come back anytime. He has been undergoing the treatment for several times now and he is scheduled for another one really soon. InshaAllah. He need to watch his diet, control his glucose as well as his blood pressure.

Which brings us to another scare.

He now has hypertension. He is on medication for hypertension and the food choices that he has now is even more limited. Eating out has to be avoided because stalls often use MSG which is bad for his blood pressure. He often comes back late from work and would find himself too lethargic to prepare his own meal upon reaching home. So eating out seems to be the only option.

There is also another scare.

His kidney is now slightly affected. Sometimes, his feetwould swell and this would make him uncomfortable. So he would have to watch his diet even more. However, eating out a healthy meal in Malaysia is almost impossible. And there is not a lot of option for someone who has diabetes, hypertension as well as a slightly affected kidney. His urine is high in uric acid and a few more things. Even eating some vegetables is not good for him for they might be high in certain things that could force his kidney to work more (which is not good). We are aiming in not letting his kidney to work more than it should be.

I guess now you would understand how badly I want this transfer and why.

It's not because I'm such a dependent person I can't live without my husband, no, it's more than that. I don't mind going to see a mechanic on my own when my car is not in a good shape. I don't mind paying the bills and going here and there. I don't mind travelling and driving my reliable car, Si Hensem, on my own.

The only thing that matters to me is my husband's health and that I want to be able to help him manage his condition, not to make it worse. I want him to live long and healthy. I want to do EVERYTHING that it could take to help him feel better. Whatever it takes. From waking up early in the morning to prepare his breakfast and lunch to massaging his feet before he goes to sleep so that he would feel at ease.

Hmmmph.

I have attached his surat sakit along with my transfer application. My principal who is known as someone who would question his teachers' reason in applying for a transfer so much that it could drive someone to cancel the application, did not question me a word about my transfer. He quickly endorsed it.

I need all of your doa, in praying for us that I could be transferred near him as soon as possible, as well as praying for his health.

The result will come out in November and we had planned to go to Putrajaya should the application be rejected and yeah, practically beg for the transfer.

I have faith in qada' and qadar. There is no harm in trying and so we try. Allah is merciful and HE knows everything, so, in Him we trust.

InshaAllah.

jom play a little mind game!

Hari ni ade kursus untuk English teachers yang ajar kelas kelas form 3. PMR is coming but there are tons of students yang fail, almost fail, dan sipi sipi nak lulus. Biasalah, students nih banyak jenis. There are gifted ones, average ones and those who do not perform well (academically). Tak ape, jangan bias, sebab saya selalu berbisik pade diri sendiri kalau semua orang pandai tak bermaknalah dunia ini kan.

Seperti biasa, time kursus mesti ramai muka stoned -_-
sebab mengantuk.
Cuaca memang mengancam kesegaran mata.
Hujan penuh syahdu dari pagi tadi.
Bilik kursus ada air cond sepoi sepoi bahasa.
(Just typing these sentences above made me feel sleepy).

Penceramah yang baik mestilah boleh detect kalau audience dia dah mengelamun ataupun berpikir dalam hati "tido kat rumah pun sodap".

Dan bila dia dah detect, selalunya dia akan bagi mind games untuk menyegarkan minda.

Jadi untuk memotong cerita ini pendek (to cut the long story short), here's the mind game that I want to share with you. I would not spoil the fun by telling what I got.

Tapi before buat menatang nih, you gotta promise me, no cheating okeh! Jangan peep kat the next step tau! Jangan tipu, tuhan marah.

Are you ready?



1. Think of a number from 1 to 10.




2. Multiply that number by 9.




3. If the number is a 2-digit number, add the digits together (kalau 27, add la 2 + 7 = 9).




4. Now subtract 5.




5. Determine which letter in the alphabet corresponds to the number you ended up with (example: 1=a, 2=b, 3=c,etc.).




6. Think of a country that starts with that letter.




7. Remember the last letter of the name of that country.




8. Think of the name of an animal that starts with that letter.




9. Remember the last letter in the name of that animal.




10. Think of the name of a fruit that starts with that letter.
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*garu garu*

*debar debar dan nerves*

*batuk batuk*

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Did you,
by any chance,
thought of Denmark, Kangaroo and Orange?

If you did, you are one of the 98% population who will give the above answers in doing this mind game. If you did not, well, you are one of the 2% of the abnormal/different/special ones (sila pilih mana satu title yang anda berkenan :-D).

Waktu encik penceramah buat menatang game ini, EVERYBODY gave those three answers except yours truly! Dengan muka tidak normalnya I put my right hand up apabila beliau tanya siapa yang jawab differently.

I thought of Denmark. Koala. Avocado.

macam comel aje kalau seekor Koala mengunyah sebijik Avocado di Denmark.