"great".

The twitter says it all. I have been feeling rather blue since early this weekend. Plans that I had in mind withered one after another. Probably one of my lowest lows for this year. And what happened just now did not do much in helping me to cope with my distress.

I hope tomorrow's gonna be better.
Or else, I might have to resort to shopping and by that I meant crazy ass shopping.

I'm shouting on top of my lung asking for the holidays to come FAST!

If there is a way on how to make the days go by faster, I would be willing to pay RM 10 for it (oh gaji masuk lambat lagik, so mane buleh spend lavishly). I am, honestly, quite frankly, am sick of waking up for rows of several days (and this includes my precious weekends - last week had to be the scorer for softball mssj on both saturday & sunday. oh yay.) and go to a place where I am doomed to carry out the work that has been a routine it is fast becoming stale. My heart is rapidly becoming bitter and I constantly found myself cursing under my breath when my classroom management didn't work its magic. Or when it came to my realisation that the typical lesson works better (in terms of keeping the students behaved because they would be busy copying down the notes aways or they'll be late for recess/go back home) than those fun lessons that I tried to organize for them. It certainly doesn't help either when the body seems not to be willing to cooperate with me and works at its perks. I have been bitten by the fever bug so I am now feverish. Somewhat.

This weekend won't be nice and easy too. There would be another (effing) LDP (Latihan Dalam Perkhidmatan - it's like a kursus for us teachers, that is held in our school. Minimum 0f 6/8 in a year) on Saturday. I would still be going back home tho on Saturday. The most days of being in BP without losing my sanity is 14 days. That much, I have discovered. And I still have that mountain of question papers to be stapled together. Hundreds of them and I know just who would be the victim *coughs* I meant, helper. My 16-year-old just-coming-of-age brother.

I just can't wait for next Friday to come. Go back, say goodbye sucker *slaps self* students for I won't be seeing you for 2 weeks (distance makes the heart goes fonder) and have a rejuvenating holiday. I won't be going anywhere fancy unlike last year's mid year break but this time around it would still be fun nonetheless, with anticipated rendezvous with friends and dates with my goldfish. I want, I want, I want! So I'm shouting on top of my lung, May 29, please come fast.!

good morning baby :)

Have you ever listened to Bic Runga's? This song on youtube that I'm showing you guys is probably not the best choice to introduce you to Bic Runga. Her fans would agree that it has to be Sway (a very nice song, one of my favourite. Search on it on youtube and listen to it!) Some info about her though, she is part Malaysian Chinese, part Maori. I got to know about her stuff when I was studying in NZ. Her songs (sway and good morning baby) actually made up the soundtrack for the movie American Pie (I love this movie, too! Classic story about horny American teenagers in a bone tickling funny potrayal. Only 1-3 are good tho, the others are crap, I tell you, crappp. They are just wannabes of American Pie). Nways, back to Bic (you say it as 'Bec' btw), her voice always comfort me and her songs always find their ways in soothing my anxious soul. So, here's Good Morning Baby for you. A perfect song to start your day :)



And here's the lyric too!

Between an overload of information
And a striving for a pure dedication
I find myself looking for the exit sign
See your pretty face in the sunshine
In the morning after staying up all night
I want to wake you just to hear you tell me it's alright
And all I want to be is too much sometimes for me

Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day

I see the stars and all the planets
Fly the great wide world and have it all
Yeah, I better get a ticket,
better get in line
I'm praying now for beautiful weather
Take a car and drive forever but I'm
Only ever sitting at the traffic light
And all the world to see is too much sometimes for me

Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day

(And when you rise)
And when you rise you'll find me here
(Open your eyes)
And see myself reflected there
(And for awhile)
A little room becomes an everywhere

Between an overload of information
And a striving for a pure dedication
I find myself looking for the exit sign

Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day
Good morning, baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day (another day)

oh btw, this song is by Bic Runga AND Semisonic.

it's a record

I am in no way a great achiever in sport. It is never my thing. Has never been but am slowly getting immersed in it, because of my work now. Early of this year, I was busy handling the sports event at my school -specifically for my house (Go RED!). I came home late for almost every single weekdays. I got THE sunburn of my life.

Next, I was involved with softball. I have zero knowledge in this sport, let alone ever played it. But I was appointed as the team manager nonetheless and hey, I am not complaining because the title manager does, however, seems rather cool :) And during this one particular week where I went back home around 8pm every single freakin day, again, I got sunburn that is next to THE sunburn of my life (refer to 1st paragraph). I probably gonna have to go through with this horrific sunburn incident again (gah) this friday-sunday because the state level tournament will be held here and I'm probably gonna have to be one of the pegawai (nasib lah title pegawai tuh bes...).

Do you consider bowling as a sport? It IS, right?

I am no good in bowling too. I just bowl for fun and it didn't matter to me if the ball went into the gutter. Tak apa. As long as dapat baling kan. My percentage of getting total point that is over 100 is really rare. As rare as Batu Pahat feeling cold and breezy these days (it's heatwave season and I so hate it). So it was rather shocking when I actually surpass 100 a few weeks ago! And I actually beat some of my colleagues who are maniacs for bowling. Maybe their hands had gone numb on that night or maybe they were not feeling it. It doesn't matter. What matter is, I got 133 and I'm damn proud of it! (Altho...this is not likely to occur again. This record was out of pure luck, I reckon).


and oh, Y is me. The akak who key in the info called me Yana. Hahaha. After this record breaking history, we went out for a late supper (I am now, officially, restricted for supper, until further notice - i.e until I shed off heaps of kilos :P :P)

BTW,
I have another game this Thursday. It's for the teacher's day. Was forced to join it by my colleagues and I don't think I really mind joining it. It could be quite amusing to see these teachers behave outside the school compound you know :D

bliss!

I was just starting my aerobix routine. Sweating off my fats and trying to burn the calories. Need to shed a few kilos (impossible, kot within this 3 wix time!@) before my rendezvous wit fwens because I'm vain like that. And then it happened. The light went off and so did the fan. Utter darkness and I was alone at the basement. I breathed in the courage that I could gather and went upstairs, asking for matches/lighter from my roomie. She had none. With the dim light from my handphone (of which, has no spotlight on its own so I had to depend on the blue light from the screen), I went to the kitchen and light the candle using the stove. That must had burnt like couples of calories, I reckon, because I was sweating like mad. It felt like... bathing in hot spring in scorchingly hot weather. Of course, I just had to stop the aerobics. I'd rather use up the lappie's batt on going online and getting civilised rather than burning off the fats. I supposed the burning will just have to be postponed until tomorrow. Or until I'm feeling it :P

I went to my room, did a couple of toning exercises altho I was pretty sure that it was kinda useless because I'm gonna need to undergo about 20 mins of cardio before toning (or so I heard) but I did it anyway. I don't wanna feel too guilty. I focused on the contraction of my muscles. I imagined all of them getting crunched up and toned up. Oh, imagination.

The light from the candles swayed gracefully and it kinda got me in the zone for....sleeping. I gave it another 30 mins before I shower. And another 30 mins before I hit the sack. But until then, I was time for organising my wallet, making sure the notes are all neatly kept in order from biggest value to the smallest. With the picture of that dude (I'm still quite uncertain of whose picture that is on our notes) at the right side of the wallet. Organizing one's wallet could take up some time, you know. What with all the treasures that you can find in there. Should we call the ladies' as purse? Ah, screw that. Wallet sounds cooler. And I'm still missing that red wallet of mine which I bought in a new Billabong store at Queen St in Auckland back in 2006. I bought that out of impulse, I think? I was alone and the SA was really nice. And handsome. Heheheh. I was kinda in need of a new wallet, so maybe the timing was perfect. And the wallet was in RED. My ultimate favorite color. This new one is silver. Not bad altho what I was really lemming for was Coach's purse. Why was it more expensive than the handbags? I could only drool when I was in the States. But again, the SA was really super nice. I was like a kid in a candy store altho I was only shopping for friends at that time. Constantly showing my company the stuff that I think suit them but of course, it was pointless to show a guy and ask them to pick between two choices. They'll end up saying "both are really pretty" and snoozes on the couch (yes, the boutique has nice, comfy couches for these sorts of companies. Particularly bored guys). I wanna caress the paper bags going out from their boutique, going into another. It's a bliss living in the States because there are so many good stuff that are way cheaper than their marked up price here. Sigh.

Anyways,
sometimes it is kinda....serene to be living in the most minimal necessities that you can get, no? It must be stress-free to be living yearsss ago where the only source of light at night was lampu pelita. All the kids do their homework before they go off to bed while the momsies accompany the daddies smoking off their cigarettes. No tv that could messes up with the kids' minds and turns us into idiots. Early to bed, early to rise. Their days must've been very productive.

Seeing that it was particularly taking a long time for the electricity to get back on, I decided to shower. What a romantic feeling, showering under a dim light. All that was missing was a bathtub of rose petals and a man. Hehehehe. I had to slather on the lotion under a dim light too. I thought I was destined to sleep early tonight.

But,

I guess not.

The electricity went right back on as I was typing this entry and it was such a relief to see the lappie's batt being recharged. I say, one of my necessities nowadays is my laptop. I'd die out of boredom without it. I have been typing quite aimlessly. What I typed earlier was just random thoughts that had crossed my mind. I am so hyped up about the coming holidays. It is such a bummer though that I'm gonna have to wait for about 3 more weeks before the holidays come. I suppose this is one of the perks of my profession. Long holidays. And if you are not requested to attend courses etc during it, it can be quite a BLISS :) (Aiyo I'd die la if there's no breaks from seeing those rascals' for consecutive weeks).