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11ish p.m
Batu Pahat.

Bertexting texting.

"Gf watpe? Sy baru nk start wat keje"

"Dok mengadap laptop heh heh malas nk tengok buku esok ngajar vocabs n idioms ape utk budak gune wat esei. Pagi besok baru pikir heheheh"

"Idioms 2 ape ek?"

"Idioms tuh perumpamaan, macam in the pink of health, crystal clear water.Kalo budak wat esei gune idioms dpt better marks. Sy kene train budak F3 saye gune tuh"

a couple of long seconds....~~
teng teng teng teneneneng *bunyik polyphonic henpon nokia yang dipinjam. Yes, polyphonic okeh. Polyyyyyphonic. rindu henpon yang sudah tamat riwayat*

"I hope I can marry u as soon as possible as beautiful as rainbow. hahaha"

Heh heh heh.
Pandai awak buat idioms.
Si comel. Memang lah kamu lelaki saya!

Hmmphs,
tajuk entry yang panjang lebar menggambarkan betapa hati gundah gulana resah dalam kerinduan setelah sekian lama tidak ketemu dan bakal mengharungi 2 minggu yang panjang lagi sebelum wajah dia dapat dijamah dengan mata kasar secara langsung.

Oh oh!

I smell, I hear, I see, I feel.

After attending a course last week about the new component in English literature, I decided that it's time to start teaching my form ones literature.

Before I give them the main dish, there must be an appetizer.

Today I did introduction to literature to get them in the zone and hopefully to stay there throughout this year.

So I asked them to write a poem.

I divided them into groups and gave each group a quarter of a whole mahjong paper (jimat..,jimat..mana dapat claim benda2 nih suma, suma dtg dari purse sendiri oh) and a marker pen.

They are to complete this poem by filling in the blanks with appropriate words that I've taught beforehand.

Today is ....................
I smell ....................
I hear ....................
I see ....................
I feel ....................

Everything went well and so did the presentation from each group. Good activity to ease their shyness away and hopefully they won't be as timid as their seniors when they grow older (budak sekolah nih kalo suh wat presentation memang macam nak menyuruh kucing makan sambal belacan).

And it's the second last group's turn.

This was what they wrote and recited in front of the classroom. Please pardon their grammatical mistakes :-)

Today is Thursday (they pointed at the day written on the whiteboard),
I smell mother is cooking (they did the dreamy, hungry face),
I hear music (followed by jeng jeng jeng in harmony),
I see a beautiful teacher at the morning (all of them pointed at ME! ME! ME! with the word beautiful being read out really loud heh heh heh),
I feel happy. (they smiled cutely)

and I just overwhelmed with joy knowing that my students have learned another very good moral values :- Sucking up makes you get the loudest applaud from the teacher ;-P

there goes a piece of New Zealand that I bought !

Hari ni super panas, sehingga terpaksa beli air jambu muar on the way ke rumah from tempat kursus in Ayer Hitam. Air jambu special yang harganya 1.50. Cheaper jika nak dibandingkan kat Alor Gajah, it costs 2.00 over there. But I still love Alor Gajah more than anywhere else in this world.

Sampai rumah tengok baju menimbun dalam laundry basket.
Ah. pegilah rendam.

30 minutes later, mula sesi membasuh baju dengan perasaan yang malas dalam gerak gaya seorang yang letih.

Scrub scrub scrub.
Celup celup celup.
Squeeeeeze.
Scrub scrub scrub lagik (buat cukup syarat)
Celup celup celup.
Squeeeeeeze.
Transfer the clothes to another pail.
Tuang air dalam lubang tandas.

Zuusssssss..

Shoot!
Tak sempat nak tahan dah,
the pail is red, and so is my panties.
Terus masuk dengan smooth dalam lubang tandas.

Terus tepon mama.

"Mamaaaaa spender along masuk dalam lubang jamban. Huuuu."

There goes a piece of NZ that I bought.
Panties cantik, murah dan berkualiti.
Akhirnya ke dalam lubang tandas ko pergi.
Ade ke sesape lagik yang pernah jadik cemni?
Hmm tobat lepas nih tak buang air dalam baldi ke dalam lubang tandas lagi.
Sila hati hati. (wahhh gila lah rhyme~!)

Oh please lah tiba tiba ada ticket jatuh dari langit

Muse is the headline act for this coming Big Night Out in Singapore this February 3rd. The cheapest tix go for 98 bucks. You get to sit at the balcony and probably won't be able to see the boys clearly, not without the help of the screen but it's Muse and getting to hear their music live is already a bliss.

I've missed seing them live in 2007. I was a student and a pretty broke one who lives on allowance given by the government. Going to Muse's concert would be a luxury and I could only hope that they would come back again in the next few years.

And now they'll be here. But in S'pore! *sobs.

If I were to go, I'll be spending a lot and would probably have to live only on the mere memory of listening and watching them live when hunger strikes. That would suffice to get me through the difficult days when the money runs low ;-p I would also probably have to skip school on Wednesday or Thursday.

But one thing that I'm learning and slowly getting a good grasp of it is that what the heart desires is not always the right thing to do. You have to think of the what ifs. I used to be spontaneous and used to depend on my guts often. Now that I'm all grown up and awarded with heaps of responsibilities, I've got to give thinking a better chance.

So there you go, unless it's raining tix, there's a good chance that I'll be spending my 3rd Feb night doing my lesson plan, like a good educator would.

Meh layan their 2nd single from The Resistance.

I know you've suffered,
But I don't want you to hide,
It's cold and loveless,
I won't let you be denied

Soothing,
I'll make you feel pure,
Trust me,
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You trick your lovers,
That you're wicked and divine,
You may be a sinner,
But your innocence is mine

Please me,
Show me how it's done,
Tease me,
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Please me,
Show me how it's done,
Trust me,
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.

I ought to shove someone's mouth with a trout

dD :
Eh eh tahun nih aku dah 26 lah.

Someone :
Kan, sekejap aje rasa.

dD:
Ingat tak dulu time sekolah kalo cakap pasal orang umor 26, rase macam dah tua sangat dah tu kan. Tapi aku tak rasa tua lagi la.

Someone :
A'ah kan 26. Terbayang dah kawin, ade anak semua.
Tapi ko dah nak 26 satu ape pun tak ade lagi. Hi Hi Hi. *rubbing bloated tummy*

FINEEEEEE.

I'll be a hermit for days and lock myself in my room, giving a deep thought on how unlucky I am to still be commitment free at 26. But at least I could still wake up as late as I want to and roll out of bed looking like maniac without fretting that the spouse would be running out of bed, out of house.

*whistles*

nama saya glemer

*enters classroom*
*lesson goes on as planned*

OK don't forget to write your name, class and grammar on the cover of your exercise book. And yeah, please write my name too.

*mumbles mumbles*
*clears throat*

What's my name?

Diyana.

How do you spell my name?

D-I-Y-A-N-A

What's my full name?

*Some accurate answers*

Nope. Diana Danielle lah. *with a straight face*

A FEW DAYS LATER .......~

*marking books on my desk*

Name : Muhamad X Bin Abdul X.
Class : 2 Seroja
Subject : English Grammar.

And right above his name, he wrote my 'name'.

Ms. Diyana Daniel.

Sindrom nervous breakdown awal tahun mula dah

Haih memang la menyampah amat super sampah tahap gaban pada awal tahun.

First, let me gently remind all you lot. A teacher does not only teach. S/He does MORE than that. Much more.

Awal tahun (January specifically) is the time where you can find teachers who have been appointed as classroom teacher muka berkerut kerut seribu sehingga terpaksa consider pakai Olay Regenerist untuk menangkis kesan penuaan yang mungkin berlaku.

Duit. Duit sikit pening kepala. Duit banyak pun pening kepala. Betul tak?
Inikan pulak meng handle duit yang bukan milik sendiri. Sangat haramjadah.

Yuran. Tak semua dah bayar.
Nak organise. List of names keeps on changing for eff's sake.
Nak trace balik siapa yang dah bayar / belum bayar is a lot of hassle due to the contradicting name list. Sekejap budak nih kat kelas sini. Sekejap budak nih kat kelas situ. Time register, budak lain. Time kelas da mula, aik, mana budak tuh pegi. Maka bermula lah konflik aku ke kau eh yang patut kutip duit dia and keep track of his yuran.

Fine. Dah ada duit (bear in mind not everyone has paid off their school fees), nak kena divide the money. You have to give some to certain people. Pejabat, cikgu sains, majalah, etc etc (malas dah nak sebut sebab kepala aku dah nyut nyut nyut berdenyut). Tapi oleh kerana the previous masalah (refer the above paragraph), nak decide on yang mana setelkan dulu, how much money shoud be paid first, is also a hassle. And, you are bound to use your own money first. Memang tak buleh elak la.

And there is also the classroom to be decorated. (Duit lagik, adoi ~)
Koku files & CD to be updated.
Students to be arranged.
Books to be marked.

And of course, our core business :

The students to be taught.

But when you are too mentally and physically exhausted to handle this and that, more often than not, you will find yourself unable to teach as good as you initially wanted. Lesson plans are made in a rush, you're unable to search for sufficient teaching materials due to limited time, and when you finally enter the classroom, some of the students take even more of your energy and patience, you eventually find yourself to have none left.

Terasa nervous breakdown bakal berlaku so please God please, bagikla courage kepada saya dan kawan kawan serta limpahi kami dengan blessing yang tidak terhingga agar saat genting ni dapat dilalui dengan mudah. Semua kerja ada masalah. Ala kan besh kalo malam nih da buleh rehat dah tak payah nak struggle buat lesson plan. Hmpph.

First Day

The first day of school went pretty ok. Got my timetable first thing in the morning and I have to teach form 1B, 1E, 2A, 2C and 3C for this year. I taught 2C and 3C last year so I already know most of them. That could be both good and bad. Good for that means I know their strengths and weaknesses. Bad because they already know me for a year and know my style of classroom management and teaching.

This is my first time teaching an exam class (PMR) so fingers and toes cross that my class would do well in their English paper during PMR.

I haven't entered the form 1s due to orientation programme. I would be the 1B classroom teacher and am all anxious to know who the students would be. I hate being a classroom teacher because there is a lot of things that you have to manage, from their studies to their problems at home. Multiply that to 40 and you'll get a headache.

But this year is gonna be somewhat easier for me I reckon. The first quarter of last year was hellish because I was made the head of rumah sukan and that was a LOT of time, energy and money consuming. So hopefully, there'll be no more needs to go to school at 7pm and go back around 6pm this year now that other teachers have been appointed to lead those 6 rumah sukan. Phew.

However, there is limited funding for schools this year around from the government. Thus I foresee even more limited resource for educational purposes and the needs to jimat jimat jimat. Let's hope that it won't demotivate the educators and affect the teaching process. Because when that happens, there is one party who would be at great loss. The students.

Tomorrow is another day at school. Berusaha!

I got the blues

Do you still remember your first day of school after a month long of break? It sucks beyond word, didn't it?

You might be eager to go back to meet your friends. Or show how handsome / pretty you've gotten over the break but were you eager to get back to homework, learning and constant pressure to perform?

I sure as hell didn't :-p

The first day of school always give me palpitation. Cold sweats. Stomach ache. Unexplainable urge to throw up. For some puzzling reasons that I still don't quite understand till now.

Maybe I am just one of those who have allergies towards anything school.

But I am now one of the fortunate people who get to teach in school.

Tomorrow is the first day of school for 2010 and yes, just like how I was 10 years back, I am now having cold feet and all those sensation that I have mentioned above.

Saya rase tak berape nak sihat lah doktor... *mate terkebil kebil memandang doktor seperti puss in boots dalam movie Shrek*

Jangan buat pasai.

Haram

Awal tahun 2009 time hari pertama sekolah baru bukak aku dengar ramai colleague yang dah *ahem* berusia *ahem* bagitau dengan riang ;

"Aku suka time cuti sekolah bagus betul dapat jimat duit"

"Hah same lah minyak bukan guna pun, makan pun kat rumah"

"Betul, ko bayangkan, aku isik minyak 10 ringgit tahan sampai seminggu lebih"

Sambil pasang telinga sambil I thought to myself. Memang betul ke aku nih tak normal? Time cuti sekolah lah time aku rasa paling singkek mengkek sekali. Kalo biase isik minyak 50 ringgit seminggu (approximately) nih time cuti aku double jadik 100. Kalo makan time sekolah seminggu tuh, bagik aku 40 ringgit pun aku siap boleh carry forward duit tuh. Time cuti pulak tak impossible 40 ringgit tuh aku buleh wat makan sekali je (tak, bukanlah aku nih kuat makan *sensitif* tapi kenkadang aku kuar bwk mak aku ke, adik aku ke, makan). Paling kurang ajar sekali, time cuti nih la sale melambak lambak sampai berpinar bijik mate. Dan paling siot sekali, time cuti nih la selalunye baru aku sedar yang aku kene beli baaaaanyak barang (both needs and wants miahahaha).

It was mindblogging. And it still is.

Sebab hari Isnin nih for sure aku akan dengar benda yang sama tentang eh eh betape beshnye cuti dok umah saje dpt meng-save duit maka mari kite beli kain baju kurung Cikgu X jual banyak banyak jomm while I get lost in a deep thought:- that I am the opposite of normal.

I could only hope that there are others who are just as abnormal as me, when that time arrives. Supaya nanti tak lah aku rasa singkek sangat dengan duit rm50 yang berada dalam purse itu. And with that, I forbid myself from shopping until the next pay comes.

Gaji masuk lagik 3 minggu setengah =_="


Orang beli keter, aku pun nak beli keter. Orang bayar insurance keter, aku dalam hati kate, err...x payah boleh tak ek.

Yang terbaik

It's the 3rd day of 2010.

I pray for all of our health, happiness and wealth.

May what we have set in mind that we hope will happen in 2010 becomes a reality. May Allah's blessing and love shower upon us endlessly. I hope that this year would be better than last year for the rest of us. Should there be an obstacle along the journey, I pray that we would be able to sail through it painlessly.

Saya doakan yang terbaik untuk kamu, kaum keluarga, kekasih hati, sahabat handai, dan diri sendiri.

Amin.