Bye bye alas kaki depan bilik.

Minggu nih walopun officially cuti sekolah masih belum habis, tp kebanyakan sekolah kat M'sia dah start bermeeting utk next year. Termasuklah sekolah aku. Hati menyumpah2 (saye bukan lah baik sgt pasrah aje pegi meeting lepas cuti syiok heheh) tapi skit aje sbb jauh di sudut hati hey it's not that bad. I got to take my mom, my bro and our house cat to Batu Pahat so that explains the quite unusual chipper mood than usual :-p

Hi, name saya Cici. To all female cats out there, call me *kenyit mata*

The decision to take our house cat along was because we did not have the heart to leave him all alone (although he could take good care of himself because he's street smart cehwah) as that would make him an easy prey for the other bigger cats to bully him. It's mating season now and there's bound to be more cat fights (yg real, bukan cat fight pempuan2 gadoh punya ha btw kenape panggil cat fight??). Walopun kucing kami nih suka perasan macho tetapi beliau adalah kucing yg agak lembik dan hanye tunjuk2 kuat apabila tuan dia ada dekat2 dgn dia. Contoh : mak aku dgr sore kucing bergaduh kat lua, dgn tangkas dia bgn nak menyelamatkan kucing kami (name dia Cici) dan as soon as Cici nampak mama ade kat dgn dia, trus die kuarkan sore mengajak bergaduh dgn begitu kuat sekali. Dan kucing lagik sekor tuh pun bingkas menyelamatkan diri takut kene baling selipar dengan mak aku.

2 jam dalam kete kejap2 die ngeow, kejap2 die tdo.

Bila dah smpai, muke sgt nampak seperti baru smpai di suatu tempat yg begitu alien. Cici yang selalunya sombong bila di rumah (jgn harapla nk balas panggilan kalo dia dah syok berada kat lua umah) tetibe menjadik sangat manja! Hoh mesti sebab die rase mcm berada di tempat yang baru..tadek sesape yg die kenal kecuali tuan die aje, diri terase terumbang ambing, maka pandailah pulak die nk survive dgn berextra manja. Cici rupanya bakat dlm bidang lakonan. Mungkin lepas nih boleh berlakon iklan Whiskas.

Hari pertama dia membuang najis dgn kuantiti yg sedikit kat luar rumah (kami kepong sbb takut dia lari ke mane2 hahaha). Dlm hati berharap dia akan pandai membuang kat dlm toilet dgn sndirinya just like our previous cat.

Hari kedua we went out jalan2 and left Cici at home. He was sleeping, dalam bakul baju yg aku dah lipat. Hati tak smpai nak marah budak kucing nih sbb kami tau dia tengah depress berada kat tempat yg unfamiliar. Maka jadikla bakul baju tuh tempat tido unofficial dia. Time jalan2 hati tak senang terkenang kan si kucing yang dah kene tinggal. Ape la jadik dgn budak tuh agaknye.

Kami balik lewat malam (8-ish) and we found Cici fast asleep in the basket. Semua berkata "ala baiknya Ciciiiiii".

9-ish and we lepak-ed kat hall umah sewa aku. Adik aku smelt something vulgar.

"Cici berak ke. Masam ah"

"Ye ke. Mane weh"

Masing2 carik potential spot. Mungkin kah di bilik lagik satu? Bilik tuh mmg x digunakan kecuali sebagai tempat letak kotak kosong.

Kami buat spot check dgn mata. Clean.

My eyes saw something rather fishy.

"Eh sape alihkan alas kaki depan bilik nih."

Mama geleng. Adik aku pun geleng.

Alas kaki terlipat kat dalam bilik tuh, betul2 sebelah pintu. Mama on lampu bilik. Clean. Mama dgn cekal tried to unfold the rug. Hati kami berdebar2. Bismillah...

Maka tau lah kami di mana Cici telah berqadha' hajat.

Tapi tadek sape pun marah Cici. Masing2 kesian kat dia sambil gelak2 walopun time bersihkan najis menyumpah2 gak dlm hati. Bayangkan, dah la sorang2 kene tinggal kat umah, nak gi berak kat luar tak buleh, nak berak dlm toilet tak reti, perut dah tak tahan make terburan la kat situ. Pas tuh amek alas kaki depan bilik sorokkan taik tuh dgn harapan tadek sape nampak ape dah berlaku. HAH HAH HAH.

Ko nih kuang ajo ke terlebih ajo eh Cici :-D

BTW nasib si alas kaki warna merah depan bilik tuh dah ditamatkan servisnya. Skg kat tempat pelupusan sampah dah. Kene beli alas kaki baru nih. Tapi tau tak, alas kaki mahal tau! Bukannye singgit dua. Ceht.

Guessing Game

Look at the picture below and tell me how many persons do you think were enjoying these meals?

4?
3?
2?
1?

Yes, two!

If u guessed 3, you were pretty close. I you guessed 2, hey congrats to you, you ought to treat yourself to a plate of Nasik Lemak. If you guessed 1, what, do you have some kind of beef with me? (buruk lantak sgt ke muke aku ni -smbil berkata2 di dalam hati)


I can't run being an airhead can I? I chose OVERWRITE instead of MERGE in an attempt to save up my contacts in my hp and ended up losing more than I saved. HAH HAH HAH HANgguk.

Potong stim

Apakah itu potong stim?

Bunyik mcm lucah but in this context it's not even close to softcore porn.

Potong stim itu adalah bila kami tgh asyik menonton 8 tibi, saat climax cerita Lord Of The Rings : The Return Of The Kings, dan tiba2 cita tuh berenti kejap utk memberi laluan kepada 8tb quickie.

Hmpft.

Sapa nak tengok 3 beruk yang masing2 gila nak bercakap macam tak ada hari esok. We want to continue watching LOTR dammit. It is THE movie. Dah berapa taun since we last watched it and watching it on Christmas Eve is a splendid thing to do. It beats getting wasted celebrating a celebration that you don't even have a single clue about yet you say out loud "Merry Christmassss" on top of your lungs when the clock strikes 12 with a bottle of Bacardi. Ye, saya menyindir khas utk Muslim yang x berape nk muslim. HO HO HO.

Why the negativity and full of rage?

Sebab 8tb quickie tuh la da potong stim saya tgk LOTR.

Go Aragorn go, kamulah makhluk tuhan plg shexi. Dulu siap berangan kawen dgn Aragorn lagik tuh!

Bila hormon itu kicks in

You've never stalked anybody before on Facebook? Tipu lah.

I do that every once in a while.
OK lah, I do that at least a few times each week. Sheesh.

I sometimes stalk people that I don't even know. S/He could be a friend of a friend and my stalking are based on pure attraction on the profile picture. Or when they leave a comment on a friend's page. It is a compliment if I stalk you. It means you're attractive. Or interesting. Or probably just downright annoying that I would love to dig any bad things about you to bring you down someday muahahaha (- x pernah terjadi lagik but never says never hoh >:-P)

I just stalked somebody on Facebook. She's now studying at a place that I graduated from.

Saw her being tagged in one of my friend's photo and hati ini berdetik2 berkata, alamak comel nya perempuan nih. I adore her style and sudahla comel, memang gabungan yang mengasyikkan.

Kenapalah time aku study dulu die takde eh. Kalo tak mungkin kami boleh jadik BFF and akan byk lah gambar2 die dlm simpanan aku that could bring a smile to my face. Kalo tak BFF pun mungkin dapat aku jadik peminat rahsie dia dan muka blush blush bila nampak dia dekat perkarangan university. HAH HAH HAH.

Tengok tuh, hormon lesbianism sudah mula kicks in.

I'm sure that lesbianism has got nothing to do with hormones but I'd continue blaming it on the hormones still. Finger pointing is crucial in making one feel less guilty.

Kenapa kerete abah calar nih?
Oh tadi ade batu dekat lori tercampak kene kereta. (Padahal bawak laju and was tailing that lorry super close, mmg lah impak calar tuh superb)

Mee goreng nih tak bape syiok lah.
Oh tuh aku goreng guna mee melayu sebab tuh rasa die pahit skit tuh. (dah tau pahit kenapa guna jugak?)

Kenape awak tak bawak buku?
Kat jadual tulis hari nih bawak buku grammar la teacher (sape yg tulis dlm jadual tuh, awak kan, saye cepuk, nak?)

*Dialog di atas imaginasi semata mata*

Sebab tuh la I want to put the blame on the hormone. Besh rase bile dpt blame bende lain. Jom makan eksrim? Bila gemuk buleh salahkan eskrim sape suh duduk dlm peti ais sambil menggoda aku suruh makan dia.


Ade tak WWE utk kucing? Nak masukkan 2 ekor kucing jantan kat belakang umah nih yg dok mengieow dari tadi nak bergaduh.

Boleh tahan hodoh gak bunyiknye.

Bila mase sengal dah smpai, ade lah beberape bende boleh tahan bodoh that I like to do. I'm sure most of you have done this at least once. Literally translating English songs to Malay songs. Boleh tahan hodoh bunyiknye. Memang tak boleh blah.

Mehla kita translate some verses of a few hit English songs. Oh ye, please nyanyi dgn nada yg tepat, saje jek translated sume lagu yg hit skg nih supaye ramai org tahu rentak lagu2 nih cemane.

Miley Cyrus - Party In The USA

English version :

So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yeah
Moving my hips like yeah,

And I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know I'm gonna be ok
Yeah, It's a party in the USA
Yeah, It's a party in the USA

Melayunized version:

Jadi aku angkat tangan
Derang main lagu aku,
Rama rama pun terbang
Aku angguk kepale mcm yeah
Aku goyang punggung mcm yeah

Dan aku angkat tangan
Derang main lagu aku,
Aku tau aku akan OK
Yeah, ianya pesta di USA
Yeah, ianya pesta di USA.

komen : doable. boleh la diterima kalo betul2 lagu nih in BM pun. Bagikla si Stacy atau Mila ke nyanyi. Kriteria penyanyi - muka kene pramatang.

Sweet Dreams by Beyonce.

English version:

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

Melayunized version:

Ko boleh jadik mimpi manis atau mimpi buruk yg cantik
Apepun aku tak nak bangun dari ko
(Sila bukak lampu)

Mimpi manis atau mimpi buruk yg cantik
Tolong cubit aku, cinta ko sgt bagus utk jadik kenyataan
(Sila bukak lampu)

komen : Tergeliat lidah boleh tercekik penyanyi nak nyanyi lagu nih kalo dlm BM. Dayang Nurfaizah yg suke perasan Beyonce Malaysia pun buleh give up.

Down by Jay Sean

English version:

Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnnnn, downnnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Downnnnn, downnnnn
Ooohhh (ohhh)

Melayunized version:

Bayi ko bawah bawah bawah bawah bawah,
Bawahhhhhh, bawahhhhhhhh,
Walopun langit akan jatuh,
Bawahhhhh, bawahhhhhh
Ooohhh (ohhh)

komen : Konpem tak buleh jual. Bawah? Bawah nenek ko.

Tik Tok by Keisha

English version:

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy
(Hey, what up girl?)
Grab my glasses, I'm out the door, I'm gonna hit this city
(Lets go)
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
'Cause when I leave for the night, I ain't coming back

Melayunized version:

Bangun pagi rase macam P Diddy
(Hey, ape di atas, gadis?)
Amek spek mata, keluar pintu, aku nk pukul bandar ini
(jom)
Sebelum tuh, gosok gigi dengan sebotol *beep* -(arak haram sebut tuh kene censor oleh radio)
Sebab bile aku blah aku dah tak akan balik lagi.

komen : Jangan harap la nk kuar kat radio local kalo lagu nih dlm BM. Lagu Indon kalo ade unsur2 budaya tak elok tak ape, tapi kalo lagu Melayu heisshh jgn, mane buleh, haram u. Siap kene kutuk dgn wartawan lagik dlm ruang gosip cemni -"Kak Salmah dgr lagu baru Tik Tok nyanyian Shilas tuh penuh dengan unsur2 unkemelayuan, boleh merosakkan akidah anak anak Melayu".

Banyak lagik translation bangang yg boleh dibuat tp cukup2 la pada malam buta ini. Ye, begini lah caranya utk melempiaskan kegusaran di hati sebab sekolah dah nak start, sgt anxious nk tgk sape lah students aku nanti dan bagaimanekah kesabaran aku akan teruji utk berhadapan dgn pelbagai spesies manusia baru akil baligh for the whole next year.

Rotan belum beli lagik.

A day in a life of a feline

Wednesday, 23rd December 2009.

Well, where shall I begin.

I did not come home for the entire day and a half yesterday. It's mating season so I was busy searching for potential candidates. Found one, but she seemed uninterested. Or she could probably just playing it cool and wanted me to try harder. Huh, girls.

Mama was upset for my absence. But it's not fair to put all the blame on me. I DID came home yesterday, for a friction of time but there was nobody home. They must have went shopping and as usual, would go back only later in the evening. When the mall has closed. Huh, human. So off I went to chase girls.

I almost hit it off with this girl but I heard mama called out loud "Cici, cici baby mama meh balik mehhh". Shucks. How embarrassing! Mission failed :-(

I decided to be on a hunger strike as a protest for Mama to call me baby earlier.

And that strike lasted for a couple of hours. Could not bear the hunger and I could smell boiled fish from afar. To my disappointment, I was served with only a plate of friskies. Hmph.

Along a.k.a the wicked sis woke up and pinched my cheek. I don't even have any to begin with.

Syafiq a.k.a the moody bro knocked me on my head for wanting to attack his feet. I swear to God, I thought I'm over the feet attacking stage but apparently I have not. Blanket covered toes that wiggle just look sooooo inviting.

Decided to laze around outside at the balcony. I'm still on my mating mode and was waiting patiently for this girl. God I'm so patient these days I ought to reward myself with more food.

Could hear Along eating keropok ikan and that is one of my weakness. Went inside and did the pity face. She gave me some. Heh heh. Sucker. ;-p

But I could not go outside again because she was blocking the way. Told ya she's wicked -_- She grabbed me and danced around with me. She just watched So You Think You Can Dance on telly and was imagining me being her partner. Gah. She lifted me up, twirled me round and round and squeezed me way too tight. Honestly, this girl just gets me on my nerve every so often.

Rushed outside as soon as I could. Nanananana! I wanted to stick my tongue out but that would look too weird.

Continued to laze around at the balcony, taking my fake nap just outside the door. Along must be itching badly to disturb me but suprisingly, she did not.

Gosh it's so hot today I wish I'm in Alaska or something. With hot, thick fur female cats all wanting to be close to me to heat up their cold bodies. I'd probably have many girlfriends what with this handsome stripes of mine they must be dying to be with me. And I'll show them how macho I am and how ..... zzzzzz

.... And I doze off.


Cici kucing yg gila minyak cap kapak. Pelik punya budak.

This is Love

This is a very beautiful song by Rain in his Rainism album. This is an androgynous song which you can give to your gf if u're a boy and to your bf if you're a girl. The korean title of this song is Sarangiraneun Geon.



Here's the lyric (English translation). Now, tell me it isn't sweet ;-)

To me, love is
Giving and receiving everything,
Having the same thoughts
As you fall deeper, you turn into a fool
You can’t help but look to one place
You become more childish

When my hand is holding yours,
It feels as if I’ve got everything in the world. Yes~
I want nothing else

(Chrous)
I’m going to touch you
I’m going to treasure you
I’m going to be behind you,
By your side, protecting you forever
You need love
I want to see you in the mornings

yea yea yea oh~ Look into my eyes
Look at me~ My babe
We say that we will spend the rest of our lives together
Press your lips against mine
Please say I do
This is the beginning,
With the trembling voice I can not believe

When my hand is holding yours,
It feels as if I’ve got everything in the world Yes~
I want nothing else

–(Chorus)–

Everyday, every night,
I’m going to spend it with you
Everywhere, every time,
I will take you to the places you want to go
If you want
I will make a pledge of my love Baby~

–(Chorus)–

Yes. How do you feel, baby?

I'm thinking that this song would really suit a wedding but I'm not sure if there's anybody out there who'd be willing to take a risk of playing foreign songs on their wedding reception and receive weird glances from the elderly all day long but heck, it's your wedding so do what your heart desire.


Two weeks down the road before I face the kids again. Sapakah yg bakal menjadik students sy next year? jeng jeng jeng. *berdebar*

It's gonna be one year since Cica left us.

On your left is Cica while on your right is Cici.

It's gonna be January of 2010 soon and when that time comes, it'll be one year since my house pet Cica left my family. And it also will be one year since we embrace Cici as our own and smothered him with unconditional love.

I did a post about Cica before, as soon as I got the news about his departure :-(. Each time I read that post, the emotion would be evoked successfully and it never failed to make me teary-eyed.

You can read it about it here : CICA

Cici, it has been a year since you became a part of the family. Please continue to behave well and don't stray too much, will you? I'm gonna keep on poking you with toys each time I see you sleeping soundly with poses only God knows where you got the inspiration from but I promise I'll feed you more often so I guess we're good then. And no, the curtains are not places where you urinate.

aging

I've never done picture based post before so in the spirit of saying farewell to 2009, I'm gonna leave you guys with a picture heavy post of me heh heh heh :-D It was quite interesting though, as in the process of choosing the pics, I could see how my look changes with my hairstyle.

This was about a year ago.

This was when the twilight sensation hits (hence the all black apparel heheh emo lak kan konon ;p). It was also after the 1st time I did rebonding on my hair.

The second time I did rebonding, with a slightly different hairstyle. I opted for a fringe.

As my fringe grew longer, I combed them to one side.

I did my 3rd rebonding and cut my hair a bit, with a bang covering my wide forehead but something was off and I couldn't quite put my finger on it.

And so I cut my hair short, hoping that it will grow long, as fast as it could.

Try and look back at all the pics you have taken for this year. You'll be mesmerized too on how different you look like within a year :-)

a week left to non school things

I am blessed to be a teacher with a month (and a little bit more) holidays. Unlike last year, this year I get to really enjoy my holiday without the needs to go back and forth to Batu Pahat to invigilate for SPM.

The holiday officially ends 3rd Jan but due to a couple of meetings that would be held in school pertaining next year's activities and whatnot, there is about a week left to non school things.

I'm planning to spend this one week with my childhood besties and also with my family. Hopefully things will turn out well and none of us would be caught entangled in a tight schedule that hinders my plan for our get together.

I have spent the rest of the holiday doing some things that I'm really glad I was able to do :-) It's not traveling, I haven't travel much really this year but what I get to do this time surpasses the satisfaction that I get from anything else.

And as the holiday is coming to its end so is the year 2009.

I can't believe we'll be entering 2010 in two weeks time. Here's hoping that next year would go by smoothly and bring loads of happiness to everyone. To those who are furthering their studies, I wish you good luck and hope all you lot would be able to kick some major ass and get plenty of A's. To those who are getting married, hopefully things will go well as planned and I wish you a lifetime of happiness with your partner. To my teaching comrades, hopefully the students next year won't bring much hassle to class and hopefully there will be new teachers to take over our non-teaching works! ;-p


Ooh chipmunks 2 is coming out this 24th December. I can hardly wait!!

Never knew I needed

I've mentioned that I watched the movie "The Princess and The Frog" two posts back and now I'm not suggesting for you to go and watch the movie (I didn't really enjoy it much to be honest) but to listen to the song that is played during the end credit of this movie instead.

I've listened to this song for a couple of times on the radio and fell in love with it instantly. I wikipedia-ed it but could not find any info about this song. I knew that it's Ne-yo's but that's that.

So imagine my glee when I heard it when the end credits roll at the end of the movie. It fits perfectly and makes you leave the cinema with a big grin on your face. It just makes you feel good inside :-)




here's the lyric :

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you're the best thing i Never Knew I Needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)
the way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here always

who'd knew that I'd be here (who'd knew that I'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniably happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)
girl you're the..

you're the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

Oh I feel so warm and fuzzy inside now.

another catch up session

Year end holidays are great, not only for the ability to laze around and do nothing yet still get paid for it *wicked grin*, it's also because this is the time where I could meet up with dear friends who are now working all over M'sia, from Semenanjung to Sabah.

Last Saturday was my B.I.M.B up session. A catchphrase that I coined myself ;-p

I haven't met most of them for a year yet the long hiatus from each others' visual didn't seem to matter at all. I felt 23 again (when I was a final year student), literally bouncing up and down, appearing to be on constant sugar rush.

We had our long overdue karaoke session and there were some recording being made and I'm hoping it won't be uploaded to facebook because then you'll see how crazy I can get *shivers* but even if the videos make it (yes there's MORE than 1 video), I don't really mind actually because that would be a reminder of how much fun I had on that day!

My camera is unfortunately ancient (it has served me for 5 years without much glitches) so I relied on the other cooler and edgier fancy shmancy cameras and allowed mine to have a rest in my gigantic handbag. I'm still waiting for those pics from them. Anxiously waiting for them to upload it to facebook (I'm so ready to untag me in any unflattering pics! haha ^-^).

After torturing our vocal cords and also each others' eardrums, we had a fruitful gossip session at Old Town. I almost would have an entire year supply of gossip if not for the limited time that we had :-( We exchanged gifts before the rendezvous officially ends and I love mine so much! The boys were so nice to give each us ladies a bracelet all the way from Sabah. Me love me blings eventhough I can't quite figure out the compass that is attached to the bracelet just as yet :-p

I miss all you B.I.M.Bs already! Remember boys and girls, don't show our bimb-ness to the school world. As Elyas had put it, "cover up itu penting ya".


Gosh I miss my TESOL year. All 5 years and a half of it :-)

girlfriends

Saya ade ramai girlfriends. Orientasi seks sy masih lurus, x pernah lagi bengkok. Tapi saye ade girlfriends. Kawan perempuan. Mereka perempuan yang sgt menyenangkan saye. Hati gembira berdenyut2 bila tau saat nk berjumpa dgn 3 org bekas teman sebilik yg sy rindu super tahap gaban nih. Ade sorang tuh dekat setaun tak jupe. Last jupe time die kawen bulan 12 taun lepas. It's a shame though we couldn't have a proper rendezvous with all four of us roomies due to difficult circumstance but fret not, there'll be next time and I'm having my fingers and toes cross that on that next time, all four of us shall be able to meet, makan besar sambil menambahkan size ukur lilit pinggang dan berkongsi gosip2 hangat ;-)

we had our lunch @ chili's.

makanan yg di order nasib baik bes, dan berjaye mengetatkan seluar jeans masing2. suksess.

We chatted like there's no tomorrow. It was awesome to catch up with this married young lady! Nak tanya soklan malam pertama pun buleh kalo nak. Kalo nak, lah... :-p Sbelum makan2 nih mula kami tgk movie dulu, cite The Princess and The Frog. Ramai gila budak kecik yg di bawak parents (kaum ibu la yg byk) memasing. It reminded me why I don't like to catch cartoon in the cinema. Budak2 bising! hahahhaa. Mak2 plak asek terangkan kat anak masing2 ape yg terjadi kt movie tuh.

Budak : "Mak, mak tuh nape tuh mak"

Mak Budak : "Org jahat tuh tukarkan die jadik frog"

dD : (sabar dD, sabar, u're looking at you in 10 years!) - whispering smbl pujuk hati.

On the next day, Lin could not join us so she missed out meeting Azraq. Xape, ade rezki i'Allah korang buleh jupe plak ye. Iliey took us to Sunway Pyramid. I was there merely to company them shopping. Pat on my back for behaving so good and did not do too much damage on my already thinning purse. Tahniah.

what would a rendezvous be without pigging out. So pigging out we did! :-D

We had our lunch here. We love everything Korean hence the decision :-p.

Dari zaman jadik roomies, smpai la da agak dewasa tp belum tua, kami suka everything Korean. Azraq and Iliey had been there last year, I couldn't join as I had spent thousands on somewhere else but I promised myself that I'll follow suit. Someday. (Cepat2la murah rezeki buleh pegi Korea. Amiiiin).

I had super loaded fun meeting these girls. I have been missing them badly so it was nice to finally able to meet up and know what's up in each other's life. I wish I could do this often and meeting more people that I have not met for years, but life's a bee eversince everyone started working all around M'sia :-(

However little I may contact you, rest assure that you're always on my mind though because each friend matters to me. A LOT. :-)




Teringin nak naik kereta transformers Azraq ;-)

it's raining rain

I used to have a maaaajor crush on rain a.k.a jun ji hoong a.k.a rain/bi the korean sensation. I got to know about him after I watched a clip on Youtube of this kid singing Rain's song "away from the sun" complete with choreography and perfect lighting. It was out of this world. Naturally, I searched for the original singer and that was when I got to know about Rain. I later watched him on Full House and my major crush developed there. It reached its perks when he came out with the Japanese single "Sad Tango". It was sexy as hell.

Tell me who could resist this.

I gawked when I watched his MVs. Superb routine and the songs are nice too. *cough* His good look helps too *cough*. I must've looked stupid gawking and drooling. But it was years ago and I sort of have passed that.

Up until the movie ninja assassin came out.



I have been telling the bf that I want to watch this movie. He wanted to watch too but the plan had to be postponed for a bit. A night before we finally managed to catch this movie, I had a dream about Rain.

In that dream, the bf was in it too. He went to work and Rain came swaying in to the bf's room and we smooched for a bit. I immediately understood that I was having an affair with him. It was not a surprise that I was feeling shameful and guilty although I got to touch his lean hard body. I mean, come on. It's Rain! And he was looking mighty fine, just like in the ninja assassin's trailer. And to top it off, he was topless. But all that could not make my guilt fades. Even in my dream, I love my bf too much to be having an affair.

After all that smooching, I went back to my home, feeling guilty and all. And I was naked while walking back. (It's a dream, I guess dreams are meant to be weird). I could not get into my house because it was locked and there's nobody inside. I was naked and there wasn't much that I could do. Who would draw attention to their naked self?. The next thing I know, I was in a store room and there were both Rain and the bf. I told myself that the affair has to come to an end. I pulled my bf towards me and I kissed him in front of Rain. It was apparent that I chose my bf over Rain. I was awake to my bf's txt and I came clean about the dream. Nak tau ape die reply?

"Ahahahahaha. Dah. Dah. Jgn perasan :P"


My mom told me that I once said out loud "Jamal Abdillah" while I was asleep. I was about 4. Could he be my first celebrity crush? :-D

sexi dan sexa

Kalo cemgini la rupe video2 clip yg kuar kt tb, mmg la aku x langgan pakej MTV / Channel V kat astro tuh nnt bile da berumah dan bertangga. Kalo aku ade anak pempuan x pasal nnt umo 3 taun da pandai shake2 bontot pakai bikini. Anak laki plak umo 3 taun da pandai tepok2 bontot pempuan cantek.



kalo da cemtuh gaye anak aku, buat penat aje lah aku dok beranak pinak tp da besar x buleh nak sedekahkan yassin yg perfect yg Allah terima bile aku dlm kubur nnt.

that time of the month

It's THAT time of the month.

* perut sakit 2,3 days prior to it.
* emosi berubah2 seperti sekali air bah, sekali pantai berubah.
* emosi di paras sensitif, kalo buleh sukat, akan berada di zon merah.
* did I mention about me being emotional?
* kepale sakit berdenyut berdentum bergoncang.
* nafsu makan meminta untuk dibelai belai.
* bila dah smpai masa, ha, sakit jugak perut tu masih.
* nak gerak pun susah rase x selesa.
* selain dari sakit di ubun2 perut (perut mane ade ubun2, mengarut! -jgn pedulik, tgh sensitip nih), ade jugak perasaan sakit untuk buang air besar every now and then. rimas.
* nak mkn panadol, paracetamol, ponstan etc, tak buleh, sbb nnt ade effect dia. Dah penah cuba. Belajar dr pengalaman.
* ketika perlu gunakan tandas terutamanye tandas awam, akan amik mase yg lebih lama dr biasa. untuk menguruskan diri. haih.

The list goes on and on and it changes every now and then. What happened last month might not be recurring again on the next month and so forth. Ever heard the overused line "Life's a box of chocolate. You never know what you'll get"? It's exactly that.

Having a period can be a pain. So cut us some slack, will ya?


Yes, the line is from Forrest Gump. And yes, the line "Run Forrest, Run" also rushes to mind.

samba baby

I've posted two videos of great lyrical hip hop routine before and this time, I'm gonna leave you with a sexy samba by one of the couples. Joshua is the winner of SYTYCD season 4 while Katee is the longest female contesting for that season. Joshua is a great dancer but in this performance, my eyes are glued to Katee. She looks so graceful and yes, sexi too.



My kind of girl. uh huh.


I bet you were shaking your body too, imagining yourself one of the dancers, kannn. Jgn tipu. I did that too. Each time, man :-p

lyrical hip hop

I love dance, I love to dance, I love watching others dancing and I really miss dancing on the stage. I've started performing on the stage (as requested by my teachers) since I was in standard 1. Early education much, huh? :-p Well actually, I have been moving my body to the beat since way before that. I loved to dance in front of the telly, mimicking what the performers did, so did my mom told me. And that was when I was about 4.

Guess the teachers could see right through this attention crave monster that I was, hence the selection to be on the stage :-D

I was rather quiet throughout secondary school, it was such a drastic change.

However,

When I was in my tertiary education, it was back to the roots, y'all. I started performing again and it was by chance. Nonetheless, it was back to my good ol' time favourite and when others find satisfaction in grabbing a new pair of bank breaking shoes, I would fine mine in performing.

But since I've started working, there has been no chance for me to do what I love. It's OK though, I went for other alternative and that is to watch others on the telly, competing for the prize money whilst doing what they know best.

So it's just natural for me to love watching So You Think You Can Dance :-). Not an avid fan though, I don't watch much TV nowadays (of which once was deemed as impossible by the younger me. *gasp) but thanks to YouTube, it's all good.

Here's two of the best lyrical hip hop performance I have ever seen.






Which one do you heart more? Tough choice aren't they? I love it when people dance from head to toe and these dancers did just that. Awesome :-) and the choreography, utterly amazing.

p/s : I actually have bodily kinesthetic intelligence despite my awfulness in sports. Weird much?

tak dapat makan byk lagik, dpt tulis pasal makan byk pun jadikla

Due to the vow that both of us had made earlier this weekend, there shall not be makan besar anymore for the two of us. Kami akan...makan kecil? We want to get back in shape and keep our health in a tip top condition. My hunky hunk (who is hunkier than Jacob Black btw) has to constantly watch his sugar intake at all times due to his health condition but let's not go into that too much this time because I could get emotional talking about that. We had been pretty reckless lately about what we ate and it's time to put a halt to it. Sebab saya sayang dia, saya pun akan makan dengan ala kadar saje supaya die tak rasa tergoda dgn makanan saya.

Kami tak dapat makan banyak lagik (terutamanya makanan yang tidak sihat) tapi tulis pasal makan banyak takpe, kan?

Claypot Lo Shu Fun, Nasik Lemak Ayam Pandan, Air Pink Panther (the orange beverage) and air I Love You.

These are all available at Murni, Jalan SS2, Petaling Jaya. I must say, it is one of my favourite place to go for food hunting because of the varieties of food. From western to local, even the beverages are nice to look at as well as to gulp down. They come at affordable prices too. It'd be crazy for me not to love this place :-p Though they don't come with menu for you to look at, you won't be left clueless as to what to eat. Just take a look around you and point at what others are eating (that intrigues you) and they'll get it. The waiters would only take a mental note of what you ordered so if you're starving it might not be a good idea to play around. Be serious. Makan itu serious.


p.s - I will keep on loving you regardless of your size and your waistline. But if health is on the line, I'll be strict if that's what it takes. Jadi, jgn telan byk2 air nescafe susu mcm tadi lagik tau bila saya kata rasa skit aje, kan da kene suruh spit balik dlm cawan. haaa.

next year's pay day

There's only December left for this year and due to Christmas on the 25th, the pay day for government servants for December would be on 17th December 2009. Pay day is one of the most exciting day for me. Come on, who wouldn't be? :-)

And so I came across the schedule for next year's pay day and would like to share it with all of you kakitangan awam.


Uruskanlah wang anda dengan bijaksana.

Saya yang menurut perintah,
dD.

p.s - each year, my birthday falls on the pay day. Best birthday gift. ever ;-p

i wish u well :-)

I'm not really good with keeping in touch and I have to admit it. I know it's bad but old habits die hard and this is one of it. I place each and everyone of my closest friends in my heart and I always do think a lot about them and most of them are good thoughts, rest assure :-)

I have a very few close school friends. A few of them went through primary school to secondary school with me. They knew me since I was a snobbish young queen bee wannabe hehe.

And this one particular girl, she started working way early than the rest of us. I remembered one day when she treated us for lunch. All of us don't really see each other often so that day was really nice. I wanted so much to start working too. Super besh bila kawan sesame berhingus belanja makan dgn duit gaji dia sendrik. I was like, woah, gayat. Haha.

Her life journey is something that if it is to be written in a book, it would be really thick, with the plot rising up and down. Nonetheless of what had happened in the past (and I shall not elaborate bout it further here), her lucky stars always shine on her.

Bak kata orang, rezeki dia murah... :-)

And so, Alhamdulillah, she got a job in, Riyadh (if I was not mistaken). She told me about wanting the job when we met during Raya kot. And I got to know that she managed to grab it, on her blog. That is how pathetic I am at keeping in touch, I HAD to read blogs to know what my friends are up to! *sigh.

Sorry babe, I know I'm bad at being a good friend and you must have felt a wee bit disappointed when I didn't tell you that our former classmate and lepak-mate is now my boyfriend but I have my own reasons :-)

I don't know exactly when you'll be going away but I want you to know that I wish you well. Hope everything will go smoothly for you and I surely hope that we would meet again (hopefully, all four of us gals!) and take tonssss of pictures that you could look at when you're over there.

dia seorang nurse dan saye panggil die wedah

and that is why I can't drink nescafe susu.

Ada orang tak buleh minum teh, ada orang tak buleh minum susu, mereka bukan lah mengada2 (mostly, anyway..). They have their own reasons. And this is mine.

Aku dah tau dah tak sesuai minum nescafe susu nih tapi oleh sebab dah lama tak minum, aku pun lupa kenapa aku tak buleh minum.

Maka budak yang degil nih pun beli setin air nescafe susu (sejuk baru kuar dr peti punya mmg la syiok mnm tgh panas buta) kat petronas, on my way back to Melaka. It was around 1pm and it was mighty hot, I could melt in the car. One of the downside of driving in the afternoon is that you tend to get a little sleepy. So my clever self tell me to buy nescafe to fight off the sleepiness.

Minum sikit punya sedap smbil drive dgn dgr radio full blast. Siap pakai cermin mata hitam sbb kalo x nnt kepala denyut2 sakit bila silau (after effect). About 15 minutes after the last gulp, aku mcm dah tau dah kenapa aku x buleh minum nescafe susu.

Jalan AMJ from Muar to Melaka is quite secluded. Kiri kanan banyak pokok saja. After the petronas where I bought the nescafe, there is no petrol station in sight until about an hour later.

Perut aku memulas macam menari ikut rentak raggae. Dan bila berada pulak kat tempat mcm nih, smbil memandu kereta, apa nk buat ha?

Tak buleh nk wat apa lah jawabnya. Hanya mampu menyumpah diri sapa suh mnm nescafe susu time nk drive, lalu kt tempat cemnih. Bawak skit punya speed, muka mungkin campuran nak nanges + nak makan org yg drive slowly kt depan aku. Sikit2 cilok. Dulu slalu ckp kt orag yg rush bwk kete kat jalan "tuh dah tak tahan nak terberak lak tuh" sekali kene kat batang idung sendirik yek kali nih. Congrats.

The happiness that I felt when I spot the next petrol station was unforgettable. Kalo pernah lalui pengalaman cemni mesti faham betapa leganya bila hajat dpt disampaikan, kan? I spent almost an hour holding it in while driving. Taubat mmg tak mnum nescafe susu dah lepas nih!

supply for many months to come

My darling went to Korea last week because of his work and when asked what I wanted for him to bring home for me, I just mentioned, mask.

Facial mask sheet is something, that I think, would not be much of a hassle to look for and carry back home. It would fit nicely in his luggage. It's way cheaper over there too. I have other things that I wanted but being a guy I know it would be a tad tougher for him to look for those stuff so that's the reason for saying only 'mask'.

Back in my mind, when he texted me that he had bought me the mask that I asked him to, I was thinking more of like, 5 facial mask sheets. Or probably 10. So when he emailed me this pic, I was beyond shock.


Too cute. Hehe. I don't have to buy facial mask sheet for months to come! (I only use once every week, along with my clay facial mask and peel-off facial mask. If you're a guy u must be confused by now, huh. I think I lost u at clay facial mask :P)

And before he boarded the plane, these were added into the weight of his luggage.


All of them are way cheaper over there. If I was with him, I could imagine myself gone crazy in the shops and he'd be watching me with fearful eyes :D I've tried a couple of items. I'm a bit nostalgic so it was pretty tough to decide which item should be ruined first. If I could, I want to keep it for years to come but hey that's what blogs and pictures are for so I'm keeping it here in my blog, where it'll remain to be seen for centuries, maybe :)

And did I mention that I heart him? Mwahhx! Thank you so much!!! (tak sia2 selalu bawak dia masuk kedai etude house, etc..pandai dia pilih brg kecantikan...:P)

Glad you didn't go for a long time, the distance was unbearable!

I thought i was having a headache

I was sitting in front of my laptop. Gaya jepun (bersila - sebab dlm blk akutakde kerusi). Focusing on surfing the internet and stalking people on facebook, I suddenly felt the floor moving. Goyang depan dan belakang. Macam duduk atas krusi OSIM (bukan utk urut2 tuh, tp yg utk kuruskan badan, kerusi dia mcm naik kuda tuh) tp mild skit dari tuh la.

Aku nih nak pitam ke ape.

I looked up and I saw the lamp was swaying too.

Sah, mmg umah nih gegar nih. My blood ran cold in my veins. Jgnla rumah aku nih roboh. Nih rumah mmg da lame da, tp kalo roboh mane aku nk sewa umah. And most importantly, mane aku nk selamatkan harta2 aku in one go.

Selepas konpem that it was not my mind playing tricks on me, aku pun memakai persalinan baju yg sopan. Dengar kat luar rumah puan-puan surirumah dah keluar smbil mengendong anak masing2. Fuuh, nasib baik bukan aku sorang rase gegar tuh. Lega lah sikit rase bile x keseorangan menghadapi bende cemnih. My housemate was at her friend's house. Dah masuk 3 hari kot tak balik2, apehal la dgn engkau nih (ok stop umpatan di sini, post nih bukan utk mengumpat beliau). After changing into a more decent attire, I went downstairs (ha, rumah due tingkat, mmg la seriau kalo pikirkan roboh cemane kan, baiikk punya) and off I went outside the house. Semua kakak tuh pun rase gegaran tu, I talked to them for a couple of seconds and then I went back inside my house.

Handphone da ade dlm tgn maka sebagai seorang yg baru hadapi something yg agak traumatic, I called my boyfriend. Lepas dah cakap, ahhh lega sket perasaan. Lepas tu masuk bilik dgn kaki yg gementar. Semua pun ade dlm keadaan yg elok, and I called my mom.

Nihla pertama kali rase gegar cemgini. Dulu time belaja kt Auckland pun x penah rase cemni. Adoyai..

fancy some baba nyonya's ?

I've been to Jonker Walk for several times, to enjoy the environment and also the food. It is famous for its varieties of kuih tat and also baba nyonya's delicacies. I have this one particular kedai makan that I really adore. Their food are tasty and the best part is, they are inexpensive :) The tables are limited though so you might have to wait for a couple of minutes before you can have one. But I really do think it's worth the wait.

The name of this shop is 88 living museum. It is along the walk so if you keep your eyes wide open, you'll spot it right on. There's a bullock cart bank in front of the shop.

My recent visit was on 18th September for break fasting with my boyfriend. He's going to Muar while I'm going to JB on the next day for Hari Raya celebration so we decided to spend that Friday together.

We went there early in order to get a place. It was pretty challenging to see other people enjoying their food while you have to wait and just stare at your food until the azan ;p


We had mee rendang nyonya and nasi lemak baba nyonya (for two). The orange coloured gravy in the bowl is to be eaten with the nasi lemak. They are of coconut milk and they tasted really gooood. We also ordered the famous durian cendol. What I like most about this kedai is that they are not stingy when it comes to the quality of the food. The serving of gula melaka is very generous and so does the coconut milk and the durian paste. This kedai makes one of the wicked cendol in the world, I must say. I had an orange + apple + lemon juice for me, to help me fight the guilt for eating way too much fat ;p


And all of this food cost us almost RM20. Almost. I forgot the exact total amount because you have to pay them as soon as you take the food from the people who prepared it right before the entrance of this shop and my bf paid them so I just did a quick mental calculation based on the price on the menu.

I'll be going there again that's for sure :)

kerepek hunting

My mom loves kerepek. She likes to munch on it while watching telly. I enjoy that too, but not too much because it always leave me with uncomfortable feeling in my mouth. My teeth would feel itchy. Saya pun xtau la kenape gigi rase gatal. Bukan gusi yeh, tapi gigi.

As raya is just around the corner, the preparation for raya is fast catching up on us. The uber important thing to be prepared is the food. Kuih, kerepek, rendang and the likes. Bought some kuih raya for my family. Rendang would be prepared on raya's eve. Kerepek? Well, I just went kerepek hunting earlier today.

I have been pestering this colleague of mine since the beginning of Ramadhan to tell me when she's going to buy kerepek for raya. She knows this one place where they make and sell wicked kerepek ubi pedas, my mom's ultimate favourite kerepek.

"Akak, kalo nak pergi jangan lupe bagitau saye yek, saye nak borong kerepek macam2 nih"

Finally, the time has come.

"dD, petang nih lepas sekolah, ok?"

The mission of kerepek hunting thus begun at about 3pm. The journey took about 20 minutes from my school and we had to go through this route that I never knew existed before :P Upon reaching this place, wahh gayatnya saya.. This is the first time I ever set my foot on kerepek's factory. Panas oh, no air conditioner there, only good ol' fan.

I wanted to take pictures but the camera on my phone can't be used anymore since 2-3 months ago. It probably has been infected with Barney's phone disease. Handphone dia pun macam itu jugak kamera tuh. Tapi sekarang da buleh guna sometimes, tinggal kamera phone den yo yang tak boto2. Ha..kan da terckap style org Alor Gajah.

There were like 8 machines that look almost like the ones people use to mix cement for contsruction work. Semua mesin nih adalah untuk sira kerepek pedas tuh la. Beratur nak tunggu macik nih masukkan kerepek pedas dlm plastik. Semalam lagik truk, akak yg saye ikut nih cakap, sampai habes kerepek pedas tuh orang2 dok datang pakat beli.

While waiting for the kerepek to cool off (it can't be sealed while it's still warm. Nanti lemau), I scouted for other kerepeks. Bakul yang besar gedabak tuh habes penuh dgn kerepek segala macam. Tangan nih gatal aje rase nak amek semua. Dalam kepala da terbayang sambil tgk tb time raye, buleh kunyah2. Dalam hati pulak, ishh murah nih kalo tak amek kang nyesal kang air liur meleleh aje teringat2.

The hunt for kerepek ubi pedas was so challenging, some people even willing to steal other's treasures! haha. Akak tuh punya kerepek kene rembat 2 bungkus yang die da letak dlm bakul dia. Ye lah, xkan nk dok tercangak kat tepi bakul besar tuh kan, might as well look at all sorts of kerepeks dlm kedai tuh sementara kerepek ubi pedas tuh sejuk skit. Skali bile pegi kat bakul kami, akak tuh ckp "Di....akak punye ilang due" haish, kesian akak nih. Tak pasal2 kene pegi belakang kedai tuh lagik nk amek 2 bungkus kerepek baru. Adoyai.

After we sealed the kerepek ubi pedas, it's time to pay our purchase. Mate nih da jeling2 kerepek dlm bakul yang menggunung tuh. Dalam hati, nak letakkan balik sket ke xnak ek? But my heart told my mind no and off I went to the cashier.

Hamek ko, RM 73 aku beli kerepek. hahaha. Ade sen2 tuh aku kate kat adik tuh xpayah la. Mintak RM 70 tak dpt tadi...cis.

Just had my kerepek pedas tadi. Memule nak rase, sekali tgk da tinggal separuh paket aku pekena :P Tapi papepun sgtla lega, kerepek is off the list. Tinggal nk wat kek asam manis saje lagik before balik umah atok nenek kt JB. Kerepek yang ade nih pun bukanla nk wat makan sorang, gile hape haha, nih nak bagi2 sedara and oso boipren saye lah. hehehhehe. Buleh family die makan2 and die pun leh bwk kt opis nnt bagik kawan2 die mamam after raye kan.

popping out babies

It seems like everyone is busy making baby these days. There are six pregnant teachers in my school. My TESLian friends popped out babies one after another (it’s like a tag game). And my closest cousin is expecting his first son (whom I shall spoil with lots and lots of goodies!). There are quite a few times where I overheard my colleagues talked about the experience of giving birth which sounds very excruciating. They did not soften it up a bit by bleeping out few parts. Their stories had my imagination running wild and sometimes made me feel like I am about to give birth too. I’m a sucker when it comes to blood. I can’t see them without feeling giddy. Neither do I can listen about things that have something to do with blood.

I just heard a news about a TESLian friend of mine giving birth to a baby boy today. She has a small frame. I can't imagine her being pregnant. How does it feel being pregnant, anyway? A colleague of mine suffered greatly right now and she is just over 10 weeks pregnant. Instead of gaining weight, she actually lost weight and had shed about 9 kilos up until now. She throws up every now and then. That is one, nasty pregnancy. It gives me lots of fear.

Is having a baby all that great? Another TESLian friend of mine whose son I call the Auckland baby (she's the 1st among us to have a child) seems to have the joy of her life each time she holds her son. It must've feel really good I suppose to hold a person that you have carried inside you for 9 months. The love must be surpassing what I have ever known otherwise there won't be people saying that all of the burden of works seems to wash away when you hug your child.

I'Allah one day I shall have mine too. I have no idea on how many, that might depends on how well I could cope with the pain from the first experience ;p But it's interesting though to see how friends of my age have started their own family. I feels like it was yesterday all of us bounced around at the school compound during recess. It feels so recent that we came to class late because we were busy chatting with our flatmates the night before during our college years.

One day, soon, I'Allah. But I have to get married first though. Barney, you up for it? :)

bimbo alert?

Today was not really a good day. It's Monday. It's never a good day (exception on holidays or when it's pay day). I had to do some groceries shopping and pay my phone bill. Paying the phone bill would be easier to be done at the post office nearby my school but since I suspected that I have a creepy stalker working there, so cross that, I'm never setting a foot on that area ever again. (See what you did to me, you maybe creepy stalker. You're making my life a tad harder!).

Something happened on the way to carrefour and I shall not explain it further here or I might end up walloping myself (yet again) for the fourth time.

Did the grocery shopping in a flash and I suppose my face was akin to an evil female boss who's about to eat her assistant alive. After that, it was the next mission, to find the maxis centre that is supposedly to be around that area. I kept my eyes wide open, looking left and right (mostly left, actually, because a colleague had told me about the location of the building but I was afraid I got the wrong info so I was taking extra precaution there). And I found that building, in a row of shop houses, it was easy to be missed. I parked my car and off I went to pay the bill. I entered the shop.

"Nak bayar bill maxis"

That girl was looking at me like I was a wife that was just abandoned by the husband and is now asking someone to match make me with a hot shot.

"Sini tak buleh"
Damn? I thought I clearly saw a maxis signboard here and it's just logical that you could pay your bill at their centres?

I went out, not before asking that girl where I can pay my bill and she mentioned two shopping malls which I was utterly uninterested to go because I was in the foulest foul of mood.

As I stepped out of the shop, I noticed yellow banner above the entrance. Padanla tak buleh bayar bill maxis, tempat DIGI rupenye nih. I glanced to the left and I saw green banner about 3 shops away. I settled my bill over there.

Nasib baik lah tak ter emo dekat ko wahai cik adik kedai DIGI kalo tak tepakse aku masuk balik untuk mintak maaf.

on Tuesday morning

Many teachers love having a class right before recess time. Just threat the students that they won't be enjoying their recess time if they didn't complete their work and there you go, the whole class would be at their best hardworking level ever. This is what I normally do too ;p. I had a single period lesson with 1 Hibiscus which conveniently falls exactly before recess and this is the time for me to display my cool authority. I get to hold them back in the classroom.

When the class ended and I flashed them my invisible vampire fangs, a few students were left in the classroom. Most of them had super speedily completed their works. Credits had to be given to them although some of their work is almost impossible to be read without a slight attack of headache.

Few minutes passed and there were three students who still haven't finished their work. I noticed this one boy who is still sitting in the classroom, reluctant to go and enjoy his well-deserved recess time although he had long completed the work given to him, so I casually asked him;

"Tak rehat ke Hairilnizam" (Yes, I call him with his full name).

"Tak" *Looks outside the classroom*

"Pergilah rehat, makan kat kantin tuh"

"Tak pe lah cikgu saye x bawak duit la" *in a tone that showed he was hoping this issue won't be raised again *

Zupp. Realisation hit me. Sometimes I forgot that these students are real human being, they have issues, problems, and a life outside of the school. They sometimes treat the school as their escapism. They are not really interested in learning, they are forced to learn and when they are forced to over and over again, being scolded both at home and at school, they repel and rebel. I forgot how impossibly hard it felt being a teenager, let alone a teenager with issues. In the midst of our lethargy, our lack of time and pressure, we chose the easy way out - that is, to let it out on the students. I always find it hard to listen to colleagues who complained A LOT about the students. The dialogue would almost always goes like this "Diaorg tak fikir ke....bla bla bla". The answer is, they don't. Neither do both of us when we were 16 and thinking that the rest of the world is against us. It doesn't help too now that many parents are slowly letting loose of their authorities which resulted in the kids feeling that they are unstoppable. Whatever it is, letting it out on the students, hoping that they would behave like an angel at school and punishing those that are sometimes innocent, are not the best solution. What is the best solution, then?

I don't have a clue about that too. I just strive to try my very best, every single day and I tried to be positive about it.

And oh, back to Hairilnizam,

I know that most of the students in this classroom come from family with a low economic status. Their apparel kind of gives the way. So I asked him to come and help me carry the exercise books to my desk. Casually asking him again why he didn't go and enjoy his recess, it was evident that he didn't want the issue to be raised again.

"Nah, awak amek nih pegi kantin beli makanan tau. Makan tau"

"Time kaseh cikgu!" And he gave a sheepish smile that made me felt good inside.

it's only wednesday?

Why does it seems that this week is particularly slower than last week? I honestly thought today is Thursday. It feels Thursday. I can even say that it looks Thursday. It feels so much like Thursday that I actually thought of packing my balik kampung stuff and load them in my car because that's what I do on Thursday. But if it's Thursday, it means pay day for this month. Slightly earlier than usual because 25th falls on Saturday this time around. But nope, I'm still broke so it must mean that today must really be Wednesday. 2 more days to go through before I can have a 2-days break off this place. And 2 more days before I get to be Potter-fied. Wands at the ready!

what the heart wants right towards pay day

The few days before pay day is almost always the hardest. There are times when there were very few notes in the wallet. And it has to be during these times that the heart wants heaps and heaps of stuff! As if to try my patience and endurance, this would be the time when the craving of eating all types of yummy-licious food hits me. And it has to be during this time that my hand itches so bad to shop, shop, shop. This is the time when I think I need a new shower foam that smells really good and would be able to put me in a really good mood before I go to work. And it's during times like these that I realise I need a new pair of shoes and some new apparel to have fun with! Geez, there's no worse time to be so materialistic. But, is it still materialistic when I came to realisation that I need (some) new red pen so that I could mark the students' works more, urm, efficiently?

Oh god, brace my heart to face this few more days. Sure, plastic is an easy way out but I don't want to be scratching my head when I get the bill at the end of the month!

exam week was horrendous 10 yrs back but now it's a blessing!

10 years back (that would be when I was 15), exam was a horrific experience. I feel tightness in my tummy, I sense the urge to do revision but I always fail to do so. I usually ended up going through the pages in a glance and went to sleep, relying solely on my sometimes dysfunctional brain.

But it's a blessing for me now.

What's not to love? The kids behave better during these times. Less noise hence less headache (the school could be super noisy no joke). And I don't have to do any preparation in teaching them. Got to be in classroom, watching them like a hawk with a fierce face and sometimes speak to them in an icy cold tone "I thought I told you no talking during exam?" with an even icy-er look in my eyes. Go back early since there's no extra class during exam week and I can watch movies on my laptop to my heart's content.

So it can be concluded that this week is an easy breezy week. It's like laying lazily under the sun while watching the wave of the beach hitting the sand. Cold drinks in my right hand while the other hand holding a book (preferably a chick lit. Or harry potter would work too). Soaking in the salty smell of the sea. Gosh it's gonna be Friday tomorrow. It doesn't seem fair that time flies so fast when I'm lazing around!

Next week is gonna be a battle yet again. I'm gonna yell every now and then. It gave (even) me a surprise at how loud my voice can actually be! The classes that I always scold must be hating me by now heheh. I want next week to pass by quickly too because I wanna watch Half Blood Prince with an awesome company on next weekend :) I know for a Potterfreak this means I'm so behind everyone else but hey it doesn't matter much to me anymore because it has been my tradition to watch the Potter saga with the people who are close to me and this time, I want to watch it with him.

the deepest feeling ever

I’m nervous, I’m anxious, apprehensive and restless. I feel like typing an entry that has no full stops. I can’t eat well. Food became tasteless, I just gobbled them up for the sake of surviving. Or just to take my mind off thinking about you. I’m guilty of comfort eating. I keep on drinking glasses after glasses of juice.

I think about you every day before I go to bed. You keep on making me feel queasy, you never fail to do so, not even for a day. The unsettling feeling leaves me unable to sleep because the moment I try to shut my eyes, images of you come rushing by and I can’t seem to breathe right. You are the first thing that comes to my mind too when I’m awake. Damn it, I need to be in a chirpy mood before I go off to work but how can I do so when I constantly get so sick of this current circumstance that both of us are in. I really miss you heaps I wish you could be the first thing that I see when I start my day, just like how it used to be.

Your replacement now is indeed a no match but I am grateful though for if not for it this situation might be worse. I might not be able to cope. I might be missing you even more.

I thought I am strong. I thought I could sail through this matter smoothly. I was wrong.

Gosh there’s nothing more I’d want right now than to see you back again. See you running up and about. Feel your love and warmth towards me. You, me, we have this connection that sets up apart from others. I want to see you strong again. I want to love you fiercely.

I called that chick and she told me it’s still in the process. Waiting for the approval that might be settled within this week. The word ‘might’ makes me feel sick. I get so anxious I feel like throwing up. There’s like a lead on my shoulder. Every breath that I take feels heavy.

I really love you.
I miss you so much.
I’ve never experienced anything like this before.

Si Hensem, I hope we would be able to overcome this problem asap. I hope the insurance matter would be settled within a flash. I hope we would be reunited again this weekend. I want it to happen so badly :( I hope you are feeling better and would be able to take me to anywhere I wanna go with no sweat. I can’t wait to drive you again. There’s better cars out there, but nothing beats the first love, baby.

facelift

I hope from looking at the pic you would've guessed what happened to me recently. It's such a hassle to inform each of my friends about the accident hence the decision to just upload the pic (that I took using my hp so pardon me for the very poor quality) and let it do the talking instead. I'm much of a private person so I hope you won't shower me with avalanche of questions about this accident. I was not hurt, the car is in the workshop somewhere in KL (where the incident happened), I'm using my mom's car at the moment and yes I do hope that the car would be fixed asap. Don't ask me when will the car be fixed, it is a very relative matter that depends on few parties. I don't have the will to make it done sooner nor later, all I can do is hope and pray and your prayers along with mine would be much appreciated :) And that is all I need from you, no nagging, no questions, no injection of thoughts that could make me gloomy, please. I prefer not to dwell on the past, thank you very much :)

Semoga Si Hensem (the name of my car :P) kembali hensem selepas facelift ini!

the craving

I'm fasting and I have this killer craving. I actually have been having this craving since last week (I don't know for what reason but the desire just popped out of nowhere). I have an uber ultimate craving for milkshakes! mmmm nyums~ I went to the States a year ago and had this chance to indulge in this glass of milkshake that was out of this world. It was that tasty! I had it at Steak n Shake restaurant at Illinois. I was there with this bunch of M'sian students for a game that is held annually for M'sian students studying in the States. I was not one of them but I joined in the bandwagon anyway :P The main thing that I could remember from this trip was,.... obviously, the milkshake! I wish I have pictures of those tasty milkshakes. There were like, 5 of different flavours on our table and we didn't mind sharing and sipping each milkshakes although we barely knew each other at that time. Guess the milkshakes bring all of us closer! :D

Because of the lacking of the pictures, I had tough time remembering the name of this restaurant. I was so into this craving that I actually wikipedia-ed milkshake and the determination definitely paid off and as soon as I saw the name "Steak N Shake", I knew I hit the jackpot. The memory came rushing in :)


I wish the outlet would open soon in Malaysia. There's Wendy's and Carl's Jr. but it would be great to have Steak N Shake too so that I could have a bite at their famous steak hamburgers *did not get the chance to eat any at that time due to my belief :)*. However, I doubt it would be here soon, so probably, just maybe, I would settle for the next milkshake that I could find. Carl's Jr, anyone?