cool babies make the world goes around.

While waiting for the baby to come out and momma gets to be a baby's stylist, enter, KINGSTON & ZUMA:  Gwen Stefani's boys.

We bought a few apparels that we thought (and still think so!) would look adorable on our baby without losing the cool factor. Yes, kewlness itu penting yah. Hehe.

Pumpkin Patch is now one of our favourite stores and I thought it sounds familiar. The brand. And of course, it is actually based in Auckland, NZ. If only I knew!!!!! I would've bought tons of shirts and pants!

The month before THE month

It's October :)

Not for long (I'm sure time will go by very quickly as there are heaps of work to be done before school ends) and my baby will be born :)

Ask me about the feeling of giving birth a few months back, I would've said I'm terrified beyond words.

Ask me now about it,

PASRAH.

Hehe.

No, seriously, I feel honoured. Honoured to be given the chance (inshaAllah) to bring a little caliph into this world. What matters to me now is that the baby will be delivered safely and he's healthy. I don't mind the pain, and truth be told, I'm fine with me dying during labour it that's what it takes. The most important thing to me now is the baby. He's my number one priority. My health, my comfort, my ease, my life, all of them fall into the very bottom of my priority list.

I know he would turn out to be an awesome guy regardless of me being with or without him :)

Lagipun kalau meninggal ketika labour, dikira syahid kan? Penghormatan yang betul-betul tinggi.

Tapi kena pastikan kerja semua settle dahulu kalau tak nanti orang sakit hati kalau meninggal menyusahkan orang lain :D

When will the time be, eh?

Early November?

Mid November?

End of November?

As long as the baby could be in my womb for at least 37 weeks, I'm fine with any time of the month.

I hope all will be well with you. And each day I pray that you would excel in your life, here and the hereafter. Be the awesome man that I've always envisioned you to be.

I love you my darling baby :) It's definitely okay for you to be kicking around when I'm trying to fall asleep. I don't mind. Awesome man kenalah rajin exercise, kan :D

Here's to us, to the next stage and to a great life that you will lead, hopefully, with me by your side too :)

Reminiscing the time when I found out I am expecting :)

Tadi time tunggu turn untuk check up, baca magazine Pa & Ma to kill the time. Selak punya selak, nampak satu page dari facebook yang Pa & Ma captured pasal cemana perasaan bila tau dah pregnant. Zuuuup. Terus teringat the day I found out I was pregnant.

The night before I found out I was pregnant, I drank a glass of Diet Dr Pepper (dia macam coke) dengan ais yang memang masyuk lah. Ooh sedapnya rasa. Nikmatnya. Tak terlintas pulak time tu kot tengah pregnant ke hape. My period isn't consistent. Kengkadang dia 28, 29, 30, 31. Averagenya dalam 30. Jadi bila dah lepas hari 28,29 tuh buat rilek saje lah. Sebab dah letih tetiap bulan macam nak saspen bila period lewat a few days. Heh.

Besoknye, hati dup dap dup dap. Memang gatal sungguh nak try Urine Pregnancy Test kit tuh yang memang dah ade stok kat umah. Tapi taknak try waktu husband ade kat rumah, nanti takut dia tengok, dia frust kalau negative. Jadi kalau buat sorang-sorang, negative pun, frust sorang-sorang aje. Or so I thought.

Maka lepas salam husband, dia pun gerak pegi keja. Lari masuk bilik nak try. Muehehehe. Ade nervous sket-sket. Tapi cuba saiko kan diri cakap,"alah nak try aje, kalau negative jangan sedih la, next time boleh try lagi". Tapi, waktu tuh, instinct memang cakap macam there's something. I must try. Tak boleh buat bodoh aje. Lagipun my birthday was approaching at that time. Wouldn't it be the most perfect gift ever, to find out you are expecting? :)

And so I did the test.

And left the strip unattended for a minute or two.

Bila masuk balik dalam toilet, my blood ran cold in my veins. Macam dia froze for a second gitu. My heart skipped a beat too. Could it be?

Ada dua line but the second one was a very faint one. But it was there.

Terus try buat the next strip. Kali nih different brand. Hehe.

Again, two lines! Rather faint. But being someone who was trying to conceive, you will read a lot about pregnancy stories on the internet and I knew a faint line is still considered as positive.

I wanted to cry sooooo bad.

Ye, bersyukur adalah description yang paling tepat pada waktu itu.

Wait, I think I cried bukan wanted to saja dah.

I txted my husband, knowing him, I knew the reply would've been on the dot especially when it comes to this kind of news. Tapi eh eh lambat pulak replynya. Bila call, tak dapat. Sah, line henponnya buat bengong lagi. Cis.

Called pulak opis line dia, dia takda, tapi sempatla sampaikan mesej supaya he would call me back. When he did, dia macam cemas. Takut ada benda buruk terjadi ke kan sebab macam emergency gitu siap suruh call back bagai. Tak pernah dibuek! But I merely told him, cube restart fon untuk baca my text.

Bila cakap cemtuh, dia dah dapat agak dah :)

Lepas tuh dia kol, sounded very very happy! Terus ajak nak pi jumpa doktor bila dia balik kerja nanti.

Malam tu, even though I was quite hesitant nak gi carik klinik yang masih bukak, tapi we managed to find one. Again, I did the UPT test and this time the line was not as faint as the ones I did in the morning. Doktor kata tahniah :) Dia bagi estimated due date based on my last menses.

Dalam kereta, suami cakap "Sekarang saya tau dah cemana rasa bila dapat tau isteri pregnant" sambil tersenyum kambing. He was very happy. We were both grateful for the opportunity to experience pregnancy. The next people I informed was my mom who was very happy too!! To date, memang nampak dia eksaited nak dapat cucu sulung.  Baju pun siap dah belikan bagai. And then I texted my sis in law and my besties. Lepas tuh reached my closest friends via FB by PM-ing them. Of course, they too were over the moon :) It felt so good to know that people were happy for us.

From that day onwards, memang amek langkah berjaga-jaga. Jalan pun perlahan-lahan. Makan memang jaga habis lah. Allah dah bagi anugerah lepas lama menunggu, tak sanggup rasanya nak men belasah aje melasak dan makan pelbagai.

Sekarang, kejap aje rasa dah 7 months. Syukur sangat-sangat. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kami dan selamat lah kami menimang cahaya mata pertama nih. Tengah sabar menanti nak dukung dia for the very first time. In the meantime, semoga dia selamat membesar dengan sempurna dalam perut ibu dia ni :) InshaAllah.

Diari Ramadhan Mak Yung

-- Tajuk nak bajet, kan. Haha. Teringat cerita Diari Ramadhan Rafique.--

Alhamdulillah, Allah bagi kesempatan untuk rasa berpuasa ketika hamil 5/6 bulan. Sekejap aje rasa. Dah nak raya dah. Kalau suruh evaluate puasa sendiri bagi tahun nih, oh, tak banyak bintang boleh saya bagi untuk diri saya. Masih baaaaannyak lagik perlukan improvement. InshaAllah kalau ada rezeki untuk jumpa lagi dengan Ramadhan tahun depan, harap adalah improvement.

Dan bulan ni juga saya tak dapat berpuasa penuh kerana ada kekangan tertentu walaupun pada awal Ramadhan kemain suka sebab ingatkan puasa tahun ni dapat puasa penuh. +__+ Mencabar rupanya berpuasa time pregnant. Siapa yang dapat berpuasa penuh tuh, untung sangat-sangat..

Tahun ni persiapan raya hampir kepada zero. Hampir saja ya sebab semalam berjaya beli jubah as baju raya merangkap baju untuk dipakai ketika semakin memboyot :D Untuk suami masih lagi zero. Nampak gaya tahun ni lebih kepada persiapan baby ;) Asal masuk aje kedai baju baby, mesti awwwwww comelnya baju yang itu! =D

Dalam bulan Ramadhan ni kebetulan ada dua baby expo, satu kat Mid valley dan satu kat KL convention Centre. We went to both walaupun time bulan berpuasa. Dapatla merembat pelbagai barangan yang berbaloi-baloi. Dapatlah banyak free gifts (I like this part- ngeheheh). Masih ada lagi barangan yang belum lengkap, slow-slow kayuh orang kata. Nak beli last minute semuanya sekaligus memang bisa meruntun jiwa nanti. Haha. Sebab tu kami start dari bulan ke 5 of pregnancy.

Tahun nih tak buat kuih raya unlike tahun lepas. Balik sekolah, sampai rumah dah nak pukul 6, kalau sibuk nak pulun buat kuih raya waktu malam nanti alamatnye ade oven yang kene buang dalam tong sampah. Hehe.

Pembesaran perut dah makin ketara, jalan pun dah semakin menyiput. Honestly, bila naik tangga tingkat tiga untuk pergi ke kelas tu memang kadang-kadang rasa nak pakai knee guard aje. Dan juga semakin out of breath kalau melasak sangat. Kadang-kadang tu stop sekejap kat pertengahan perjalanan naik tangga tu bagi amik nafas sket. Paling sweet kalau ada budak-budak yang concern tegur, teacher, be careful ya.. Adalah dalam dua-tiga kerat budak yang cemtu.

Masalah yang paling utama (for me,anyway) untuk berpuasa time pregnant cemni adalah dehydration. Haus sangat sampai kadang-kadang cakap pun merapu aje dalam kelas. Siap peluh-peluh sejuk lagi tu keluar. Balik bilik guru memang melepek lah, sambil jeling-jeling jam counting the hours to get back home =D Bila time sahur/buka tuh memang target minum air banyak-banyak sebab dehydration during pregnancy adalah tidak elok.Tapi semua nih pengalaman. Bolehla nanti cerita kat anak, bila dia dah faham, cemana ibu puasa waktu dia dalam perut. Hehe. Oh ye, paling suka sekarang nih kalau buka puasa adalah dengan air Ribena.

Sebelum Ramadhan, pernah bertekad tamau lagi pergi buffet Ramadhan untuk bulan puasa kali nih. Tapi, akhirnya, tewas. Haha. Nafsu nak makan benda manis-manis memang terlalu meluap. Dessert macam menari-nari depan mata. Akhirnya last week ajak husband pegi jugak buffet Ramadhan. Sampai aja terus attack meja dessert, bawak ke meja. Masuk aje waktu berbuka puasa, oh, seronoknya dapat makan dessert...rasa macam nak nanges. Bende lain tak makan sangat pun time tuh, tapi layan dessert aje sampaila kenyang. Membazir sangat sebenarnya pergi buffet Ramadhan, dah lah skarang nih bukannye boleh makan banyak pun..tapi tuhla, nafsu kan. So this is one of the reasons why I mentioned earlier in this post how my performance during Ramadhan this year tidak lah boleh dibanggakan.

Minggu depan dah raya.. ada lagi beberapa hari tinggal dalam bulan Ramadhan ni. Selamat berpuasa dan menjalani ibadah di penghujung Ramadhan! Dan selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin :)

baby's movement

I've been feeling my baby's movement for a few weeks now. It was subtle in the beginning and I used to not be able to tell it apart from gas. But now, it's obvious. It's the best sensation. It tells me that my baby is there. It never fails to make me feels grateful to Allah.

But yesterday my baby didn't move as much as before. Although I read on the internet at my time of pregnancy, it is pretty normal but surely, the worry was there.

This morning, I talked to my baby.

"Geraklah baby, ibu rindu awak.., ibu risaulah. Ibu sayang awak"

And right after that, the baby moved!

Sampai sekarang masih terasa dia gerak-gerak.

And my tears just keep on rolling.

Alhamdulillah.

Risau, memang risau walaupun tak ada apa yang patut dirisaukan InshaAllah. Tapi, the baby comes first. I don't mind not feeling well. I don't mind the pain. I'm okay with the discomfort I'm feeling. As long as the baby is fine.

Sorry baby, ibu nangis. Sebak sangat rasenye tadi. I love you so much even though I haven't met you yet. Terima kasih sebab bagi respond tadi =)