!panic

Perlukah saya !panic sebab :

a) saya sudah makin gumuk. Baju dah border muat/tak muat.

b) I have 204 scripts to mark and have only marked 30. I have until 10th of November.

c) Hujung taun of school means = banyak benda nak kena siapkan = makin kurang masa. Gasps.

d) The coming 160 scripts to be marked. These are my students'.

e) Result transfer sekolah nak kuar dah gedebuk gedebak goes my heart.

f) Henpon makin nazak so it's time to buy a new, decent one but I really hate the idea of spending heaps of cash on an item that would be outdated in months. I don't like to spend what I've worked hard to earn. Kerja => sakit hati & otak + penat => duit => habis? eeks.

g) Dan dah sampai masa untuk tukar tayar kete. Eeeeeks.

Terduduk.
Tapi it's okay.
What is life without obstacles.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Every word feels like a shooting star

In American Idol season 9, Didi Benami was shown singing this song. This song is taken from Katherine Mcphee's Unbroken (her second album) and Didi had helped made this song a hit (Didi memang power. Heh heh -cubaan memuji diri sendiri). The title of this song is Terrified. Here's a new version of it where they feature the actor Zachary Levi from the series Chuck.

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean it 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

Ah~ one of my fav :-)

khidmat awam

Today meeting lagi untuk examiners dari Ayer Hitam where we had tonssss of practices in marking. We also got the scripts that we have to mark and I have around 200 hoho. Belum campur lagik kertas jawapan exam ujung taun sekolah next week oh yeah so jadi kalau mata saya macam rabun dan dah diri dekat dekat kurang dari 3 meter pun and I cannot identify you, ampun lah ye. Depan mata nih dah nampak sentences yang ditulis secara linear saje. Dunia ni dah tak berapa nak kalerful sangat dah.

The driving was OK. Tak jem macam semalam which was caused by an accident and apparently many drivers decided to slow down and stare. Typical sangat. Haih.

Tapi hari nih ade perkara bodoh telah berlaku di depan mata. Sangat bodoh sebab A) membahayakan diri sendiri B) membahayakan orang lain C) sebab memang plain bangang.

Semua kereta benti time lampu isyarat merah, kan. Unless you are color blind, I don't think you would have difficulty in identifying the color red from green. Orang yang color blind tak buleh amek lesen pun by the way. (Ingat lagik dulu time ujian amek lesen yang nak identify color blind ke tak, ade mamat sebelah ni nak tiru tapi of course la saye tidak beri hey hey mintak maap encik but I don't want to be held responsible kalo ade eksiden happen in the future that is caused by your condition - sorry).

Tapi ada this lady driving a red viva wah mungkin berangan nak jadik flashman (er..woman?) terus vroom vroom vrooom bila lampu kat jalan lagik satu dah kelip kelip hijau. Lampu kami belum hijau lagik dia da drive dengan asyiknya dan meninggalkan kami dengan asap asapnye. I was dumbfounded for a fraction of second.

Haih, mungkin eksaited sangat baru dapat lesen and pegang stereng gamaknye. Ataupun mungkin dia dah lupa warna hijau dan merah camne. Tapi memang plain bangang, sebab : A) sometimes there would still be people yang datang out of nowhere dari jalan arah yang lain tu. B) bila dia langgar ko, ko would be held responsible. C) menyusahkan orang yang jadik mangsa eksiden sebab kejahilan ngko. D) menyusahkan aku gak bila jem sebab eksiden. Aku nak balik cepat. Badan dan otak dah letih.

Sila amalkan ini :

Stop at red light.
When it turns green, wait for a few seconds before you continue driving so as to ensure that there aren't idiots who are speeding despite the red light.

Berhati hati membawa berkat. Okeh?

examiners - at work.

oh waw, try waking up at 445a.m, drive 2hrs straight early in the morning and go straight to a meeting where you be the youngest and inexperienced. Mark essays after a short morning break and try categorizing them accordingly after reading them as a whole whilst praying that you don't stray too far from others. Heho.

These were what I did earlier today and I am so knackered :-D

Although I must say that I am eager and pretty excited to be one of the markers for English PMR this year and gain as much experience as I could while learning from others who are far more experienced than yours truly.

Let's hope that I would be able to do my work and reward marks accordingly supaya tidak menganiayai mana mana pihak though. Hee.

sengal like that

I started to sing and dance to the clip on the telly since I was very little. Not quite sure when but my mom recorded a sound clip where we sang to a Richard Mark's Right Here Waiting. I was 4 or probably 5 years old. Each time I saw somebody dances on the telly, I would groove to it. Imitate it. I must be a real pain in the arse and a sight to a sore eye.

If you think it stopped when I hit puberty, you are so wrong. It didn't. In fact, it became worse because I then had a little recruit. My very own brother!

I would forced him to join me memperasankan diri di hadapan television. Astaga. Pengajaran ntah hape hape di situ. Haha.

So it's a little wonder why he won a second place in this dancing competition held at Ayer Keroh's Jusco. He was probably 8. Dah banyak praktis kan, so he had no difficulty in imitating the dancers.

My perasan perasan performance didn't just stop at imitating the dancers or celebs on telly. I also loved to imitate scene from movies. Namely The Lord Of The Rings. I would wrap myself in a blanket and walla, I became Aragorn. Of course, my brother would be my sidekick. We would act out the lines from the movies we watched, along with facial expression that I swear an award winning.

My favourite celebrities that I imitated more frequent than others was Britney Spears. Some of my closest friends actually had the (unfortunate) opportunity to listen to my imitation to Britney during our karaoke sessions. One of the songs that I love to sing was Born To Make You Happy. Izza if you are reading this I'm sure you are doing so with a wide grin on your face haha. Lain kali aku buat lagik, okeh.

You would have probably guess by now that I am into performing. I love attention. Used to and probably still am ;-P So that's why I didn't mind performing on the stage since I was in primary school. And because I'm such a sucker for dancing, that's why I joined a dancing club (CUDZ - Company of Union Dancers) when I was in uni and forced my friends to join too. Sukses di situ ya. Haha. They love to dance to Black Eyed Peas' songs and zaman ituh adelah zaman kegemilangan My humps. Tapi oleh kerana kami ini sengal, kami sneakily recorded some of our dancing practices. Siap buh kamera dalam beg, lepas tuh biar ON. hahahaha. I would have to thank the dance practices for my then slender figure. Sumpah tak pernah se-slim itu. Zaman zaman di Auckland walaupun di manjakan oleh ceklet dan aiskim dan other food yang sedap tahap biadap, tapi those were the days where I was at my slimmest. Zaman sekolah pun tak slim cemtuh. Sekarang nih tengok seluar kotak kotak MNG yang aku beli kat sana, setakat tengok ajelah yang mampu. A few weeks lepas balik Mlesia, memang terus tak muat! Kuang ajo betul.

Back to cerita asal tentang performing perasan perasan, that is probably why I love to watch Glee though I'm not an avid fan of the show. I didn't get to watch all of the episodes but I'm planning to. Someday. Gotta get my hands on em dvds :-)

So I'm ending this post with a song from Glee. A remake of Toxic by my sister, Britney Spears. As what I always told my brother :-

Me : Britney Spears tu kakak aku.


My brother : Bilo maso plak mama beranakkan Britney Spears.

risau again

Tak boleh blah sungguh,
bila dok jauh dari suami ini memang hati nih risau sangat setiap hari setiap detik pasal kesihatan dia, makan pakai minum.

Dengar aje sikit dia rase tak selesa (I wrote about his health condition a while back, you can read about it here) terus hati nih risau sangat sangat tahap gaban :|

Janganla sakit sakit teruk teruk tau.

Rasa nak berhenti keje aje jadik housewife buat part time ape ape asalkan dapat jage suami :-(

seksa

Ape bende paling hazab yang pernah kamu lalui?

1. tahan buang air besar?
2. terbau kentut dalam elevator tapi tatau whose?
3. nak beranak tapi tak beranak ranak padehal membe kat katil sebelah da bertuko ganti 8 kali?

one of the hazaB-est I've ever had to go through is to tahan gelak when I really, really want to. Desperately. Macam nak gelak hwahahawahwahwa bodoh sial lawak!

Tadi tgk ANTM season 15 episode 5, part 1 & 2, ade challenge where the models had to do a catwalk on this treadmill-like runway. Sumpah lawak bila tengok orang kontrol jalan kat atas menatang tu tapi at the same time nak tegolek jatuh. Ngehehe.

Lepas tuh, pegi blog hopping.

Jumpa pulak lah blog yang kelako

cube bace meh

tak pasal pasal da tersenyum kambing sambil perut senak sebab tahan gelak.

Rase macam nak pergi tandas lepas tu gelak sorang sorang dalam toilet cubicle tu.

BTW, tengah berkursus dan kursus ini bosan tahap gaban -_-"

haze-y

The air condition in Batu Pahat is getting worse. The haze doesn't seem to be getting any better and the lack of rain for these past few days does not help neither.

I have been feeling rather sickly lately. Nauseated every now and then. It felt so tough trying to gather the energy that is left in me to impart the knowledge that I think the kids should have before the examination week begins. I don't even have the energy to be angry and run amok anymore (good for the students though and I'm sure they are so relief to see that teacher is not that fierce any longer).

The haze is so bad that is seems like it's about to rain. But it is not. It's just gloomy and sad and a pretty sickening thing to go through.

I wish it ends soon. Or better still, I wish for it to rain so that it could help clear this haze at least for a bit.

I want to get back to my normal self because being sick is a no-fun :-(

untuk kamu yang saya sayang

Saya sayang suami saya, family kami dan kawan kawan. Bila dah sayang, kalau kita dengar orang tuh tengah bersedih, kita pun turut rasa sedihnya. Rasa hiba. Kalau buleh nak hilangkan sedih tuh dari hati dia.

I only have a brother. So I consider these three wonderful girls as my own sisters. They have beautiful personalities. Each of them is special in their own unique way.

This one is for you. Who called me just now. Who is in the midst of confusion.

You are a very special individual. You have a really kind heart and I envy you for that.

Kamulah manusia yang paling tidak berkira pernah saya jumpa dalam dunia nih. Kamu pandai bawa diri. Campak la kat ceruk mana pun, saya yakin kamu boleh hidup dengan jayanya!

And you helped us a lot, in so many ways.

Jadi bila saya dengar awak sedih tadi, hiba sangat rasenye :-(

Tak sampai hati betul bila dengar orang yang kita sayang tengah dalam dilema...

I have no rights to tell you about the decision that you should take. It's yours solely. I could only give some advices and I sure hope they were OK.

Whatever your decision would be, be sure to know that we will have your back. I know you have a good head on your shoulder and you would be able to sail through this rough tide smoothly.

Teruskan berdoa. I will too.

Ya Allah, semoga Kau permudahkan urusan adikku ini, berilah dia kebahagian dunia dan akhirat dan bantulah dia dalam membuat keputusan yang penting ini. Rahmatilah dia. Dia tak pernah berkira dengan teman temannya, semoga Kau bukakan pintu rahmatMu seluas luasnya bagi dia.

Saya sayang dia. Saya nak dia hepi.

:-)

Terima kasih :-)

Friends are valuable, precious and irreplaceable. True friends, that is. The ones whom you love endlessly, embrace warmly and think of occasionally.

Through ups and downs.

Regardless of disagreements and quarrels.

You learn lots of things from each other.









You learn to compromise.

You learn to be selfless.

You learn to forgive and forget.



You learn to love others who are not your own flesh and blood.




They are the ones who you want to be with when you are having fun.

They are also the ones who you want to be beside you when you are facing difficulties.



No man is an island.

Those who say that they could live without friends are dreamers.















You go through different phases in your life with friends by your side.

When you go to school.

When you start your tertiary education.

When you start working.

When you get engaged.

When you get married.

When you give birth.

When you are old and wrinkly.

You'll only be alone when you are six feet under. But you would need your friends' prayer for you. And those prayers could accompany you.

See, what is life without friends.

And for that, I thank each and every one of you.

:-)

P/S - I mish all of ya!

conteng muka

Naturally, a bride-to-be would want to look amahzeng (one notch higher than amazing :-p) on her wedding day. Even though what matters is really how you look in your husband's eyes but yeah there's always this feeling of wanting to be remembered as the 'stunning bride' instead of the 'ala pengantin yang muka sengal tuh'. Pergh. The latter statement tuh memang tak buleh blah la kan.

So a makeup artist is one of the great assets for you to look stunning on your 'do. Make that a GOOD makeup artist, because there's an abundant of mak andam out there but a good one is hard to find.

Luckily I found mine. Met him by chance when we attended a wedding of my husband's colleague (he was my boyfriend back then). We agreed that the makeup look amazing and he managed to enhance the bride's beauty. We also think that we would like for him to work his magic on me on our wedding day.

And we booked him right after we got engaged (which was in the end of May).

Come 18th September, he worked his magic on me whilst his sister helped to enhance my husband's looks. hee.

These pictures are taken from his website AJ cinta aliah gallery

bulu mataku bukan bulu ayam di rumahmu.

gagal sengih sepenuhnya sebab tengah fokus betapa beratnya bulu mata palesu sambil terpikir cemane la rozita che wan could handle this!

tampan sekali sampai gugur jantungku dari rangka badan hingga kena kutip balik

I am really satisfied with his work and it was fun working with him and his sister, as well as Sahlan who accompanied them! The makeup lasted till late evening (even after all the sweating due to the hot weather and also our excitement during the outdoor photoshoot - ngeh heh heh heh) so it was worth every penny spent :-)

Thank u AJ! :-) If you are interested in his work, go visit his website. His contact number is there. Their wedding package is also oh-so-pretty! He's one hardworking dude and I could see that he has a bright future ahead of him :-) BTW, he's one of the makeup artist for the imam muda show on tv9. Better book him fast before his rate skyrockets like Nurol Shukor. hehehehe. Tak lame lagi mesti mantap dia nih. Amin!

He's our junior back in secondary school. So, GO TALIBians! :-))

LOST

I have a course on writing from today until the 7th of October. I was rather reluctant to go, realising that I WOULD get lost on my way to this place. Bahagian Teknologi Pendidikan Negeri Johor, Skudai.

Though my grandmother's house is in JB, I hardly navigate my way around JB on my own. It has always been straight from Melaka to Taman Pelangi JB. Go straight, don't belok belok. And when I'm at my grandma's house, I would stay quietly in her place, helping out whatever I could until it's time to go back home. Hence the limited knowledge of routes in JB.

So, naturally, I freaked out upon knowing I have a course to attend in Skudai.

Going there alone seems like a disaster.

The two other teachers from Batu Pahat are males and I would rather not hitching a ride with neither of them.

But God has His own way to help people. One of the male teachers could not go and he was replaced with a female teacher whom I once met during a course in Batu Pahat. We got hold of each other's number and my worry dissipated when she agreed to go there with me. I don't mind driving long distance but I need a company when I'm going somewhere alien-ish.

I got hold of a map.

Yet, we got lost on our way to this place.

I solemnly swear, we followed the map EXACTLY, but couldn't find Skudai Parade anywhere in our sight right after the Skudai Exit.

We probably were too engaged in our conversation. Ngeh ngeh :-P

But thanks heaps to that adik in Petronas Petrol Station, we were able to find Skudai Parade.

Not lost anymore. And there's no way I'm driving around here all the while we are here. The next drive would be going back home on Thursday!

and oh, best of luck to those sitting for PMR. You kids are all in my prayer. Teacher pun nebes gak!